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Chapter 9

Masaki woke up next morning feeling the sunrays touching his face. He rubbed his eyes and sit up on the bed to find no one in the room. Was it a dream? But he was here… As he turned to reach for a glass of water he saw a small note left under his phone.

Baby,
I spoke to the doctors and they told me that today you’ll leave the hospital if everything was ok. I had to go to school and keep the notes for you. But I was wondering… would you like to go tomorrow evening perhaps on a date? I really want to take you out. We never had the chance right? If you agree let me know.
Love you, Jun

He read it and instead of feeling happy he felt as if there was a burden inside of him. He felt guilty. You have to try Masaki. You’re just being stubborn. Jun loves you and he was there for you since the first day you met him. The other… he has always hurt you… Masaki looked up through the window where the leaves of the tree outside were at the mercy of the strong wind. His eyes followed them for several minutes without moving when suddenly he heard someone calling his name.

“Aiba-kun… are you awake? Do you feel better today?”

“Yes… sensei… I just felt a little dizzy last night… I’m fine now…” Masaki tried to smile as brightly as possible. “Does my mother by any chance know?”

“We haven’t told her anything. I thought we should see how you are today. There’s no point in increasing her stress level… I believe that’s what you wanted…”

The doctor came closer and started examining Masaki. “You look fine. But it’s better if you stay at home for these two days. Get a good rest and try to stop over-thinking; it can only cause problems… ok? I’ll prepare a note for your school.” When he was done with the examination, he wrote down a prescription and gave it to Masaki. “These are natural herbs so no worries. Just make a hot decoction whenever you feel too stressed. It will help you relax alright?”

Masaki took it and while looking at it he muttered a thank you. After the doctor and the nurse left the room he got up and got dressed. He had to pass by the house and check on Bobo-chan. I wonder if he hates me now… He also needed to change his clothes.
 ***
As soon as he put the keys into the lock loud barks could be heard from the inside. He opened it slowly just to be welcomed from an overexcited Bobo-chan who jumped all over him licking wherever he could, barking happily and wiggling his tail in a crazy rhythm. “You still love me buddy?” Masaki was smiling at the scene. He closed the door and his hands went to caress Bobo-chan’s head area between his pointy ears, causing even merrier reactions from the dog. “Wait… you’re heavy… Bobo-chan… I’ll fall… You-” he heard the doorbell ringing. He managed to open it; it was Yamada-san with a large ball of cream stew if Masaki’s nose wasn’t mistaken.

“Yamada-san… please come in… Bobo-chan!!! Enough!” Masaki’s tone got a little higher making Bobo-chan lower his ears and go and hide behind a chair in the kitchen.

“Sorry for this… It’s just that I… came back home this morning and well I… ”

“Masaki… don’t worry… I took yesterday night Bobo-chan for a walk… ” Masaki’s eyes bulged. “Don’t look at me like that! He was behaving himself… he didn’t leave my side and we just walked two times around the block” Bobo-chan came tentatively closer to Masaki and sat by his side.

“But how did you-”

“You forget that you have given to the hospital my number as an emergency contact?” Masaki nodded. “They gave me a call last night... I wanted to come but they told me there was already a friend of yours, Matsumoto-kun…I think…, who volunteered to remain with you all night so all I could do was to take my little friend for a walk…”

Masaki bowed not knowing how to express his gratitude to this woman. “Yamada-san… honestly I don’t know how to thank you for all that you’ve done for us all these years…”

“What I really want to see is your genuine smile Masaki… cherish your youth and be happy… This Matsumoto-kun… he sounds a really nice person and someone who honestly cares about you… don’t lose him…ok?”

Before Masaki could answer Yamada-san had already stood up from her seat and approached the kitchen. “I made you cream stew. I guessed you need to catch your energy back. Do you need anything else?”

He came closer “No... Yamada-san… Thank you. I’ll make sure to eat the whole of it!” Before she left, Yamada-san told him once more. “Be happy Masaki… be happy!”

Masaki got ready and went back to the hospital to visit his mother. When he came back home it was already noon. He took a hot bath to help him relax and ate some of the cream-stew. After having finished with the dishes he lied down on the couch with his one hand behind his nape and looked at the ceiling. “This Matsumoto-kun he sounds a really nice person and someone who cares about you…. Don’t lose him… Be happy!” “I’ll always be here with you…” Masaki sat up and reached for Jun’s note he had left in his bag. He reread it. Maybe I should give it a try. I have to make it work… He sighed. Jun loves me…

Without a second thought he took his phone in his hand and dialed up Jun’s number. After a few beeps he answered.

“Baby?” Masaki felt a little shy at such an address but tried to suppress it.

“Jun… Hmmm… it’s me… I wanted to tell you I’m home now… Thanks for yesterday…”

“Never mention it again… I… I told you I’ll always be there for you didn’t I? Or perhaps you want me to repeat it for you?” Jun continued with a more flirtatious tone.

Masaki laughed but said nothing in return. “Hmm… Masaki?” Jun’s voice showed a trace of hesitance “Did you… did you read my note?”

Masaki took a deep breath before replying. “Yes… Jun… and well… I… I guess I’d be happy… to go on… a… d- date with you” he frowned at himself. Why did I have to stutter so much?!

Jun’s laugh could be heard at the other end of the line. “You know I can’t handle it when you’re this cute…” but before he could go on Masaki interrupted him quite abruptly.

“Can we… go tonight instead of tomorrow?  Please…”

Jun couldn’t hide his surprise. “Of course we can go tonight… Do you even have to ask? I just thought you might want to get some rest…”

Masaki shook his head as if the other could see him “No. I want to go tonight. I want to be with… you… Where could we meet?”

“How about Shibuya Station, Hachiko’s statue, at 7 o’clock?”

“Yes… It sounds perfect.”

“See you later then baby… bye…” Jun’s enthusiasm was more than obvious.

“Hun” was all Masaki could say and hang up. I’ll try my best to be happy… Jun can make me happy…he can…
……………………………………………


Masaki looked at himself on the mirror. I guess that would be ok… He was wearing a dark blue pair of jeans, slightly baggy, tucked into a pair of black boots that reached a little higher than his ankles and a black V-neck t-shirt on top. His hair was slightly wavy with the help of some gel. He knew how Jun could dress outside the school and if he took into consideration Jun’s experience as a host… then the pressure became double.

He grabbed his keys and his wallet and headed to Shibuya. The train was full of people either returning home from their work or going for a walk. The city’s lights were everywhere reminding Masaki how much he missed in his life. With these thoughts in his mind he walked towards his meeting point. As he came closer he saw Jun already there waiting for him. He was wearing a tight black pair of trousers with a similarly tight white t-shirt and a black vest on top. Masaki could also distinguish a quite large silver necklace around his neck. He couldn’t deny he looked really handsome in those. He accelerated his pace and called him out loud waving his hand enthusiastically. The other one turned and his face was glowing.

“Masaki… you… look astounding…” Masaki lowered his head to hide his embarrassment. “I’m happy that you put an effort for me…” Jun whispered in his ear not helping Masaki’s situation. 

“So… how about a movie?” Jun asked smiling widely distancing again himself a bit. Masaki nodded and followed him to the movie theater near the station.

Little by little Masaki started to relax and enjoy himself. He had taken the right decision. His mind could forget a bit about his mother, Nino, Sho… he could just live the moment. They had already passed together 3 hours and Jun was behaving as he promised. He didn’t try to do anything that might make Masaki feel awkward and that’s why Masaki was relieved. 

Jun stopped and looked at his boyfriend. “Would you like us… I don’t know to grab some dinner or go to drink something…? I just… don’t want to let you go so early…”

Masaki hesitated a bit before finally giving in to Jun’s proposition. “We… I guess we could go… for a drink?! I’m not really hungry after all that popcorn…”

Jun lifted slowly Masaki’s face by the chin. “Are you sure? I mean… It was stupid of me to ask you something like that… let’s forget about it. Ok?” he started walking away when Masaki stopped him by grabbing his arm.

“No… I want to go too… I guess it could be really fun… and maybe we could talk more?!” Masaki tried to look convincing. He was not really that fond of the idea but he had to do it for Jun. He’s the one who always do things for me… I have to do something for him as well.

“Are you sure? Masaki… I said I’ll go with your pace…” Jun was still not fully convinced.

Masaki came closer and rather clumsily pecked Jun’s lips before answering. “I’m sure… Now shall we go?”
***
It was a quite small underground club with a round dance floor in the middle and small tables for 4 people maximum around it. The bar was beautifully decorated with mirrors which reflected the bottles in the front and discreet backlight that made it look luxurious. The lighting was medium to low and the music to Masaki’s surprise was not echoingly loud. He could say that it gave out some relaxing aura. The same could be used for Jun but definitely not for him. He was really tensed as he was not used to this kind of places. He looked Jun from behind as he was guiding him towards their table at the opposite side. He was so confident. But of course he is… the one at the door even called him by his first name… I guess we’re way too different…

“Do you like this one? I thought it’d be better so that we can talk more easily.” Jun turned to Masaki while pointing at a table slightly away from the dance floor.

Masaki nodded smiling “Don’t worry. It’s fine.”

They sat next to each other but Masaki kept looking around him, the people, their carefree mood, the laughs…

“What would you like to drink?” Jun asked while caressing softly the top of his hand.

Masaki felt so much out of place that didn’t really know what to say. “You can… choose I guess” and flashed a smile betraying his awkwardness. Jun squeezed a bit of his hand as to reassure him as he called for the waiter.

“Two black velvet” Masaki turned to look at him dumbfounded.

“But Jun… it sounds like… alcohol right? We can’t…” Masaki whispered.

“If you’re afraid of being caught… you won’t and you can order another one if you don’t like it. It’s my treat anyway!” Jun winked and Masaki looked shyly at the table in front of him.

There had already passed two hours and Jun had ordered another one for himself. They had talked about many things; not something particularly serious but it was enough to make Masaki realize how clever Jun was. He also had a great sense of humor. But the more they talked the more Masaki felt that his feelings for him were restricted to friend zone. Still he tried to suppress the thought.

It was midnight and the lights turned so low that it was almost full darkness, making everything look different. The music also turned louder and people were already dancing on the dance floor lost in the songs’ rhythm. Masaki, lost in his own thoughts, suddenly saw a hand in front of him asking him to dance. Masaki became stiff on his seat not showing will to move when he felt that hand grabbing him and leading him to the center of the dance floor.

“Stop thinking too much” Jun whispered in his ear and started dancing holding a fair distance between them. As the time passed Masaki could feel himself following Jun’s advice. Jun came closer but he didn’t mind; not even when he felt arms around his waist. It his first time he was held like that and for some reason it felt quite nice though when he felt lips touching and licking his neck, he suddenly stopped his movements and looked down having the expression of a little child caught doing something bad. He knew what had just happened was only logical and expected but his body wouldn’t obey him.

“I’m… I’m sorry… I didn’t mean to-” he began to whisper in a trembling voice when Jun’s hand hushed him gently over his lips.

“Don’t apologize… I’m the one at fault here… I did something I had promised you I wouldn’t. We’re leaving ok? Just let me go to the bathroom for one moment” Jun said in his ear as the music couldn’t let him be heard differently and kissed Masaki’s forehead.

Masaki sighed. “Stupid… You have to get over it…” he muttered in an almost inaudible way. But before he could make a single step he found himself in someone else’s arms his head close to his neck. His heart skipped a beat when he realized that it was him. He tried to free himself but the other’s grip tightened even more not giving him the slightest chance to move.

“Just follow me…” he whispered in Masaki’s ear. His voice was low and seductive, grandiose yet not commanding. Masaki felt as if he was cut off from the outside world. Yes… he had already surrendered himself. He could only feel his hands around his waist; those hands that had hit him so many times in the past, now were feeling so right holding him like that. After a while, his own found their way to the other’s neck. No he was not held like that. That feeling was new and exciting. Their bodies were pressed against each other leaving no space between them. The other’s hands moved upwards finding his nape, caressing his hair. Their hips were moving united, as if they were one. He could sense his breath hot on his skin; it had a similar feeling – like his, fast and unsteady. He closed his eyes losing himself in the music. So that’s how it feels... He had forgotten about everything. All that mattered now was him.

After a while, the other made him face him. Their foreheads were connected as they kept moving with the music playing loudly around them. He could see his eyes were dark with lust and longing. And then those lips, those full lips that had gotten Masaki’s attention claimed his. Masaki felt as if he was melting. His body was acting on his own as he found himself kissing him back with even more eagerness. Their tongues danced in their own unique rhythm making Masaki softly moan in the kiss. He could feel his lower part getting harder; something that the other must have realized since his hands moved to his hips, creating even more friction between them.

Masaki had to admit it… he was craving for his touch even if he was torturing him. After several minutes, the one that initiated the kiss broke it, leaving Masaki in a panting mess. His face was flushed and his lips swollen. He looked deep into Masaki’s eyes, making the latter’s heart to pound like crazy. “You’re mine and only mine… don’t forget that…” he whispered before he left into the crowd leaving Masaki standing alone in the middle of the dance floor.

His eyes were desperately trying to follow his figure when he felt someone tapping his shoulder. He turned to meet Jun. He turned white. Oh my God… What if…

“Masaki are you alright? You look red, as if you are about to faint.” Masaki said nothing in return. “Come with me” Jun held him with both hands and helped him sit on their table. “I knew I shouldn’t have brought you here… When I came and found you nowhere near our table I thought I scared you enough to leave… I’m glad I was wrong” Jun caressed his hair a bit which caused Masaki a pinch in his heart. He felt awful…

“I believe a glass of water could help you. Here…” Jun gave one which Masaki grabbed and drank it immediately whishing that Jun wouldn’t realize anything about before. What am I going to do? Masaki couldn’t stop thinking as he put the glass back on the table.

“Come on let’s go…” Jun took him by the hand and led him towards the exit. While they were climbing up the stairs Masaki turned around and saw the other having his gaze locked at him, smirking and nodding a bit while holding up his drink. Masaki lowered his head and bit his lower lip. Is this your new way of torture Sakurai Sho?
………………………………….


The next day Masaki got up early and got ready for school ignoring the doctor’s suggestion for remaining at home. He had to clear things up with Sho for good. I have to finish this torture. I have to understand and let go before I end up hurting Jun…

With determination he approached the door of the old gym. Once he closed it behind him he came across Sho’s gang. His eyes searched for his figure but he realized he was not there. He gulped and made a few steps backwards. If only I can reach the door… He turned around in an attempt to run away but someone made him trip up. In a few minutes, his bag was thrown in a corner and before he could do anything to protest he received the first punch on his stomach.

“You know you’ve been getting on my nerves these last days… Who do you think you are? You made Sakurai-sama such a mess…” Masaki said nothing in return. He just closed his eyes and got prepared for the hits and the punches that were to come. The show continued for several minutes until the door opened. Masaki lifted his head a bit up to meet Sho’s surprised look. He’s finally here…

Sho had frozen once he entered into the room. Some of his ‘buddies’ were kicking a defenseless Masaki on the ground, with his uniform almost ripped in some parts. He hadn’t slept at all last night and now this? Sho thought he would explode. Since when do these scams decide what to do on their own? His fury was indescribable but he pretended everything was fine to avoid start kicking the hell out of everyone inside the room.

“Well… I don’t know who gave you the permission to do such a thing in my absence…” Sho hissed and looked at everyone with his eyebrow lifted “but…” he turned his head to Masaki and lowered to grab his chin “I guess you did well…” he continued smirking. “I’d prefer though that you won’t repeat it again like that…” his eyes were locked in Masaki’s “Now go…”

The others got the message and immediately left the room muttering apologies to Sho.

Masaki was left there on the ground still held by Sho. He was looking at him intensively trying to read his eyes. He had seen the way Sho was surprised as soon as he opened the door; there wasn’t a trace of satisfaction in his gaze, just pure surprise and maybe hurt?

He felt a tear running down his cheek and then Sho’s thumb softly brushing it. Without realizing he leaned his head towards the hand closing in the same time his eyes to feel it more… it was soft and warm but then it started trembling. He opened his eyes and saw the other one crying with his eyes fixed on his. He put his palm over Sho’s and squeezed it a little as if to tell him his own feelings. His eyes then traveled to the slightly parted lips. In a second he felt his heart beating accelerating. He wanted to touch them. Reluctantly he stretched out his hand towards them ending up being cut in the middle by Sho. He raised his gaze to meet the other’s. They said nothing, yet it felt as if they said everything. They kissed. It was soft but instead of sweet it rather felt bitter. They looked at each other for a few seconds before Masaki was pulled into a hug.

“Why should I have fallen in love with you?” Sho whispered in his ear. His voice was trembling. Masaki tightened his grip on Sho’s back, his hands clenching on his uniform. More tears were coming down.

“Why should my heart clench when I see you with him?” Sho’s breath became irregular as he tried to control his sobs. “Why should I want to make you happy when I want to make you suffer?” Masaki buried his head in the others shoulder.

“I’m supposed to hate you not to love you…” he felt soft pecks on his neck “But still I want to feel you… I want you to be mine…”

Masaki’s heart was ready to explode. Sho made him face him and before he knew he found himself lying down on the ground but he didn’t care. He loved him as well. He wanted to be his. Now that he knew the other loved him he couldn’t deny it anymore. His lips were claimed once more, in a more demanding way this time. He felt the buttons of his shirt being opened and hands tracing down his torso, butterfly kisses being spread from his nose to his eyelids continuing on his cheeks and finally on his neck. His hands were caressing the other’s head, his fingers entangled in his hair. The kisses around his neck second by second became more aggressive, more passionate. Masaki, all this time with his eyes closed and his mouth partially opened, felt as if he was in heaven. He wanted more… he needed more… but then he suddenly felt no kisses, no touches. He opened his eyes confused to see Sho looking back at him with tears in his eyes, while sitting on his right.

“I… I’m sorry… I just… I can’t do that… you…” he was crying “I can’t do that…” Masaki bit his lower lip and looked down. He was still trying to cool down a bit but he had no success. “Please Masaki be happy…” both his mother’s and Yamada-san’s voices came to his mind. I have to be happy… No! I WANT to be happy… He raised his gaze and saw how Sho was looking at him… he crawled closer and kissed him cupping his face with both of his hands. He could feel Sho’s surprise but then lust won over. They kissed in a frantic rhythm until Sho, a little harshly, made him stop. “Stop it!” he said in a quite loud tone.

Masaki gripped tightly Sho’s collar. It was his time to yell. “Why should I stop? I love you… I’ve been trying to convince myself the opposite… after all of these years… the way you always treated me… but the truth is that I can’t… I can’t stop thinking about you since that night at that Typhoon club… Whenever I was trying to sleep all I could dream of was your kiss… the way you were holding me… When I found out about Jun I was angry because it was you who did it… I wanted to hate you… but I couldn’t….” Masaki’s tears were running down like a river “I gave Jun a chance so that I could forget you… yet I can’t… I can’t bare his touches… I just want yours… your caresses… your kisses… I just want you…” Masaki’s grip on Sho’s uniform tightened as his voice gave its way to sobs. “I… want you…”

“I’m sorry” was all Sho could say in the moment

“What happened? What have I done?” Masaki asked desperately with a trembling voice. “Tell me… please” and then more tears uncontrollably flowed down his cheeks.

“I-” Sho couldn’t finish his line as he heard his phone vibrating. He looked at the screen and his eyes rolled. He rubbed his forehead with his hand and cursed under his breath. Bastard… you too… you had promised!

Masaki looked at him surprised as he stood up and quickly headed to the door. “If you want to know what you’ve done come tomorrow at 6 pm in this area” he threw Masaki a small paper where he had just written down the address “you’ll learn everything” Sho tried to look strong but failed. Without saying anything else, Sho turned his gaze towards Masaki once again before leaving the old gym sighing. Masaki couldn’t process any of what had just happened.

He looked at the note: old port, warehouse 4. What is that supposed to mean?
***

Behind the trees near the old gym a figure moved away from its hiding spot once he saw Sakurai Sho leaving it furiously. He picked up his phone.

“The message was delivered. Now it’s up to you…”




TO BE CONTINUED

A.N. Chapter 10 is here! We had a Junba date and Sakuraiba apart from being slightly naughty in the club finally admitted their feelings for each other ne?! Sooo what happens from now on?!

As for Ohmiya fans... I feel sad to have somehow neglected them in two chapters... I just had to make things clearer with Sakuraiba... BUT I promise you the next one will have a lot and really really hot Ohmiya! Just to make it up for you guys!!! ;)

I have almost finished writing the fic... Unfortunately I don't have much time available but I'm workning on it! Don't worry! :)

I hope you enjoyed it and comments as always are <3!!!

Till next week... ^^