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Title: The Illusionist (oneshot)
Author: Andy-chan (![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
antimiya88)
Pairings: Matsumiya (main), Jun/ Gackt, Sakuraiba (side) - I couldn't resist XD
Genre: Historical AU (in a way), Romance, Drama
Rating: NC17
Summary: Set in the first half of 19th century, Jun is the son of a cold hearted industrialist who decided to marry him against his will with a Japanese/French aristocrat for his own benefit. The same time a mysterious magician, Ninomiya Kazunari, arrives at the city. What could their meeting lead to? Is Jun destined to find his special one or not?!
Notes: 1) I don't know many things about 19th century Japan so apart from the names of the cities, I had to 'westernize' it a bit... 2) it is only slightly based on the homonymous film and 3) this is myway too late birthday present for my beloved matsuaurore <3
The Illusionist
Author: Andy-chan (
antimiya88)Pairings: Matsumiya (main), Jun/ Gackt, Sakuraiba (side) - I couldn't resist XD
Genre: Historical AU (in a way), Romance, Drama
Rating: NC17
Summary: Set in the first half of 19th century, Jun is the son of a cold hearted industrialist who decided to marry him against his will with a Japanese/French aristocrat for his own benefit. The same time a mysterious magician, Ninomiya Kazunari, arrives at the city. What could their meeting lead to? Is Jun destined to find his special one or not?!
Notes: 1) I don't know many things about 19th century Japan so apart from the names of the cities, I had to 'westernize' it a bit... 2) it is only slightly based on the homonymous film and 3) this is my
matsuaurore <3The Illusionist
Part 1
“Son… I’m expecting you to be on your time for the ball tonight… I will announce your engagement with Camui-sama” was Matsumoto’s words spoken in a strict tone. “I won’t tolerate any kind of protest or denial!” he then turned to his son’s personal guard “Sakurai-san you’re responsible. Am I clear?”
Sho bowed really low. “Yes, Matsumoto-sama. Everything will be as you wish”
Matsumoto walked towards the door without taking, not even a single glance at his son. “Glad to hear that. Till tonight then” was all he said and walked out of the room leaving the two young men alone.
Jun fell on his back on his bed looking blankly at the ceiling. “Sho… why did things have to turn like this?” Sho lowered his head. Sadness was more than obvious in Jun’s spoken words. It was hurting him to see him be in that state. He was in charge of him since he was in his early teens. He had seen him grow into a really clever and sensitive young man, always caring for the others, not judging someone just by his social class or wealth. Jun was the exact opposite from his father.
***
Matsumoto Hiroki was one of the most powerful men of Japan. Perspicacious as he was, he became one of the first Japanese industrialists that had investments in European countries, such as the United Kingdom, Prussia and France, foreseeing the outburst in industry in the 1820s. But a man, thirsty for power, never feels satisfied. In one of his travels to France he met Camui Gakuto, a half-French/half-Japanese aristocrat. He convinced him to make business with him, having as a result their return in Japan.
Once the young aristocrat settled at their house as a guest, since he was permanently living in France, he was astounded by the industrialist’s son. He couldn’t believe that a young man like him could be that handsome. His skin, his eyes, his lips, everything were in Camui’s eyes perfect. In spite of never having any problems with getting whoever he wanted in the past, things turned out difficult with Jun. He started flirting gradually in a more persistent way but the latter remained always not responsive. The aristocrat though turned out stubborn and wont to take whatever he wanted. After two months he went to his father and asked his permission to marry his son. As it was natural, his father couldn’t turn down such an offer. This way I’ll enter into aristocracy… the scenario was too good for his taste.
Jun couldn’t believe his ears once he heard his father’s decision.
“But father… I don’t want him… Why do you have to marry me like that? You agreed without even asking me…”
“Ask you?” Matsumoto Hiroki smirked. “I think there’s a misunderstanding Jun. I’m not obliged to ask you anything. I decide… you do… End of discussion!”
Jun couldn’t accept it so easily. He was always the good son. His father had only received praises for him and now he was behaving towards him like that?! “I’m not another investment father! I’m a human being! I’ll be the one that decides how I will live my life!” it was the first time Jun had raised his tone against his father and also the first time he received a harsh slap as an answer.
“No… Jun… You’re my son… which actually translates into my most precious investment… Got it? And don’t even think to oppose to this because I will make other people pay… you know there are many who work here that could easily be found in the streets the next day…” Jun shivered feeling his father’s cold stare piercing his soul. “I don’t think you’d like that… would you?”
***
“Jun-sama perhaps Camui-sama can make you happy…” Sho tried to cheer Jun up but he knew that his voice was nowhere close to sound convincing enough.
Jun laughed bitterly as he stood up. “Sho… you know that’s not true… This aristocrat seems to be interested only in my looks…” he walked towards the window looking at the clouds that had covered the sky. “He never showed an interest in finding about me… my thoughts, my beliefs… How can someone like him make me happy?” his voice cracked a bit as he was muttering the last question. “I always thought that everyone has his special one… the one that without uttering a single word, you know that this person is meant for you. You might find him immediately or after many years and many disappointments but you will… Now I have started doubting myself… Perhaps there’s no such thing… or…” he bit his lower lip as he leaned on the wall “there was no one for me…”
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“Edo is amazing! Look at all these shops… and all those restaurants… and the wealthy houses! Chiba is sooo different! Though, unlike Kyoto, I haven’t actually seen any geishas in the streets… I know it’s not the capital but still… so beautiful!!!”
“Masaki-kun could you just put your head into the carriage please? We’ve been traveling for more than 8 hours and you’ve spent almost half of it hanging your head outside like that… Aren’t you tired?”
Masaki immediately put his head inside and sat properly. “I’m sorry Ninomiya-san” was all he could say lowering his head.
He always acted without thinking much. That had sometimes as a result to get scolded by the small figured man sitting before him, Ninomiya Kazunari. Masaki took a closer look at him. He was almost 25 years old, though someone could easily assume he was still a teenager. He didn’t know where he was coming from or what his personal story was. He only knew one thing: he was indebted in this man. It was two years ago when this person took him out of the streets he was living till then and gave him a shelter. He was strict sometimes but deeply kind. In spite of not saying many things, Masaki knew he was a caring person. His own presence in that carriage was the strongest proof.
“Have we arrived yet?” a sleepy voice heard.
Nino laughed. “Yes… Ohno-kun we have arrived at Edo… I believe you enjoyed your sleep!” was Nino’s comment causing a deep blush on Satoshi’s cheeks. “I’m expecting now everything to be ready for the upcoming performances…” Nino continued raising an eye-brow.
“Of- Of course, Ninomiya-san! I have everything ready… There are only some last details to be done but I promise you I will have them finished by tonight!” Satoshi replied immediately.
“Glad to hear that Ohno-kun! I have faith in your skills!” Satoshi only smiled in return. He was an artist. That’s how he always presented himself and he was proud of that. But being an artist meant no steady work, followed by no steady income. That was until he made a deal with Ninomiya Kazunari; a mysterious but honest man. He only felt admiration for him. Someone might take him for a cute, fragile person, mistakenly influenced by his looks but in reality he was an extremely clever and self acknowledged person who always stood his ground.
The carriage stopped. Once the three men stepped out they found themselves in one of the busiest roads of Edo. They entered the western type hotel heading to the reception.
“How can I help you gentlemen?” the receptionist asked them politely.
“My name is Ninomiya. I’ve booked a triple room for 10 nights”
“Ninomiya-san… let me look our list for a minute… Yes… I’ve found you. Here’s your key sir” As they were heading to the stairs they heard the receptionist’s voice once again. “I’m sorry sir… but are you by any chance the famous magician… Ninomiya Kazunari…?”
Nino turned his head and looked at the man smiling. “Yes sir… I’m the one…” he paused for a few seconds “though I’d prefer it if you used the term illusionist…”
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“May I come in, Jun-sama?” Jun heard Sho’s gentle voice.
“Yes Sho. I’m already dressed… Come in…” Jun was looking at himself in the mirror. He was wearing his formal attire.
“You look handsome Jun-sama” Sho said once he entered.
Jun smiled bitterly “You think so? I guess my fiancé to be will be happy…”
“Jun-sama…” Sho couldn’t find the right words to answer.
Jun turned around and placed a hand on Sho’s shoulder. “It’s ok Sho. I gave it a thought. Perhaps I just rejected it too fast… Perhaps Camui-sama is warm underneath… Perhaps he’s my destined one that I refuse to see…”
Sho looked at Jun’s eyes with concern. “Jun-sama…”
A knock was heard on the door and then a servant’s voice. “Jun-sama, Matsumoto-sama sent me to inform you that it is time for you to make your appearance at the ball”
Jun smiled reassuringly to Sho. “Don’t worry… everything will be fine…” He then turned to the closed door. “Inform my father that I’m coming” After taking a deep breath he walked towards it and opened it. “It’s now or never Jun” was all he could muttered to himself as he started climbing down the stairs that led to the ball.
***
Everything was sparkling, from the decorations to the guests’ clothes. It was just that Jun hated this kind of sparkle, the one that was only a cover for the worst dust that could be found. He saw his father flash smiles around as he was greeting every single important person in the room. There were aristocrats, politicians, industrialists, businessmen, bankers… all the kinds of the so called high society. He wouldn’t miss the chance Jun thought as he walked through the crowd to come closer to him.
“Jun! You came!” his father said kindly. “Let me introduce you to Ito-san, the administrator of the finances of Edo prefecture”
Jun saw the middle aged man patting his head. “Matsumoto-san… you never told me you had such a cute son…” this Ito said to his father grinning in a disgusting for Jun way.
Matsumoto smiled. “That’s because he has just turned 20, Ito-san. It’s his first time to appear at a ball”
Ito then caressed a bit Jun’s cheek sighing. “So young… no wonder why his skin is so tender…”
Jun wanted to jerk his head off this man’s hand but he knew such a thing could only cause problems, so instead, he just bowed “Thank you for your kind words, Ito-san. It’s a pleasure to meet you” he then turned his head to his father. “Father, if you excuse me, I’ll go to find some water…” he could feel his father’s warning gaze but he couldn’t stay any longer with that greedy old man touching him like that. “I’m nervous… Ito-san, would you excuse me please?”
Ito seemed not to take notice of anything as he just replied. “Of course… go ahead, my boy…”
But before he could leave his father whispered in his ear “Stop this attitude immediately…”
Jun looked at him and replied in the same low voice. “Don’t worry father… I know…”
He felt the room suffocating him. He knew that this night would be long for him; perhaps too long. As he took a glass of water and drank it in one go, he sensed a pair of eyes being fixed on him, as if they were piercing into his soul. He turned around trying to detect at least something but to his disappointment his eyes met no one… Everyone was quite further from him, too preoccupied to fulfill their personal interest, business or not. He sighed. So must I have imagined it…
He was too lost in his own thoughts when he heard the voice of his fiancé from behind. “You look way too handsome tonight Jun…” he felt him coming closer and whispering in his ear. “So you like playing seductive games huh?” Jun shivered. “I like it that you want to play along my little whore…”
“With all due respect, Camui-sama I have no intension to play any kind of games and I would ask you to be more polite with me and never use such characterizations that insult me as a person” Jun tried to remain calm and suppress his feeling to run away.
The aristocrat laughed while sipping some of his champagne. “So my little whore is quite a rebellion huh?! I wouldn’t have foreseen it but that detail might turn things even better… I like passionate people who have to be tamed” he caressed a bit Jun’s cheek before grabbing his chin a little harshly making Jun look at him in the eyes. “Especially when it comes to bed activities…” he continued smirking widely. “I can’t wait…” he concluded licking his lips.
They heard someone clearing his throat. “Excuse me for my inconvenience but Matsumoto-sama has asked for you, Camui-sama. It matters the announcement of your engagement”
“Ah…is it so? Thank you, Sakurai-san. Then later… my love…” Camui said and left the two men alone.
“Jun-sama, are you alright?” Jun was looking at his fiancé to be and said nothing. Sho persisted feeling useless watching Jun in that state. “What was he saying to you? You looked as if you were about to faint… Perhaps I could talk to Matsumoto-sama and postpo-”
“No!” Jun snapped him. “Sho, I’m fine… he told me that he can’t wait to marry me and that I look handsome… you have nothing to worry… I’m just nervous… that’s all!”
“Jun-sama you don’t have to push yourself to his limit! Please…” Sho tried to dissuade him but Jun was not listening to him.
“Sho I will say it one last time. I’m not a kid. I have taken the decision to follow my father’s will and I intend to keep it. You have nothing to worry about… I-” Jun stopped his sentence as he heard his father calling him to come closer to the center of the big hall. “Now if you excuse me I have to go…” he started walking slowly towards his father and Camui feeling his heart, with every single step he took, closer to its burst. He tried to control his breathing and chase away all the feelings of fear. Jun, please… you have to be strong… the others are not to blame for your own actions… you can’t let them pay in your place…
He was already standing next to them smiling to the crowd but inside he was feeling nothing but emptiness… As if his soul had left his body… He saw his father giving them his blessings, he saw him putting the engagement rings in their fingers and then Camui kissing him… yet he felt nothing… it was more like he was watching a theatrical performance. But then he sensed it again… that gaze… on him… this time he managed to catch a small figured guy before he got lost in the crowd… he didn’t see his face but clearly he wasn’t from Edo… he had a different aura… an aura that made his heart accelerate its beating rhythm without even understanding why. Before he knew he was pulled into a dance. It was general custom that the newly engaged couple would open the ball.
“Did you enjoy the kiss?” he heard Camui whispering but had no intention to answer.
The aristocrat laughed “You know… the more you deny the more you turn me on… we will have so much fun together… I promise you…”
Jun continued remaining in total silence. Please God let this night be over soon... I don’t know if I can handle it anymore…
***
“Ohno-kun! Look at all this food!!! I’ve never seen so much in my entirely life!!! And most importantly it’s for free!!!”
“Masaki-kun please… could you at least lower your tone a bit? Everyone’s staring… we don’t want to get kicked out!” Satoshi tried to make Masaki-kun stop. “We’re not here for fun but for work! I’ll go to check on Ninomiya-san... please stop embarrassing yourself!” Masaki just nodded while putting even bigger portion of food in his mouth. Satoshi could just sigh. He will never grow…
Masaki was too absorbed with all this luxury to notice that he had caught the attention of a specific someone for quite a long time now.
The moment he was ready to put in his mouth another chicken leg he took notice of the other’s presence causing him to choke. “Well that’s what happens when you put too much food in your mouth…” the tone of the unknown young man was strict but not offensive.
Masaki couldn’t help but blush and lower his gaze. If that reached Nino’s ears he was dead. He tried to speak once again but that only caused him to choke worse. He saw a glass of water being offered to him.
“Take it. Drink a bit and speak once you’ve swallowed” Masaki blushed even more but said nothing and did as he was told.
“Cute…” Masaki looked the man in front of him dumbfounded. Had he really heard that or not? Masaki shook his head. You’re just hearing things Masaki… as if this gentleman here would call you cute… But then he gave it a better thought and why would I care if this person, who also happens to be a m-a-n, called me cute… I guess I’m pathetic… the stranger’s voice pulled him out of his thoughts.
“My name is Sakurai Sho. I’m one of the Matsumoto family’s guards. May I see your invitation sir?”
Masaki sighed. Of course he wouldn’t care about me… I just made myself looking suspicious. “Of course Sakurai-san… here it is” he passed it to him.
Sho looked at it for a few seconds. “So you are Ninomiya Kazunari, the great magician?” he asked scanning the man in front of him from head to toe suspiciously.
Masaki cleared his throat. “No… My name is Aiba Masaki… I-”
“You do know that this party is a closed one Aiba-san. If you don’t want to get into trouble please leave it immediately”
Masaki started panicking. “There’s a misunderstanding Sakurai-san. I’m not Ninomiya Kazunari but I’ve come with him” he saw Sho raise an eyebrow, obviously having a difficulty to believe him. “I’m his assistant!”
“Prove it please… otherwise I’ll have you thrown out…” Sho’s tone was definitely a warning one.
Masaki, without giving it a big thought he just grabbed Sho’s hand leading him through the crowd to the room where Nino was getting ready for his performance. His walking pace was fast, panicked and he didn’t stop until he was in front of him.
“See?! There he is… Ninomiya Kazunari!”
“I can see that… But could you now please let my hand?” Masaki wished that earth could swallow him up at the realization of his act.
“I – I’m sorry… sir…” he lowered his head embarrassed but that seemed to pass unnoticed by Sho.
“Can I see your travelling documents sir? Just to make sure that you are who this man here” Sho pointed to Masaki “claims. It’s only typical…”
Nino sighed but gave immediately the guard his papers. “Is everything ok now? Because I have to get ready…”
Sho gave him back his documents “Of course Ninomiya-san” Sho bowed “I’m really sorry for the commotion” he headed to the door “And you Aiba-san should learn to know the place and time to let your enthusiasm free. It might lead to wrong conclusions…”
Masaki could feel his gaze upon him and felt terrible. “I’m sorry” he almost whispered.
Sho smiled. “I’m not preaching you I’m just giving you a piece of advice”
Once he left, Masaki felt a light slam landing on his left cheek. “Masaki-kun… are you that stupid or you just pretend one? You know that being invited in such a gala can only translate into benefit and extra money for us. When I got the invitation of that showing off richie, I thought it as the ticket to our success here… Yet you are impulsive as always. Learn to control yourself and know your surroundings first” was Nino’s angry voice.
“I’m sorry Ninomiya-san… I really didn’t mean to cause any kind of problem to you” Masaki’s tears started flowing down his face.
Nino sighed. “It’s not about me Masaki-kun… It’s about you… Anyway… we have no time now. The performance is about to start. Get ready!” He entered the second room that was provided for them to concentrate. He always needed some time alone before performing in front of an audience. He heard the others call him. “Ninomiya-san! It’s time!” Nino stood up and smirked. It’s show time.
***
Jun was sitting between his father and his now fiancé at the front row of chairs arranged specifically for tonight’s event. He knew his father wanted more than anything his ball to be discussed everywhere as the best. So, having something special organized didn’t really surprise him.
He saw all the lighting to lower. Most of the candles were blown off. He didn’t know what to expect but then he saw him; the small figured man from before standing in the middle of the roughly made stage. He had seen similar performances in the past but nothing was like that… he saw him playing with fire, he saw him making birds appear out of nowhere, leaving his father’s guests amazed. It seemed as if he was making art… as if he was in his own world in which he could rule time and space… as if he was his creator.
He saw him create illusions… illusions that could deceive the eye and play with your mind. His moves were so graceful… Jun felt as if he was casted a spell… he felt being rapt by the magician’s moves in his entirety. Then, their eyes met for only a second but Jun knew… he knew that this was the pair of eyes he had felt earlier. He smiled at him?! Jun’s heart started beating incredibly fast and the next second the lighting became strong once again leaving an empty stage. Jun was ecstatic. How did he do that?!
***
He was still lost in his thoughts when he heard his fiancé calling him. “My beloved Jun, I asked for your father’s permission to let us visit the garden…”
Jun looked at his father seeking desperately for a way out, having already a bad feeling but all he got from his father was “You should go but don’t be too late… we don’t want to raise questions over you two…”
“Father…” Jun didn’t have the chance to finish his line as he felt a tight grip in his hand dragging him outside. He tried to escape but the other was stronger.
“I’m asking you to leave me at once Camui-sama!” The aristocrat burst into laughs.
“You still call me Camui-sama?! I’m your fiancé… your husband to be…” he looked at Jun smirking “but that’s perhaps my fault. I have kept too much distance between us…”
Jun was dragged into the opposite part of the garden, far away from the ball and the visible spots. He was thrown on the ground. He felt touches all over his body; touches that were unwelcomed. Touches that made him feel sick. He felt his fiancé’s hand traveling under his shirt onto his skin. Hungry kisses being spread from his lips to his neck. He tried to push him off but it seemed that the other man was determined to get what he wanted.
“I’ve waited way too long to taste you… so be a good boy and stay still…” Jun saw the other’s lustful gaze “or you will hurt” he leaned to his left earlobe and licked it “a lot…”
Jun was crying and desperately trying to get free. Please God… Help me… Please… he heard the other loosening his trousers. He closed his eyes not wanting to see what would happen afterwards. He was ready but all he could hear was a loud scream of fear coming out of his fiancé’s throat. He opened his eyes to see a white faced Camui in front of a… Jun froze. It can’t be a wolf right? He saw the animal coming closer to them revealing his canines.
The aristocrat then made Jun stand and threw him towards the animal. “Take him…” Jun saw him run back to the ball. He felt his heart stopping as he made some steps backwards in hopes of not provoking the wolf in front of him. He looked closer… those eyes… It can’t be…
He then heard movements coming from a nearby tree and a silhouette coming closer. As soon as the other became visible the wolf disappeared with a snap of his fingers. “Are you alright?” his voice was so gentle, so warm. Jun was left there staring at the young man in front of him, with his clothes half opened.
Only when the other started buttoning his shirt he realized his state, yet he had no power. He just stood there until the other man helped him look again decent.
Jun finally found his voice back. “How did you…”
Nino looked at him and smiled. “How did I created the wolf? I can’t reveal that… It’s my job’s secret… Now let’s go back!” he said in low voice and started walking towards the direction of the house.
Jun grabbed his hand forbidding him to move any further. “No!” Nino turned around and looked into the other’s eyes. “Could you stay with me for a little bit? It’s not like I want to go back there… It’s so suffocating and I’ll also have to face him…” Jun’s voice trembled a bit but stopped himself from breaking down.
Nino didn’t reply immediately. After several moments he gave in. “Fine. Just… for a while… ok?” Jun nodded.
They walked towards a marbled bench that was near them and sat next to one another. Jun took as closer look to the other. He was thin and a little shorter than him but his face was really beautiful; especially the eyes… they had a deep brownish, hazel color. Jun believed he could get lost in them…
“Do I have something on my face? You keep staring at it…” Jun saw him smiling while lowering his head.
“No… it’s just… you’re beautiful…” the words slipped from his mouth before he could control them. The moment he realized what he said he grabbed his mouth with his palm blushing deeply.
“You should be careful what and to whom you’re saying this kind of things…” Nino said without looking at him. “You don’t know how the other would react…” he turned his head meeting Jun’s gaze and leaned closer to his face until their lips were only inches apart.
Jun’s heartbeat raced uncontrollably. He felt heat spreading all over his body. He felt powerless and totally surrendered to this mysterious man in front of him. He closed his eyes when he heard the other’s voice.
“You should never let your guard down… you become way too irresistible for the other… Matsumoto-san…” Jun opened his eyes to see that Nino had come back to his previous position on the bench. “Are you feeling better now? We should go back before your absence cause suspicions…” He stood up but Jun didn’t let him move.
“Will I see you again?” agony was more than present in his tone.
“You’re mostly welcomed to watch my performances to the Tokugawa theatre” said Nino smiling. “But now please… we should head back” without saying another word Nino started walking followed by Jun. In the way he was walking was portrayed his confidence. Jun felt something warm in his chest. Who are you Ninomiya Kazunari?
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Once he entered the room, he saw to his relief his fiancé occupied with drinking. He walked discreetly towards Sho who was standing at the opposite side.
“Jun-sama where have you been? Your father told me that Camui-sama insisted on you accompanying him to the garden? Are you alright? Did he by any means harass you?”
Jun smiled and shook his head negatively. “Everything’s fine Sho” his eyes met his…
“D- don’t worry…”
Soon the ball finished and all the guests left. Jun was stuck next to Sho. He couldn’t risk it be left alone again with his fiancé. His father, to Jun’s relief, satisfied with the outcome and the recognition he had gained, paid no attention to his son, which meant he could go to his own room and rest.
As he was heading to his door he heard panting and… could it be moans? He made his steps as light as possible, not desiring to get caught, just to see his fiancé with one of their maids in the middle of the corridor; her being on her hands and knees and him thrusting inside of her forcefully while slamming violently her buttocks.
“You like that bitch huh? You like it when I hit you like that?!” Camui said, panting heavily, while he changed the rhythm.
“Ahhh! Camui-sama mo- ah… more p- please… more…” was the desperate voice of the maid.
The scene, in combination with the voices and the sounds of slapping skins made Jun run quickly to his room and lock himself in it feeling sick. He collapsed on the floor, tears coming down his cheeks as the feeling of fear and uneasiness built inside of him. What did I get myself into?
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“Ninomiya-san you managed to leave everyone speechless… as always!” Masaki said while the three of them was heading back to their hotel. “And everyone was so beautifully dressed… and they were dancing so gracefully… especially Matsumoto Jun-san and Camui Gakuto-sama… I believed they had come out of a fairytale… Don’t you agree?” he said looking at Nino and Satoshi. “I wish I could dance like that… Though I’m way too clumsy and nowhere that handsome as them…” he said lowering his gaze to his lap. “But it felt sooo dreamy… If only it was Sakurai-san the one who had asked me…” the last phrase was spoken to himself rather than the others. In spite of that, Satoshi didn’t leave the chance unexploited.
“So… you liked the guard?”
Masaki seemed to be lost in his own dreamland. “Yes…” a smile had formed on his lips. “I- I mean NO!”
“You don’t have to panic… you were too obvious anyway…” Satoshi laughed at the sight of blushing and nervous Masaki. “Though I agree with you… the host’s son and his fiancé looked very elegant together! Don’t you agree Ninomiya-san?”
But Nino said nothing in return. He just kept looking outside the carriage. He looked at his hand; the one Jun had grabbed. He closed his eyes. He could still feel his hot breath. I can’t deny that he was handsome… and innocent… too innocent for his own good…
Part 2
“Son… I’m expecting you to be on your time for the ball tonight… I will announce your engagement with Camui-sama” was Matsumoto’s words spoken in a strict tone. “I won’t tolerate any kind of protest or denial!” he then turned to his son’s personal guard “Sakurai-san you’re responsible. Am I clear?”
Sho bowed really low. “Yes, Matsumoto-sama. Everything will be as you wish”
Matsumoto walked towards the door without taking, not even a single glance at his son. “Glad to hear that. Till tonight then” was all he said and walked out of the room leaving the two young men alone.
Jun fell on his back on his bed looking blankly at the ceiling. “Sho… why did things have to turn like this?” Sho lowered his head. Sadness was more than obvious in Jun’s spoken words. It was hurting him to see him be in that state. He was in charge of him since he was in his early teens. He had seen him grow into a really clever and sensitive young man, always caring for the others, not judging someone just by his social class or wealth. Jun was the exact opposite from his father.
***
Matsumoto Hiroki was one of the most powerful men of Japan. Perspicacious as he was, he became one of the first Japanese industrialists that had investments in European countries, such as the United Kingdom, Prussia and France, foreseeing the outburst in industry in the 1820s. But a man, thirsty for power, never feels satisfied. In one of his travels to France he met Camui Gakuto, a half-French/half-Japanese aristocrat. He convinced him to make business with him, having as a result their return in Japan.
Once the young aristocrat settled at their house as a guest, since he was permanently living in France, he was astounded by the industrialist’s son. He couldn’t believe that a young man like him could be that handsome. His skin, his eyes, his lips, everything were in Camui’s eyes perfect. In spite of never having any problems with getting whoever he wanted in the past, things turned out difficult with Jun. He started flirting gradually in a more persistent way but the latter remained always not responsive. The aristocrat though turned out stubborn and wont to take whatever he wanted. After two months he went to his father and asked his permission to marry his son. As it was natural, his father couldn’t turn down such an offer. This way I’ll enter into aristocracy… the scenario was too good for his taste.
Jun couldn’t believe his ears once he heard his father’s decision.
“But father… I don’t want him… Why do you have to marry me like that? You agreed without even asking me…”
“Ask you?” Matsumoto Hiroki smirked. “I think there’s a misunderstanding Jun. I’m not obliged to ask you anything. I decide… you do… End of discussion!”
Jun couldn’t accept it so easily. He was always the good son. His father had only received praises for him and now he was behaving towards him like that?! “I’m not another investment father! I’m a human being! I’ll be the one that decides how I will live my life!” it was the first time Jun had raised his tone against his father and also the first time he received a harsh slap as an answer.
“No… Jun… You’re my son… which actually translates into my most precious investment… Got it? And don’t even think to oppose to this because I will make other people pay… you know there are many who work here that could easily be found in the streets the next day…” Jun shivered feeling his father’s cold stare piercing his soul. “I don’t think you’d like that… would you?”
***
“Jun-sama perhaps Camui-sama can make you happy…” Sho tried to cheer Jun up but he knew that his voice was nowhere close to sound convincing enough.
Jun laughed bitterly as he stood up. “Sho… you know that’s not true… This aristocrat seems to be interested only in my looks…” he walked towards the window looking at the clouds that had covered the sky. “He never showed an interest in finding about me… my thoughts, my beliefs… How can someone like him make me happy?” his voice cracked a bit as he was muttering the last question. “I always thought that everyone has his special one… the one that without uttering a single word, you know that this person is meant for you. You might find him immediately or after many years and many disappointments but you will… Now I have started doubting myself… Perhaps there’s no such thing… or…” he bit his lower lip as he leaned on the wall “there was no one for me…”
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“Edo is amazing! Look at all these shops… and all those restaurants… and the wealthy houses! Chiba is sooo different! Though, unlike Kyoto, I haven’t actually seen any geishas in the streets… I know it’s not the capital but still… so beautiful!!!”
“Masaki-kun could you just put your head into the carriage please? We’ve been traveling for more than 8 hours and you’ve spent almost half of it hanging your head outside like that… Aren’t you tired?”
Masaki immediately put his head inside and sat properly. “I’m sorry Ninomiya-san” was all he could say lowering his head.
He always acted without thinking much. That had sometimes as a result to get scolded by the small figured man sitting before him, Ninomiya Kazunari. Masaki took a closer look at him. He was almost 25 years old, though someone could easily assume he was still a teenager. He didn’t know where he was coming from or what his personal story was. He only knew one thing: he was indebted in this man. It was two years ago when this person took him out of the streets he was living till then and gave him a shelter. He was strict sometimes but deeply kind. In spite of not saying many things, Masaki knew he was a caring person. His own presence in that carriage was the strongest proof.
“Have we arrived yet?” a sleepy voice heard.
Nino laughed. “Yes… Ohno-kun we have arrived at Edo… I believe you enjoyed your sleep!” was Nino’s comment causing a deep blush on Satoshi’s cheeks. “I’m expecting now everything to be ready for the upcoming performances…” Nino continued raising an eye-brow.
“Of- Of course, Ninomiya-san! I have everything ready… There are only some last details to be done but I promise you I will have them finished by tonight!” Satoshi replied immediately.
“Glad to hear that Ohno-kun! I have faith in your skills!” Satoshi only smiled in return. He was an artist. That’s how he always presented himself and he was proud of that. But being an artist meant no steady work, followed by no steady income. That was until he made a deal with Ninomiya Kazunari; a mysterious but honest man. He only felt admiration for him. Someone might take him for a cute, fragile person, mistakenly influenced by his looks but in reality he was an extremely clever and self acknowledged person who always stood his ground.
The carriage stopped. Once the three men stepped out they found themselves in one of the busiest roads of Edo. They entered the western type hotel heading to the reception.
“How can I help you gentlemen?” the receptionist asked them politely.
“My name is Ninomiya. I’ve booked a triple room for 10 nights”
“Ninomiya-san… let me look our list for a minute… Yes… I’ve found you. Here’s your key sir” As they were heading to the stairs they heard the receptionist’s voice once again. “I’m sorry sir… but are you by any chance the famous magician… Ninomiya Kazunari…?”
Nino turned his head and looked at the man smiling. “Yes sir… I’m the one…” he paused for a few seconds “though I’d prefer it if you used the term illusionist…”
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“May I come in, Jun-sama?” Jun heard Sho’s gentle voice.
“Yes Sho. I’m already dressed… Come in…” Jun was looking at himself in the mirror. He was wearing his formal attire.
“You look handsome Jun-sama” Sho said once he entered.
Jun smiled bitterly “You think so? I guess my fiancé to be will be happy…”
“Jun-sama…” Sho couldn’t find the right words to answer.
Jun turned around and placed a hand on Sho’s shoulder. “It’s ok Sho. I gave it a thought. Perhaps I just rejected it too fast… Perhaps Camui-sama is warm underneath… Perhaps he’s my destined one that I refuse to see…”
Sho looked at Jun’s eyes with concern. “Jun-sama…”
A knock was heard on the door and then a servant’s voice. “Jun-sama, Matsumoto-sama sent me to inform you that it is time for you to make your appearance at the ball”
Jun smiled reassuringly to Sho. “Don’t worry… everything will be fine…” He then turned to the closed door. “Inform my father that I’m coming” After taking a deep breath he walked towards it and opened it. “It’s now or never Jun” was all he could muttered to himself as he started climbing down the stairs that led to the ball.
***
Everything was sparkling, from the decorations to the guests’ clothes. It was just that Jun hated this kind of sparkle, the one that was only a cover for the worst dust that could be found. He saw his father flash smiles around as he was greeting every single important person in the room. There were aristocrats, politicians, industrialists, businessmen, bankers… all the kinds of the so called high society. He wouldn’t miss the chance Jun thought as he walked through the crowd to come closer to him.
“Jun! You came!” his father said kindly. “Let me introduce you to Ito-san, the administrator of the finances of Edo prefecture”
Jun saw the middle aged man patting his head. “Matsumoto-san… you never told me you had such a cute son…” this Ito said to his father grinning in a disgusting for Jun way.
Matsumoto smiled. “That’s because he has just turned 20, Ito-san. It’s his first time to appear at a ball”
Ito then caressed a bit Jun’s cheek sighing. “So young… no wonder why his skin is so tender…”
Jun wanted to jerk his head off this man’s hand but he knew such a thing could only cause problems, so instead, he just bowed “Thank you for your kind words, Ito-san. It’s a pleasure to meet you” he then turned his head to his father. “Father, if you excuse me, I’ll go to find some water…” he could feel his father’s warning gaze but he couldn’t stay any longer with that greedy old man touching him like that. “I’m nervous… Ito-san, would you excuse me please?”
Ito seemed not to take notice of anything as he just replied. “Of course… go ahead, my boy…”
But before he could leave his father whispered in his ear “Stop this attitude immediately…”
Jun looked at him and replied in the same low voice. “Don’t worry father… I know…”
He felt the room suffocating him. He knew that this night would be long for him; perhaps too long. As he took a glass of water and drank it in one go, he sensed a pair of eyes being fixed on him, as if they were piercing into his soul. He turned around trying to detect at least something but to his disappointment his eyes met no one… Everyone was quite further from him, too preoccupied to fulfill their personal interest, business or not. He sighed. So must I have imagined it…
He was too lost in his own thoughts when he heard the voice of his fiancé from behind. “You look way too handsome tonight Jun…” he felt him coming closer and whispering in his ear. “So you like playing seductive games huh?” Jun shivered. “I like it that you want to play along my little whore…”
“With all due respect, Camui-sama I have no intension to play any kind of games and I would ask you to be more polite with me and never use such characterizations that insult me as a person” Jun tried to remain calm and suppress his feeling to run away.
The aristocrat laughed while sipping some of his champagne. “So my little whore is quite a rebellion huh?! I wouldn’t have foreseen it but that detail might turn things even better… I like passionate people who have to be tamed” he caressed a bit Jun’s cheek before grabbing his chin a little harshly making Jun look at him in the eyes. “Especially when it comes to bed activities…” he continued smirking widely. “I can’t wait…” he concluded licking his lips.
They heard someone clearing his throat. “Excuse me for my inconvenience but Matsumoto-sama has asked for you, Camui-sama. It matters the announcement of your engagement”
“Ah…is it so? Thank you, Sakurai-san. Then later… my love…” Camui said and left the two men alone.
“Jun-sama, are you alright?” Jun was looking at his fiancé to be and said nothing. Sho persisted feeling useless watching Jun in that state. “What was he saying to you? You looked as if you were about to faint… Perhaps I could talk to Matsumoto-sama and postpo-”
“No!” Jun snapped him. “Sho, I’m fine… he told me that he can’t wait to marry me and that I look handsome… you have nothing to worry… I’m just nervous… that’s all!”
“Jun-sama you don’t have to push yourself to his limit! Please…” Sho tried to dissuade him but Jun was not listening to him.
“Sho I will say it one last time. I’m not a kid. I have taken the decision to follow my father’s will and I intend to keep it. You have nothing to worry about… I-” Jun stopped his sentence as he heard his father calling him to come closer to the center of the big hall. “Now if you excuse me I have to go…” he started walking slowly towards his father and Camui feeling his heart, with every single step he took, closer to its burst. He tried to control his breathing and chase away all the feelings of fear. Jun, please… you have to be strong… the others are not to blame for your own actions… you can’t let them pay in your place…
He was already standing next to them smiling to the crowd but inside he was feeling nothing but emptiness… As if his soul had left his body… He saw his father giving them his blessings, he saw him putting the engagement rings in their fingers and then Camui kissing him… yet he felt nothing… it was more like he was watching a theatrical performance. But then he sensed it again… that gaze… on him… this time he managed to catch a small figured guy before he got lost in the crowd… he didn’t see his face but clearly he wasn’t from Edo… he had a different aura… an aura that made his heart accelerate its beating rhythm without even understanding why. Before he knew he was pulled into a dance. It was general custom that the newly engaged couple would open the ball.
“Did you enjoy the kiss?” he heard Camui whispering but had no intention to answer.
The aristocrat laughed “You know… the more you deny the more you turn me on… we will have so much fun together… I promise you…”
Jun continued remaining in total silence. Please God let this night be over soon... I don’t know if I can handle it anymore…
***
“Ohno-kun! Look at all this food!!! I’ve never seen so much in my entirely life!!! And most importantly it’s for free!!!”
“Masaki-kun please… could you at least lower your tone a bit? Everyone’s staring… we don’t want to get kicked out!” Satoshi tried to make Masaki-kun stop. “We’re not here for fun but for work! I’ll go to check on Ninomiya-san... please stop embarrassing yourself!” Masaki just nodded while putting even bigger portion of food in his mouth. Satoshi could just sigh. He will never grow…
Masaki was too absorbed with all this luxury to notice that he had caught the attention of a specific someone for quite a long time now.
The moment he was ready to put in his mouth another chicken leg he took notice of the other’s presence causing him to choke. “Well that’s what happens when you put too much food in your mouth…” the tone of the unknown young man was strict but not offensive.
Masaki couldn’t help but blush and lower his gaze. If that reached Nino’s ears he was dead. He tried to speak once again but that only caused him to choke worse. He saw a glass of water being offered to him.
“Take it. Drink a bit and speak once you’ve swallowed” Masaki blushed even more but said nothing and did as he was told.
“Cute…” Masaki looked the man in front of him dumbfounded. Had he really heard that or not? Masaki shook his head. You’re just hearing things Masaki… as if this gentleman here would call you cute… But then he gave it a better thought and why would I care if this person, who also happens to be a m-a-n, called me cute… I guess I’m pathetic… the stranger’s voice pulled him out of his thoughts.
“My name is Sakurai Sho. I’m one of the Matsumoto family’s guards. May I see your invitation sir?”
Masaki sighed. Of course he wouldn’t care about me… I just made myself looking suspicious. “Of course Sakurai-san… here it is” he passed it to him.
Sho looked at it for a few seconds. “So you are Ninomiya Kazunari, the great magician?” he asked scanning the man in front of him from head to toe suspiciously.
Masaki cleared his throat. “No… My name is Aiba Masaki… I-”
“You do know that this party is a closed one Aiba-san. If you don’t want to get into trouble please leave it immediately”
Masaki started panicking. “There’s a misunderstanding Sakurai-san. I’m not Ninomiya Kazunari but I’ve come with him” he saw Sho raise an eyebrow, obviously having a difficulty to believe him. “I’m his assistant!”
“Prove it please… otherwise I’ll have you thrown out…” Sho’s tone was definitely a warning one.
Masaki, without giving it a big thought he just grabbed Sho’s hand leading him through the crowd to the room where Nino was getting ready for his performance. His walking pace was fast, panicked and he didn’t stop until he was in front of him.
“See?! There he is… Ninomiya Kazunari!”
“I can see that… But could you now please let my hand?” Masaki wished that earth could swallow him up at the realization of his act.
“I – I’m sorry… sir…” he lowered his head embarrassed but that seemed to pass unnoticed by Sho.
“Can I see your travelling documents sir? Just to make sure that you are who this man here” Sho pointed to Masaki “claims. It’s only typical…”
Nino sighed but gave immediately the guard his papers. “Is everything ok now? Because I have to get ready…”
Sho gave him back his documents “Of course Ninomiya-san” Sho bowed “I’m really sorry for the commotion” he headed to the door “And you Aiba-san should learn to know the place and time to let your enthusiasm free. It might lead to wrong conclusions…”
Masaki could feel his gaze upon him and felt terrible. “I’m sorry” he almost whispered.
Sho smiled. “I’m not preaching you I’m just giving you a piece of advice”
Once he left, Masaki felt a light slam landing on his left cheek. “Masaki-kun… are you that stupid or you just pretend one? You know that being invited in such a gala can only translate into benefit and extra money for us. When I got the invitation of that showing off richie, I thought it as the ticket to our success here… Yet you are impulsive as always. Learn to control yourself and know your surroundings first” was Nino’s angry voice.
“I’m sorry Ninomiya-san… I really didn’t mean to cause any kind of problem to you” Masaki’s tears started flowing down his face.
Nino sighed. “It’s not about me Masaki-kun… It’s about you… Anyway… we have no time now. The performance is about to start. Get ready!” He entered the second room that was provided for them to concentrate. He always needed some time alone before performing in front of an audience. He heard the others call him. “Ninomiya-san! It’s time!” Nino stood up and smirked. It’s show time.
***
Jun was sitting between his father and his now fiancé at the front row of chairs arranged specifically for tonight’s event. He knew his father wanted more than anything his ball to be discussed everywhere as the best. So, having something special organized didn’t really surprise him.
He saw all the lighting to lower. Most of the candles were blown off. He didn’t know what to expect but then he saw him; the small figured man from before standing in the middle of the roughly made stage. He had seen similar performances in the past but nothing was like that… he saw him playing with fire, he saw him making birds appear out of nowhere, leaving his father’s guests amazed. It seemed as if he was making art… as if he was in his own world in which he could rule time and space… as if he was his creator.
He saw him create illusions… illusions that could deceive the eye and play with your mind. His moves were so graceful… Jun felt as if he was casted a spell… he felt being rapt by the magician’s moves in his entirety. Then, their eyes met for only a second but Jun knew… he knew that this was the pair of eyes he had felt earlier. He smiled at him?! Jun’s heart started beating incredibly fast and the next second the lighting became strong once again leaving an empty stage. Jun was ecstatic. How did he do that?!
***
He was still lost in his thoughts when he heard his fiancé calling him. “My beloved Jun, I asked for your father’s permission to let us visit the garden…”
Jun looked at his father seeking desperately for a way out, having already a bad feeling but all he got from his father was “You should go but don’t be too late… we don’t want to raise questions over you two…”
“Father…” Jun didn’t have the chance to finish his line as he felt a tight grip in his hand dragging him outside. He tried to escape but the other was stronger.
“I’m asking you to leave me at once Camui-sama!” The aristocrat burst into laughs.
“You still call me Camui-sama?! I’m your fiancé… your husband to be…” he looked at Jun smirking “but that’s perhaps my fault. I have kept too much distance between us…”
Jun was dragged into the opposite part of the garden, far away from the ball and the visible spots. He was thrown on the ground. He felt touches all over his body; touches that were unwelcomed. Touches that made him feel sick. He felt his fiancé’s hand traveling under his shirt onto his skin. Hungry kisses being spread from his lips to his neck. He tried to push him off but it seemed that the other man was determined to get what he wanted.
“I’ve waited way too long to taste you… so be a good boy and stay still…” Jun saw the other’s lustful gaze “or you will hurt” he leaned to his left earlobe and licked it “a lot…”
Jun was crying and desperately trying to get free. Please God… Help me… Please… he heard the other loosening his trousers. He closed his eyes not wanting to see what would happen afterwards. He was ready but all he could hear was a loud scream of fear coming out of his fiancé’s throat. He opened his eyes to see a white faced Camui in front of a… Jun froze. It can’t be a wolf right? He saw the animal coming closer to them revealing his canines.
The aristocrat then made Jun stand and threw him towards the animal. “Take him…” Jun saw him run back to the ball. He felt his heart stopping as he made some steps backwards in hopes of not provoking the wolf in front of him. He looked closer… those eyes… It can’t be…
He then heard movements coming from a nearby tree and a silhouette coming closer. As soon as the other became visible the wolf disappeared with a snap of his fingers. “Are you alright?” his voice was so gentle, so warm. Jun was left there staring at the young man in front of him, with his clothes half opened.
Only when the other started buttoning his shirt he realized his state, yet he had no power. He just stood there until the other man helped him look again decent.
Jun finally found his voice back. “How did you…”
Nino looked at him and smiled. “How did I created the wolf? I can’t reveal that… It’s my job’s secret… Now let’s go back!” he said in low voice and started walking towards the direction of the house.
Jun grabbed his hand forbidding him to move any further. “No!” Nino turned around and looked into the other’s eyes. “Could you stay with me for a little bit? It’s not like I want to go back there… It’s so suffocating and I’ll also have to face him…” Jun’s voice trembled a bit but stopped himself from breaking down.
Nino didn’t reply immediately. After several moments he gave in. “Fine. Just… for a while… ok?” Jun nodded.
They walked towards a marbled bench that was near them and sat next to one another. Jun took as closer look to the other. He was thin and a little shorter than him but his face was really beautiful; especially the eyes… they had a deep brownish, hazel color. Jun believed he could get lost in them…
“Do I have something on my face? You keep staring at it…” Jun saw him smiling while lowering his head.
“No… it’s just… you’re beautiful…” the words slipped from his mouth before he could control them. The moment he realized what he said he grabbed his mouth with his palm blushing deeply.
“You should be careful what and to whom you’re saying this kind of things…” Nino said without looking at him. “You don’t know how the other would react…” he turned his head meeting Jun’s gaze and leaned closer to his face until their lips were only inches apart.
Jun’s heartbeat raced uncontrollably. He felt heat spreading all over his body. He felt powerless and totally surrendered to this mysterious man in front of him. He closed his eyes when he heard the other’s voice.
“You should never let your guard down… you become way too irresistible for the other… Matsumoto-san…” Jun opened his eyes to see that Nino had come back to his previous position on the bench. “Are you feeling better now? We should go back before your absence cause suspicions…” He stood up but Jun didn’t let him move.
“Will I see you again?” agony was more than present in his tone.
“You’re mostly welcomed to watch my performances to the Tokugawa theatre” said Nino smiling. “But now please… we should head back” without saying another word Nino started walking followed by Jun. In the way he was walking was portrayed his confidence. Jun felt something warm in his chest. Who are you Ninomiya Kazunari?
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Once he entered the room, he saw to his relief his fiancé occupied with drinking. He walked discreetly towards Sho who was standing at the opposite side.
“Jun-sama where have you been? Your father told me that Camui-sama insisted on you accompanying him to the garden? Are you alright? Did he by any means harass you?”
Jun smiled and shook his head negatively. “Everything’s fine Sho” his eyes met his…
“D- don’t worry…”
Soon the ball finished and all the guests left. Jun was stuck next to Sho. He couldn’t risk it be left alone again with his fiancé. His father, to Jun’s relief, satisfied with the outcome and the recognition he had gained, paid no attention to his son, which meant he could go to his own room and rest.
As he was heading to his door he heard panting and… could it be moans? He made his steps as light as possible, not desiring to get caught, just to see his fiancé with one of their maids in the middle of the corridor; her being on her hands and knees and him thrusting inside of her forcefully while slamming violently her buttocks.
“You like that bitch huh? You like it when I hit you like that?!” Camui said, panting heavily, while he changed the rhythm.
“Ahhh! Camui-sama mo- ah… more p- please… more…” was the desperate voice of the maid.
The scene, in combination with the voices and the sounds of slapping skins made Jun run quickly to his room and lock himself in it feeling sick. He collapsed on the floor, tears coming down his cheeks as the feeling of fear and uneasiness built inside of him. What did I get myself into?
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“Ninomiya-san you managed to leave everyone speechless… as always!” Masaki said while the three of them was heading back to their hotel. “And everyone was so beautifully dressed… and they were dancing so gracefully… especially Matsumoto Jun-san and Camui Gakuto-sama… I believed they had come out of a fairytale… Don’t you agree?” he said looking at Nino and Satoshi. “I wish I could dance like that… Though I’m way too clumsy and nowhere that handsome as them…” he said lowering his gaze to his lap. “But it felt sooo dreamy… If only it was Sakurai-san the one who had asked me…” the last phrase was spoken to himself rather than the others. In spite of that, Satoshi didn’t leave the chance unexploited.
“So… you liked the guard?”
Masaki seemed to be lost in his own dreamland. “Yes…” a smile had formed on his lips. “I- I mean NO!”
“You don’t have to panic… you were too obvious anyway…” Satoshi laughed at the sight of blushing and nervous Masaki. “Though I agree with you… the host’s son and his fiancé looked very elegant together! Don’t you agree Ninomiya-san?”
But Nino said nothing in return. He just kept looking outside the carriage. He looked at his hand; the one Jun had grabbed. He closed his eyes. He could still feel his hot breath. I can’t deny that he was handsome… and innocent… too innocent for his own good…
Part 2
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