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Title: Kako no Sakura
Author: Andy-chan (![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
antimiya88)
Special thanks for all of her help and advice:chrysiida_tori Love you!!! <3
Pairings: Sakuraiba (main), Ohmiya, Junba (side), Aimiya (Friendship), Yama (Friendship)
Genre: AU, Angst, Drama, Romance, School
Rating: R
Summary: Aiba Masaki's a high school student who seems to be the bullying obsession for his classmate Sakurai Sho... Is it just an obsession or there's something more behind this treatment? In what way has fate brought them together in the past?
Warning: In certain chapters, there will be violence, bullying and bad language. So if you are not ok with these things you could just pass...
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the boysunfortunately
“Jun?!” Masaki’s voice was trembling as he was making slowly his way forward “Jun?!”
Masaki saw the figure lying down on the ground moving a bit turning his gaze upon Masaki “Go… Stay out of this… You… You should go…” his voice was heard only as a whisper. Masaki’s heart clenched. It can’t be true… Why?
“Jun…” Masaki tried desperately to meet his boyfriend’s gaze with no luck. Then another forceful kick landed on the lying figure’s stomach.
“STOP IT! PLEASE!!!” Masaki’s voice echoed in the old warehouse as he ran towards the one on the ground taking him in his embrace turning his own back towards the other using it as a protective shield.
“You choose him then?” the other’s voice sounded empty. “Why on earth do you do that?” he came closer to Masaki wagging him back and forth in a rhythm that betrayed his anxiousness. “Why? Tell me Masaki… Tell me… why?”
Masaki’s grip on the hurt body tightened and his gaze was fixed on the floor saying absolutely nothing.
“Why don’t you answer me…? Why do you choose him over me? I thought I was your boyfriend and he was the scumbag who always made you suffer… Why?” his tone was letting his despair show.
“Because this was between me and him… and… right now… I don’t see any difference between him and you… J- Jun…” Masaki looked straight in the eyes of his boyfriend who was standing in front of him with eyes full of tears. “And because…” Masaki turned his gaze to Sho whose half opened eyes were fixed on him and after a deep breath he continued “I love him”. He couldn’t hold back a tear from running down his cheek.
“Of course… you do…” Jun’s voice was giving out slight sarcasm. “Who else wouldn’t deny his boyfriend’s touch but instead he would surrender to this one’s here in front of everyone in a night club?!”
Masaki gasped. “You sa-”
Jun laughed. “What?! You thought I wouldn’t take notice?! I’m sorry to inform you that you were quite showy… Perhaps you lost the track of time, surrendered to passion because you were kissing hungrily each other for about ten minutes…. There were even some people leaving the dance floor commenting on how you two should get a room already…” Jun paused for a few seconds and took a deep breathbefore returning his gaze upon Masaki. “I don’t know what you found in him… I could have never guessed that you were a DoM!” Jun laughed bitterly.
“Or perhaps it may be the fact that you don’t judge people… I mean you knew that I was a host and you didn’t care… You even saw me…” Jun’s voice cracked a bit “giving my special services to that middle-aged client…”
Masaki couldn’t believe his ears. “How did you…”
“I saw the envelope accidentally falling of your bag that night in the hospital after you had fainted because of this asshole here” he said pointing at Sho who was trying to process everything he was hearing. “I saw it. So… why would you not accept him if you had already accepted me…But honestly, I thought that all you needed is time… I thought that I could make you change your mind… but my chance was already over… you just used me…”
Masaki couldn’t feel more terrible. He was already feeling guilty and Jun’s last words were like a knife stubbed in his heart. He tried to come closer to Jun. “Jun… please… It’s not like that…”
Jun smiled. “And how is it Masaki? I could tell you were forcing yourself…” Masaki tried to oppose but he was caught. “I knew that you might have liked me even a tiny bit when we first met… I could feel your awkwardness when you were with me back then… that sweet awkwardness… It was just that I wasn’t ready… I was afraid to convince myself to let go…” Masaki could only lower his head. “When I finally did it was already late… It’s not like I accuse you of anything…” Jun sighed. “It’s just that I truly believed all you needed was time… time to make you realize that I am the one that could make you happy… But I guess I was wrong… He can claim victory…”he said as he turned his head to Sho.
“Tell me Sakurai… how do you feel? You’re the one who should feel more than satisfied right now… Masaki declared openly his feelings for you… Aren’t you going to say something?” Jun’s voice could reflect the pain and anger he had in his soul. Sho was not speaking all this time. He just had his head lowered.
“What is it Sakurai-sama? You lost your claws? You turned into the scared to hell kitty you always were?!” Jun’s tone became clearly mocking and sarcastic.
“Jun pl-” Masaki at the verge of crying himself tried to speak up but was immediately caught up from Jun whose gaze was still on Sho. “I’m talking to him Masaki…”
Jun came closer and after having thrown a surprised Masaki off Sho, he grabbed the latter by the collar of his blazer making his face come really close to his.
“Where is your fierce behavior now?” Sho tried desperately to free himself but the other’s grip was too strong.“I had told you hadn’t I? I hope you remember it… It was at the café when you had come with your beloved buddies to mock me… You’re someone who wants to be considered as something more important than he truly is. But you don’t see more than yourself… It is as if you’re the center of the universe. But guess what?! YOU’RE NOT!” Jun raised his hand to punch him once again but Masaki got in the way having as a result the punch to land on his own face.
“MASAKI!” Both Jun and Sho yelled at him who was just crying. Jun turned to look at Sho with a look that reflected so much hatred. “You just shut the fuck up!” He tried to make Masaki move from his spot but he couldn’t succeed in it. Jun got frustrated.
“Masaki please…” Masaki was showing no intension to move aside and kept staying at his spot between Jun and Sho. “Masaki… I said stop it!”
“NO! YOU STOP IT, JUN! TELL ME WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON! WHY ARE YOU HERE? HOW DID YOU KNOW ABOUT IT? YOU WERE ALWAYS SO KIND, SO WARM… NOW I CAN’T RECOGNIZE YOU… TELL ME WHY YOU ARE DOING THIS… TELL ME EVERYTHING… I’M SICK AND TIRED OF NEVER BEING TOLD EVERYTHING… I’M TIRED OF HAVING TO TRY TO FIND OUT THE TRUTH BY MYSELF… I’M TIRED OF HAVING TO SOLVE RIDDLES. JUST TELL ME THE TRUTH!”
Masaki almost choked with his own saliva as he had said everything in one breath. He grabbed Jun’s arms trying to find a way to persuade him. “Please… tell me…” his voice cracked as the tears coming down his face became unstoppable. It was then he heard slight movements from behind. He turned his head to look at Sho trying to sit up on the ground.
Jun walked a little the opposite direction. With his back on both Masaki and Sho he muttered “Do you want me to tell you a little story Masaki?”
Masaki looked at Jun and straight back at Sho, who despite being hit he still had his senses. He could feel the latter’s grips on his shirt andsee a few tears forming in Sho’s eyes. He smiled reassuringly at him before answering positively to Jun.
“I’m glad to hear that” Jun’s tone was obviously a hurt one. He had also sat down on the floor, his back leaning on the wall behind with his eyes closed tightly.
“Once upon a time there was a young boy named Yokoshima Sho. He was living a happy life with his parents when a spring exactly ten years ago, his father, who worked as a driver at a pharmaceutical company, got involved in a severe car accident. He was transferred to jail and since then Yokoshima Sho was very unhappy. His mother decided to rearrange her life by marrying the one and only Sakurai Shun. As a result, our little hero changed his name. So from now on, we should call him Sakurai Sho” Jun paused for a little and watched the two figures before him. Masaki was looking at him dumbfounded and Sho had lowered his head looking blankly at the floor in front of him.
He cleared his throat and continued. “As he grew up he convinced himself that he was miserable. He slowly found happiness by making the others the same miserable. He had the power to do that and he tried to take advantage as much as he could. He had convinced himself that he’s the only one who’s miserable in this entire universe. Yes… our little hero is that arrogant. He also decided who is to blame. Here comes the second hero of our story: another boy named Aiba Masaki. He was the one who according to Sakurai Sho had caused the accident… Yes… a 6 year-old boy was to blame and not the driver…” Sho tried to speak but only a sound, almost like a groan, was able to leave his mouth due to the earlier punches. Jun ignored him and continued looking intensively back at him.
“So since then Sakurai Sho lived for only one purpose: to destroy Aiba Masaki’s life. Because once again, our hero had decided that he’s THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS SUFFERED!” Jun’s gaze was piercing Sho’s across him.
“But what our little hero couldn’t foresee was that he would fall in love with his worst enemy. The irony is that fate sometimes plays dirty games since it made his worst enemy also fall in love with him… and now we’re at this dilemma: «To be together or not?» It’s almost Shakespearean don’t you think so, Masaki?”
Masaki bit his lower lip and guiltily turned his gaze to the side avoiding Jun’s.
Jun sit up a bit and with an empty look continued. “Do you want to listen to another story as well?” Without waiting for an answer Jun continued on speaking. “I’ll keep our hero’s name secret for a while. Ok?
Once upon a time there was this little boy who was also living happy with his family. His father owned a big pharmaceutical company” Jun looked up at the two in front of him. “You guessed right, his father owned the pharmaceutical company that Yokoshima used to work” he paused a bit, trying hard not to break. “The little boy had everything… or should I say it more accurately almost everything, since his father was almost never at home because of his work… but he was happy. Then one day, ten years ago this little boy as he was walking back home he saw a really big crowd outside his house.
He couldn’t understand what was going on until he realized they were journalists asking weird questions about his father. The family’s butler came and took him into the house through that really suffocating crowd where he found his mother alone in the living room being on her knees while staring blankly on the floor and mumbling repetitively just one single word: the bastard… It was not until later that the boy found out that this bastard, his mother was talking about, was no one else but his father. It was discovered due to an accident that his father’s company was involved in a huge scandal of illegal drugs related to the yakuza… yes… his father was forced to work with them…
The thing is that this bastard, as the boy’s mother was calling him, once he found out, he left the country leaving his family inside the nest of wolves. It was not many weeks later that this mother and son were made to leave their house. You know yakuza can be really persuasive…” Jun smiled bitterly.
“So… As I was saying, they were made to leave their house. They would be happy if they could find a shelter in a subway station. But no… later things became even more entertaining. The men in yakuza were not satisfied with just having those two lost everything… not after having them caused a loss of millions of dollars and almost having to deal with the police… So they came and they offered them a permanent shelter. They could have roof and food under only one condition. Serving them however they enjoyed it.
First, it was the mother… She was quite young and ‘juicy’ according to their comments so why not have some fun?! Later they came up with a better plan… why not to make a profit out of that?! She ended up leaving her son every single night so that she could pay off her debts to them… The boy was feeling so insecure, so lonely… it seems that their boss realized that… and since he was such a caring person he offered his company so that the little boy wouldn’t feel sidelined”
Jun took a deep breath and looked at the two boys in front of him who were definitely left watching him in shock. “But he was not satisfied… no… he needed the boy to feel as welcomed as possible… so from the next night he also called his partners so that they could all have a happy feast with the boy as their honored guest. The weeks turned into months and the months into years. The boy started growing up and became more and more boring for them. There was only one solution… to make him also pay off his debts. Especially since his mother was now way older and alcoholic and couldn’t bring back as much money as before. It was easy for him to continue going to such… parties… he had sooo many years of experience!” Jun’s voice started trembling.
“But guess what? He could finally pay off his debt! He left them and found a place to live on his own… He had just turned twenty years old” Jun was looking at his legs that were brought close to his face. “Yes… the hero of this story is slightly older than the other two” Masaki and Sho didn’t know what to say. “So even if he turned into an adult, he had to survive somehow and since he had finished no high school, he was way too busy for that, he continued on doing the one thing he knew well… but this time he had a purpose: to find out the one who was in charge of that damn accident and make him pay!
He finally did it… he was in jail… he thought he would leave it as it is… but then he found out about his son… he couldn’t believe that this person claimed he was miserable… so our hero had to make it clear to this person that he was nowhere close to be in the position to call himself miserable… he enrolled at the school. He had gathered as much information as possible. You know it wasn’t too difficult for him since he was in such good terms with every one of the night life business and that bastard was also someone who liked to pass his time meaningless form bar to bar… he also found the way to gain his attention once he first met him… what he didn’t know is that he would fall inside his own trap… what he didn’t know is that he would actually fall in love with the one hehad intended to use at first” Jun bit his lip avoiding Masaki’s gaze as he spoke these words “as the means to gain the attention ofthat arrogant shit… he didn’t expect his heart to feel this way… he didn’t expect to trust someone once again… but it happened… so he thought that for his loved one’s sake he would stop and do nothing… though it seems that life plays wicked games… he would be once again left at the margin… since the one he loved could never return his feelings since he loved this arrogant shit… funny isn’t it? Once again there was nothing left for him… But no… the bastard would have to pay…”
Jun lifted up his head and looked at Sho and Masaki. “Interested in finding out our third hero’s name? I’ll reveal it for you… Matsumoto Jun… End of the story.”
Masaki was left silent, unable to form any kind of words. The only thing that could be heard in the warehouse was Sho’s sobs. Masaki could feel his hurt body tremble.
………………………………….
“Have you found him?” Satoshi’s panicked voice reached Nino’s ears.
“No… He has his phone turned off… Satoshi what are we going to do?” Nino grabbed Satoshi’s arm “I’m scared…”
Satoshi sighed and looked through the window of the taxi. They were already heading to the old port. Sho what the hell are you thinking? Maybe I should have paid closer attention to you…
“Don’t worry Kazu… Sho would never hurt Aiba for real… and Jun loves him… Everything will be fine… ok?” he caressed his boyfriend’s cheek who had already leaned on his arm. He knew his voice was not the most convincing one, perhaps he didn’t believe in his words himself. He knew that Sho would never hurt Aiba but what about himself?! He had tried it in the past… Sho please… don’t do anything stupid again… please… his heart was beating faster and faster every single second they were closer to their destination.
As soon as they reached it, they started running, hoping they will be there in time. Unfortunately they couldn’t. Another guest was already there to welcome them.
“Well well well! My dearest Ohno-sama with his little bitch!” Kazuya’s sarcastic comment was heard in the air. “You know… I’ve been expecting you…”
Satoshi narrowed his eyes, feeling his anger inside building up. “I knew you were behind of this. You’re the one who sent that message to Sho… You’re the one who helped Matsumoto… There’s no way he could plan everything by himself he was way too emotionally involved to be able to come here without having being found… Spill what you want from me quickly because I don’t really have the time for scumbags like you…”
Kazuya smirked “I’m so happy you get straight to the point…” He snapped his fingers and out of the blue three members of Sho’s gang came out of their till that moment hiding places. Two grabbed Nino from behind, restraining him from every move. Satoshi tried to get to him but he was caught by the third one.
“You traitors! You were supposed to be with Sho… what the hell are you doing with him?”
Kazuya laughed. “Are you sure you are the most suitable here to call us traitors?” he slowly came closer to Satoshi, who was held by the other guy and whispered in his ear “You are the one who is the traitor not me… Those guys have just found out about your plan to get in the way of Sakurai-sama’s plan”
Satoshi laughed “Is that so? So why are you helping out Matsumoto Jun who in fact is after Sho as you say?!”
Kazuya made a few steps backwards and started walking around Satoshi with an arrogant look. “Hmmm… Then I suppose you’re not as clever as you want to be my dearest Ohno-san! Who has ever said that I’d help Matsumoto Jun? I just helped him till now because it was convenient for getting you… Please… give me a break… who gives a damn about him?! I just used him… I’m so sick of people who, lost in their own problems and bitterness, can’t see further than themselves… But this time luck was on my side! After I’ve finished with you and your little bitch over there, I’ll get inside to rescue Sakurai-sama… I’m pretty sure that Matsumoto will be surprised!” he paused smiling a bit as he probably rethought his own words. “That way I’ll become his favorite and since he’s the type to be easily manipulated, I’ll have things done my way… Understood now?”
Kazuya burst into loud laughs before fixing his gaze on Satoshi “You know I’m so grateful at this stupid Matsumoto… Now, finally I have my opportunity to get rid of you! All these years you get on my nerves. Always being the perfect one, the stoic one. I’m the one who’s supposed to be next to Sakurai-sama… not someone like you. Thank God this year I finally found your weakness…” Kazuya ended his line smirking as he advanced to Nino caressing his cheek.
It was difficult for Nino to move but he managed to jerk his head off the other’s touch.
“Don’t you dare touch him!!!” Satoshi yelled but that didn’t seem to discourage Kazuya. He turned a bit to look at him while his hand kept traveling from Nino’s face to his torso. “Why not?!” he then turned to look at Nino “Are you really that smooth as you look baby?!” He leaned closer and sniffed a bit at the crook of Nino’s neck. “I wonder how it is to have you underneath trembling from pleasure as I fuck you hard…” his voice was low causing shivers to Nino’s body out of disgust. All he could do was to spit on Kazuya’s face while Satoshi tried desperately to free himself.
Kazuya cleaned his face with the back on his hand before turning to Nino and slamming him in a really hard way. “What do you think you’re doing asshole?”
“If I were you I would say what the hell do you think you’re doing useless little shit?”
Kazuya froze. He didn’t need to turn around to know whose voice was that. He lowered his head and clenched his fist. Damn it…
“Now… please if your wish is not to end up in the hospital release them at once!” the other man’s voice left no room for doubt. Kazuya turned slowly the other way. He knew he had no choice but to free them. Grudgingly he nodded to the other three.
“I’m happy there’s understanding between us Kazuya-kun. Now be a good boy and get the hell out of here before I change my mind about sending you package to the nearest hospital…”
Kazuya slowly started walking. “As you wish…” the words were coming with difficulty from his mouth. “…Yokoyama-san” He didn’t want to admit it but he had failed… and that was probably his end.
Once he and the other three left, Satoshi ran to Nino hugging him tightly. “Baby, are you ok?” Nino could see the worry written all over his face.
He smiled warmly and nodded. “Satoshi… I’m not the one you should worry about… C’mon… let’s go!”
“I’m sorry for being late Ohno-san” Yokoyama Yuu’s voice was heard behind him.
“It’s ok… But Kazu is right. We should hurry” Satoshi took Nino’s hand and started walking towards the entrance of the warehouse. He could feel his heart beat accelerate as his hand reached for the big door. He could hear Jun’s voice.
***
“You have no idea what it means to be touched by all these greedy old men… to feel their hot breath on your skin… you have no idea what it means to be raped every single night several times and yet to have to pretend you enjoy it… you have no idea how disgusted you are with yourself being filled with their cum… you have no idea how things truly are damn it!”
Satoshi’s heart clenched at the hearing of this. He felt Nino’s grip on his hand tighten. They looked at each other as if they could say everything to one another. Without a second thought, Satoshi opened the door to find a motionless, shocked Masaki and an out of control Jun who was kicking Sho repetitively, showing absolutely no mercy as he continued his monologue “and you shit always thought you were the one who suffered then let me tell you something… you have no idea of what hell means…”
It was a matter of seconds, before Yuu run and grab Jun and Nino towards Masaki.
Jun was fighting like a maniac to free himself. It seemed as if he was not himself anymore. Satoshi couldn’t help but pity him. He knew he had to put an end in all this madness. No one knew every part of the story. They only had it seen from their own respective perspectives.
After a while Jun stopped moving frankly and fell on his knees; there was no power left in him. He was still grabbed by Yuu when he looked up at Satoshi smirking bitterly. “Toma spoke huh?! I knew that he wouldn’t keep his promise… No one is there for me…” he laughed bitterly. He looked up at Satoshi. “So… when will the police arrive? I believe you have found all the necessary evidence to put me in… right?”
Satoshi just sighed and shook his head negatively. “No, Matsumoto-kun. I have no intention to put you in jail”
Sho, who was trying to find his breath again, looked at his best friend coming closer to them. Things had turned way too complicated. He thought it was a thing between him and Masaki. Instead it also included Jun. After having heard all that, he couldn’t help but regret the revelation he had prepared the other day at school. He felt so cheap… And then he looked at Masaki… He couldn’t believe that even there, where he was supposed to hate him, he had declared clearly that he loved him. He was hurting and not because of the kicks on his stomach… he felt exactly as Jun had said earlier. Useless...
Masaki was looking blankly at Satoshi. His one hand was holding tightly Sho’s shirt, as if he it was some kind of energy for him. Nino’s presence was there too but for some reason he felt as if he and Sho were connected; perhaps because they had similar feelings towards Jun and the accident. Masaki just couldn’t believe it. I’m responsible for my mother’s, Sho’s and Jun’s misfortune… It was as if his mind could only understand that. He felt more tears coming down his cheek. All of that was just too much for him to handle… his chest ached. It was too much for him… too much.
Satoshi sat near them having a strangely for the circumstances calmness. “I just want to clear things up. I believe that everyone here deserves to know the whole truth…”
Jun laughed mockingly. “We know it… No need for repetition…”
Satoshi looked at him intensively. “No… Matsumoto-kun… you’re wrong… you don’t know the whole truth and that was exactly the true culprit’s intention…”
Jun turned his gaze to Satoshi. “What do you mean by saying culprit?!”
Satoshi closed his eyes slightly smirking, before turning his gaze towards Jun as well.
“Tell me Matsumoto-kun, don’t you find it weird that your father had left the country hoursbefore the actual accident?”
TO BE CONTINUED
A.N. Here's my update! To tell you the truth today I'm more than exhausted but I knew there were some of you who were waiting for this... so I tried my best and here it is! :)
Another good (or bad :P - I don't know - ) news! I finished it finally! There will be a total of 15 chapters and an epiloguewhich one I haven't written yet but still excited!
So... Jun! We finally found out who he is and what is his connection to the whole story! I'm not sure if someone expected that or not... or if that's disappointing... *scratches her head* He has for sure suffered a lot in his life... I kinda want to hug him... :( Everyone has suffered his own way ne?!
But there's more! Since now, we have seen the POVs of Masaki, Sho and Jun. This is not the whole truth... there will be more revelations at the next one - the last ones I promise! :)
Our beloved Satoshi will make everything clear! ;) shhh... I won't say more...
If I want to be completely honest, this chapter and the next one were the most difficult to write since I had to put every single piece of the story down... I'm just relieved I managed to do it in the end - though you will be the ones to judge the result! XD
So what do you think?! Really hope you liked it and as always, comments are <333!!!
See you next week! ^_^
Author: Andy-chan (
antimiya88)Special thanks for all of her help and advice:
chrysiida_tori Love you!!! <3Pairings: Sakuraiba (main), Ohmiya, Junba (side), Aimiya (Friendship), Yama (Friendship)
Genre: AU, Angst, Drama, Romance, School
Rating: R
Summary: Aiba Masaki's a high school student who seems to be the bullying obsession for his classmate Sakurai Sho... Is it just an obsession or there's something more behind this treatment? In what way has fate brought them together in the past?
Warning: In certain chapters, there will be violence, bullying and bad language. So if you are not ok with these things you could just pass...
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the boys
Chapter 1 / Chapter 2 / Chapter 3 / Chapter 4 / Chapter 5 / Chapter 6 / Chapter 7 / Chapter 8
Chapter 9 / Chapter 10 / Chapter 11
Chapter 9 / Chapter 10 / Chapter 11
CHAPTER 12
“Jun?!” Masaki’s voice was trembling as he was making slowly his way forward “Jun?!”
Masaki saw the figure lying down on the ground moving a bit turning his gaze upon Masaki “Go… Stay out of this… You… You should go…” his voice was heard only as a whisper. Masaki’s heart clenched. It can’t be true… Why?
“Jun…” Masaki tried desperately to meet his boyfriend’s gaze with no luck. Then another forceful kick landed on the lying figure’s stomach.
“STOP IT! PLEASE!!!” Masaki’s voice echoed in the old warehouse as he ran towards the one on the ground taking him in his embrace turning his own back towards the other using it as a protective shield.
“You choose him then?” the other’s voice sounded empty. “Why on earth do you do that?” he came closer to Masaki wagging him back and forth in a rhythm that betrayed his anxiousness. “Why? Tell me Masaki… Tell me… why?”
Masaki’s grip on the hurt body tightened and his gaze was fixed on the floor saying absolutely nothing.
“Why don’t you answer me…? Why do you choose him over me? I thought I was your boyfriend and he was the scumbag who always made you suffer… Why?” his tone was letting his despair show.
“Because this was between me and him… and… right now… I don’t see any difference between him and you… J- Jun…” Masaki looked straight in the eyes of his boyfriend who was standing in front of him with eyes full of tears. “And because…” Masaki turned his gaze to Sho whose half opened eyes were fixed on him and after a deep breath he continued “I love him”. He couldn’t hold back a tear from running down his cheek.
“Of course… you do…” Jun’s voice was giving out slight sarcasm. “Who else wouldn’t deny his boyfriend’s touch but instead he would surrender to this one’s here in front of everyone in a night club?!”
Masaki gasped. “You sa-”
Jun laughed. “What?! You thought I wouldn’t take notice?! I’m sorry to inform you that you were quite showy… Perhaps you lost the track of time, surrendered to passion because you were kissing hungrily each other for about ten minutes…. There were even some people leaving the dance floor commenting on how you two should get a room already…” Jun paused for a few seconds and took a deep breathbefore returning his gaze upon Masaki. “I don’t know what you found in him… I could have never guessed that you were a DoM!” Jun laughed bitterly.
“Or perhaps it may be the fact that you don’t judge people… I mean you knew that I was a host and you didn’t care… You even saw me…” Jun’s voice cracked a bit “giving my special services to that middle-aged client…”
Masaki couldn’t believe his ears. “How did you…”
“I saw the envelope accidentally falling of your bag that night in the hospital after you had fainted because of this asshole here” he said pointing at Sho who was trying to process everything he was hearing. “I saw it. So… why would you not accept him if you had already accepted me…But honestly, I thought that all you needed is time… I thought that I could make you change your mind… but my chance was already over… you just used me…”
Masaki couldn’t feel more terrible. He was already feeling guilty and Jun’s last words were like a knife stubbed in his heart. He tried to come closer to Jun. “Jun… please… It’s not like that…”
Jun smiled. “And how is it Masaki? I could tell you were forcing yourself…” Masaki tried to oppose but he was caught. “I knew that you might have liked me even a tiny bit when we first met… I could feel your awkwardness when you were with me back then… that sweet awkwardness… It was just that I wasn’t ready… I was afraid to convince myself to let go…” Masaki could only lower his head. “When I finally did it was already late… It’s not like I accuse you of anything…” Jun sighed. “It’s just that I truly believed all you needed was time… time to make you realize that I am the one that could make you happy… But I guess I was wrong… He can claim victory…”he said as he turned his head to Sho.
“Tell me Sakurai… how do you feel? You’re the one who should feel more than satisfied right now… Masaki declared openly his feelings for you… Aren’t you going to say something?” Jun’s voice could reflect the pain and anger he had in his soul. Sho was not speaking all this time. He just had his head lowered.
“What is it Sakurai-sama? You lost your claws? You turned into the scared to hell kitty you always were?!” Jun’s tone became clearly mocking and sarcastic.
“Jun pl-” Masaki at the verge of crying himself tried to speak up but was immediately caught up from Jun whose gaze was still on Sho. “I’m talking to him Masaki…”
Jun came closer and after having thrown a surprised Masaki off Sho, he grabbed the latter by the collar of his blazer making his face come really close to his.
“Where is your fierce behavior now?” Sho tried desperately to free himself but the other’s grip was too strong.“I had told you hadn’t I? I hope you remember it… It was at the café when you had come with your beloved buddies to mock me… You’re someone who wants to be considered as something more important than he truly is. But you don’t see more than yourself… It is as if you’re the center of the universe. But guess what?! YOU’RE NOT!” Jun raised his hand to punch him once again but Masaki got in the way having as a result the punch to land on his own face.
“MASAKI!” Both Jun and Sho yelled at him who was just crying. Jun turned to look at Sho with a look that reflected so much hatred. “You just shut the fuck up!” He tried to make Masaki move from his spot but he couldn’t succeed in it. Jun got frustrated.
“Masaki please…” Masaki was showing no intension to move aside and kept staying at his spot between Jun and Sho. “Masaki… I said stop it!”
“NO! YOU STOP IT, JUN! TELL ME WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON! WHY ARE YOU HERE? HOW DID YOU KNOW ABOUT IT? YOU WERE ALWAYS SO KIND, SO WARM… NOW I CAN’T RECOGNIZE YOU… TELL ME WHY YOU ARE DOING THIS… TELL ME EVERYTHING… I’M SICK AND TIRED OF NEVER BEING TOLD EVERYTHING… I’M TIRED OF HAVING TO TRY TO FIND OUT THE TRUTH BY MYSELF… I’M TIRED OF HAVING TO SOLVE RIDDLES. JUST TELL ME THE TRUTH!”
Masaki almost choked with his own saliva as he had said everything in one breath. He grabbed Jun’s arms trying to find a way to persuade him. “Please… tell me…” his voice cracked as the tears coming down his face became unstoppable. It was then he heard slight movements from behind. He turned his head to look at Sho trying to sit up on the ground.
Jun walked a little the opposite direction. With his back on both Masaki and Sho he muttered “Do you want me to tell you a little story Masaki?”
Masaki looked at Jun and straight back at Sho, who despite being hit he still had his senses. He could feel the latter’s grips on his shirt andsee a few tears forming in Sho’s eyes. He smiled reassuringly at him before answering positively to Jun.
“I’m glad to hear that” Jun’s tone was obviously a hurt one. He had also sat down on the floor, his back leaning on the wall behind with his eyes closed tightly.
“Once upon a time there was a young boy named Yokoshima Sho. He was living a happy life with his parents when a spring exactly ten years ago, his father, who worked as a driver at a pharmaceutical company, got involved in a severe car accident. He was transferred to jail and since then Yokoshima Sho was very unhappy. His mother decided to rearrange her life by marrying the one and only Sakurai Shun. As a result, our little hero changed his name. So from now on, we should call him Sakurai Sho” Jun paused for a little and watched the two figures before him. Masaki was looking at him dumbfounded and Sho had lowered his head looking blankly at the floor in front of him.
He cleared his throat and continued. “As he grew up he convinced himself that he was miserable. He slowly found happiness by making the others the same miserable. He had the power to do that and he tried to take advantage as much as he could. He had convinced himself that he’s the only one who’s miserable in this entire universe. Yes… our little hero is that arrogant. He also decided who is to blame. Here comes the second hero of our story: another boy named Aiba Masaki. He was the one who according to Sakurai Sho had caused the accident… Yes… a 6 year-old boy was to blame and not the driver…” Sho tried to speak but only a sound, almost like a groan, was able to leave his mouth due to the earlier punches. Jun ignored him and continued looking intensively back at him.
“So since then Sakurai Sho lived for only one purpose: to destroy Aiba Masaki’s life. Because once again, our hero had decided that he’s THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS SUFFERED!” Jun’s gaze was piercing Sho’s across him.
“But what our little hero couldn’t foresee was that he would fall in love with his worst enemy. The irony is that fate sometimes plays dirty games since it made his worst enemy also fall in love with him… and now we’re at this dilemma: «To be together or not?» It’s almost Shakespearean don’t you think so, Masaki?”
Masaki bit his lower lip and guiltily turned his gaze to the side avoiding Jun’s.
Jun sit up a bit and with an empty look continued. “Do you want to listen to another story as well?” Without waiting for an answer Jun continued on speaking. “I’ll keep our hero’s name secret for a while. Ok?
Once upon a time there was this little boy who was also living happy with his family. His father owned a big pharmaceutical company” Jun looked up at the two in front of him. “You guessed right, his father owned the pharmaceutical company that Yokoshima used to work” he paused a bit, trying hard not to break. “The little boy had everything… or should I say it more accurately almost everything, since his father was almost never at home because of his work… but he was happy. Then one day, ten years ago this little boy as he was walking back home he saw a really big crowd outside his house.
He couldn’t understand what was going on until he realized they were journalists asking weird questions about his father. The family’s butler came and took him into the house through that really suffocating crowd where he found his mother alone in the living room being on her knees while staring blankly on the floor and mumbling repetitively just one single word: the bastard… It was not until later that the boy found out that this bastard, his mother was talking about, was no one else but his father. It was discovered due to an accident that his father’s company was involved in a huge scandal of illegal drugs related to the yakuza… yes… his father was forced to work with them…
The thing is that this bastard, as the boy’s mother was calling him, once he found out, he left the country leaving his family inside the nest of wolves. It was not many weeks later that this mother and son were made to leave their house. You know yakuza can be really persuasive…” Jun smiled bitterly.
“So… As I was saying, they were made to leave their house. They would be happy if they could find a shelter in a subway station. But no… later things became even more entertaining. The men in yakuza were not satisfied with just having those two lost everything… not after having them caused a loss of millions of dollars and almost having to deal with the police… So they came and they offered them a permanent shelter. They could have roof and food under only one condition. Serving them however they enjoyed it.
First, it was the mother… She was quite young and ‘juicy’ according to their comments so why not have some fun?! Later they came up with a better plan… why not to make a profit out of that?! She ended up leaving her son every single night so that she could pay off her debts to them… The boy was feeling so insecure, so lonely… it seems that their boss realized that… and since he was such a caring person he offered his company so that the little boy wouldn’t feel sidelined”
Jun took a deep breath and looked at the two boys in front of him who were definitely left watching him in shock. “But he was not satisfied… no… he needed the boy to feel as welcomed as possible… so from the next night he also called his partners so that they could all have a happy feast with the boy as their honored guest. The weeks turned into months and the months into years. The boy started growing up and became more and more boring for them. There was only one solution… to make him also pay off his debts. Especially since his mother was now way older and alcoholic and couldn’t bring back as much money as before. It was easy for him to continue going to such… parties… he had sooo many years of experience!” Jun’s voice started trembling.
“But guess what? He could finally pay off his debt! He left them and found a place to live on his own… He had just turned twenty years old” Jun was looking at his legs that were brought close to his face. “Yes… the hero of this story is slightly older than the other two” Masaki and Sho didn’t know what to say. “So even if he turned into an adult, he had to survive somehow and since he had finished no high school, he was way too busy for that, he continued on doing the one thing he knew well… but this time he had a purpose: to find out the one who was in charge of that damn accident and make him pay!
He finally did it… he was in jail… he thought he would leave it as it is… but then he found out about his son… he couldn’t believe that this person claimed he was miserable… so our hero had to make it clear to this person that he was nowhere close to be in the position to call himself miserable… he enrolled at the school. He had gathered as much information as possible. You know it wasn’t too difficult for him since he was in such good terms with every one of the night life business and that bastard was also someone who liked to pass his time meaningless form bar to bar… he also found the way to gain his attention once he first met him… what he didn’t know is that he would fall inside his own trap… what he didn’t know is that he would actually fall in love with the one hehad intended to use at first” Jun bit his lip avoiding Masaki’s gaze as he spoke these words “as the means to gain the attention ofthat arrogant shit… he didn’t expect his heart to feel this way… he didn’t expect to trust someone once again… but it happened… so he thought that for his loved one’s sake he would stop and do nothing… though it seems that life plays wicked games… he would be once again left at the margin… since the one he loved could never return his feelings since he loved this arrogant shit… funny isn’t it? Once again there was nothing left for him… But no… the bastard would have to pay…”
Jun lifted up his head and looked at Sho and Masaki. “Interested in finding out our third hero’s name? I’ll reveal it for you… Matsumoto Jun… End of the story.”
Masaki was left silent, unable to form any kind of words. The only thing that could be heard in the warehouse was Sho’s sobs. Masaki could feel his hurt body tremble.
………………………………….
“Have you found him?” Satoshi’s panicked voice reached Nino’s ears.
“No… He has his phone turned off… Satoshi what are we going to do?” Nino grabbed Satoshi’s arm “I’m scared…”
Satoshi sighed and looked through the window of the taxi. They were already heading to the old port. Sho what the hell are you thinking? Maybe I should have paid closer attention to you…
“Don’t worry Kazu… Sho would never hurt Aiba for real… and Jun loves him… Everything will be fine… ok?” he caressed his boyfriend’s cheek who had already leaned on his arm. He knew his voice was not the most convincing one, perhaps he didn’t believe in his words himself. He knew that Sho would never hurt Aiba but what about himself?! He had tried it in the past… Sho please… don’t do anything stupid again… please… his heart was beating faster and faster every single second they were closer to their destination.
As soon as they reached it, they started running, hoping they will be there in time. Unfortunately they couldn’t. Another guest was already there to welcome them.
“Well well well! My dearest Ohno-sama with his little bitch!” Kazuya’s sarcastic comment was heard in the air. “You know… I’ve been expecting you…”
Satoshi narrowed his eyes, feeling his anger inside building up. “I knew you were behind of this. You’re the one who sent that message to Sho… You’re the one who helped Matsumoto… There’s no way he could plan everything by himself he was way too emotionally involved to be able to come here without having being found… Spill what you want from me quickly because I don’t really have the time for scumbags like you…”
Kazuya smirked “I’m so happy you get straight to the point…” He snapped his fingers and out of the blue three members of Sho’s gang came out of their till that moment hiding places. Two grabbed Nino from behind, restraining him from every move. Satoshi tried to get to him but he was caught by the third one.
“You traitors! You were supposed to be with Sho… what the hell are you doing with him?”
Kazuya laughed. “Are you sure you are the most suitable here to call us traitors?” he slowly came closer to Satoshi, who was held by the other guy and whispered in his ear “You are the one who is the traitor not me… Those guys have just found out about your plan to get in the way of Sakurai-sama’s plan”
Satoshi laughed “Is that so? So why are you helping out Matsumoto Jun who in fact is after Sho as you say?!”
Kazuya made a few steps backwards and started walking around Satoshi with an arrogant look. “Hmmm… Then I suppose you’re not as clever as you want to be my dearest Ohno-san! Who has ever said that I’d help Matsumoto Jun? I just helped him till now because it was convenient for getting you… Please… give me a break… who gives a damn about him?! I just used him… I’m so sick of people who, lost in their own problems and bitterness, can’t see further than themselves… But this time luck was on my side! After I’ve finished with you and your little bitch over there, I’ll get inside to rescue Sakurai-sama… I’m pretty sure that Matsumoto will be surprised!” he paused smiling a bit as he probably rethought his own words. “That way I’ll become his favorite and since he’s the type to be easily manipulated, I’ll have things done my way… Understood now?”
Kazuya burst into loud laughs before fixing his gaze on Satoshi “You know I’m so grateful at this stupid Matsumoto… Now, finally I have my opportunity to get rid of you! All these years you get on my nerves. Always being the perfect one, the stoic one. I’m the one who’s supposed to be next to Sakurai-sama… not someone like you. Thank God this year I finally found your weakness…” Kazuya ended his line smirking as he advanced to Nino caressing his cheek.
It was difficult for Nino to move but he managed to jerk his head off the other’s touch.
“Don’t you dare touch him!!!” Satoshi yelled but that didn’t seem to discourage Kazuya. He turned a bit to look at him while his hand kept traveling from Nino’s face to his torso. “Why not?!” he then turned to look at Nino “Are you really that smooth as you look baby?!” He leaned closer and sniffed a bit at the crook of Nino’s neck. “I wonder how it is to have you underneath trembling from pleasure as I fuck you hard…” his voice was low causing shivers to Nino’s body out of disgust. All he could do was to spit on Kazuya’s face while Satoshi tried desperately to free himself.
Kazuya cleaned his face with the back on his hand before turning to Nino and slamming him in a really hard way. “What do you think you’re doing asshole?”
“If I were you I would say what the hell do you think you’re doing useless little shit?”
Kazuya froze. He didn’t need to turn around to know whose voice was that. He lowered his head and clenched his fist. Damn it…
“Now… please if your wish is not to end up in the hospital release them at once!” the other man’s voice left no room for doubt. Kazuya turned slowly the other way. He knew he had no choice but to free them. Grudgingly he nodded to the other three.
“I’m happy there’s understanding between us Kazuya-kun. Now be a good boy and get the hell out of here before I change my mind about sending you package to the nearest hospital…”
Kazuya slowly started walking. “As you wish…” the words were coming with difficulty from his mouth. “…Yokoyama-san” He didn’t want to admit it but he had failed… and that was probably his end.
Once he and the other three left, Satoshi ran to Nino hugging him tightly. “Baby, are you ok?” Nino could see the worry written all over his face.
He smiled warmly and nodded. “Satoshi… I’m not the one you should worry about… C’mon… let’s go!”
“I’m sorry for being late Ohno-san” Yokoyama Yuu’s voice was heard behind him.
“It’s ok… But Kazu is right. We should hurry” Satoshi took Nino’s hand and started walking towards the entrance of the warehouse. He could feel his heart beat accelerate as his hand reached for the big door. He could hear Jun’s voice.
***
“You have no idea what it means to be touched by all these greedy old men… to feel their hot breath on your skin… you have no idea what it means to be raped every single night several times and yet to have to pretend you enjoy it… you have no idea how disgusted you are with yourself being filled with their cum… you have no idea how things truly are damn it!”
Satoshi’s heart clenched at the hearing of this. He felt Nino’s grip on his hand tighten. They looked at each other as if they could say everything to one another. Without a second thought, Satoshi opened the door to find a motionless, shocked Masaki and an out of control Jun who was kicking Sho repetitively, showing absolutely no mercy as he continued his monologue “and you shit always thought you were the one who suffered then let me tell you something… you have no idea of what hell means…”
It was a matter of seconds, before Yuu run and grab Jun and Nino towards Masaki.
Jun was fighting like a maniac to free himself. It seemed as if he was not himself anymore. Satoshi couldn’t help but pity him. He knew he had to put an end in all this madness. No one knew every part of the story. They only had it seen from their own respective perspectives.
After a while Jun stopped moving frankly and fell on his knees; there was no power left in him. He was still grabbed by Yuu when he looked up at Satoshi smirking bitterly. “Toma spoke huh?! I knew that he wouldn’t keep his promise… No one is there for me…” he laughed bitterly. He looked up at Satoshi. “So… when will the police arrive? I believe you have found all the necessary evidence to put me in… right?”
Satoshi just sighed and shook his head negatively. “No, Matsumoto-kun. I have no intention to put you in jail”
Sho, who was trying to find his breath again, looked at his best friend coming closer to them. Things had turned way too complicated. He thought it was a thing between him and Masaki. Instead it also included Jun. After having heard all that, he couldn’t help but regret the revelation he had prepared the other day at school. He felt so cheap… And then he looked at Masaki… He couldn’t believe that even there, where he was supposed to hate him, he had declared clearly that he loved him. He was hurting and not because of the kicks on his stomach… he felt exactly as Jun had said earlier. Useless...
Masaki was looking blankly at Satoshi. His one hand was holding tightly Sho’s shirt, as if he it was some kind of energy for him. Nino’s presence was there too but for some reason he felt as if he and Sho were connected; perhaps because they had similar feelings towards Jun and the accident. Masaki just couldn’t believe it. I’m responsible for my mother’s, Sho’s and Jun’s misfortune… It was as if his mind could only understand that. He felt more tears coming down his cheek. All of that was just too much for him to handle… his chest ached. It was too much for him… too much.
Satoshi sat near them having a strangely for the circumstances calmness. “I just want to clear things up. I believe that everyone here deserves to know the whole truth…”
Jun laughed mockingly. “We know it… No need for repetition…”
Satoshi looked at him intensively. “No… Matsumoto-kun… you’re wrong… you don’t know the whole truth and that was exactly the true culprit’s intention…”
Jun turned his gaze to Satoshi. “What do you mean by saying culprit?!”
Satoshi closed his eyes slightly smirking, before turning his gaze towards Jun as well.
“Tell me Matsumoto-kun, don’t you find it weird that your father had left the country hoursbefore the actual accident?”
TO BE CONTINUED
A.N. Here's my update! To tell you the truth today I'm more than exhausted but I knew there were some of you who were waiting for this... so I tried my best and here it is! :)
Another good (or bad :P - I don't know - ) news! I finished it finally! There will be a total of 15 chapters and an epilogue
So... Jun! We finally found out who he is and what is his connection to the whole story! I'm not sure if someone expected that or not... or if that's disappointing... *scratches her head* He has for sure suffered a lot in his life... I kinda want to hug him... :( Everyone has suffered his own way ne?!
But there's more! Since now, we have seen the POVs of Masaki, Sho and Jun. This is not the whole truth... there will be more revelations at the next one - the last ones I promise! :)
Our beloved Satoshi will make everything clear! ;) shhh... I won't say more...
If I want to be completely honest, this chapter and the next one were the most difficult to write since I had to put every single piece of the story down... I'm just relieved I managed to do it in the end - though you will be the ones to judge the result! XD
So what do you think?! Really hope you liked it and as always, comments are <333!!!
See you next week! ^_^
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