Title: Cross-linked Chaos

Author: Andy-chan (antimiya88)

Pairings: Sakuraiba (main) / Ohmiya (side) / Junma (side)

Genre: AU, Romance, Angst, Drama

Rating: R - NC17(ish)

Summary: Sakurai Sho at the age of 26 decided to turn a new page in his life. He managed to become a high-school professor. He knows the challenge is big, considering his past, but he's determined to fulfill the promise he had given nine years ago. In his class, he comes across Aiba Masaki a boy with a rude attitude who seems to not care about anything. Somehow, he reminds him of his old self and he's determined to succeed. At the end of the week, he's made to go with his cousin to the latter's favorite host club to celebrate his new start. At first, he denied to have fun but when he sees the number one host, he finally forgot about anything and let go. What he didn't know is that this will make things complicated. Could this new situation be the key for his future?

Disclaimer: I don't own Sakuraiba, they own me.

Chapter 1   /   Chapter 2   /   Chapter 3   /   Chapter 4   /   Chapter 5   /   Chapter 6   /   Chapter 7   /   Chapter 8

Sho looked at his watch as he parked the car at the corner, a few meters away from the host club’s entrance. He knew that his boyfriend didn’t want him to come to the club, partly because he knew that he’d make it difficult for him to do his job and partly because he was ashamed of it. He hadn’t said so out loud but the way Masaki had lowered his head avoiding any kind of eye-contact before getting out of the car four hours ago was enough for Sho to figure it out. Yet, he knew this job was important for him and he had decided to respect that. Masaki was an adult and doing his best to earn the necessary money for his brother was one thing but being forced to see him with clients in that state was another.

He tried to avert his eyes elsewhere knowing that in almost ten minutes later Masaki would be with him but something made him look even closer. His hands gripped the steering wheel so tight that his knuckles turned white. He thought his eyes were playing dirty with him. He thought he saw Yokoyama Yuu being or more correctly pretending to be drunk while his Masaki was holding him from the waist as they stepped out of the club.

“It must be the damn message…” he whispered to himself trying to find a way to reason the sight in front of him. “I see things…”

He was trying to ease his heavy breathing when he heard a soft knock on the front passenger’s window. He turned his head just to be left with his mouth open. He didn’t need anything else. He threw the door open slamming it back with force as he got out of the car. In one fast move, he stood in front of the other, his hand having found the collar of the white shirt he was wearing turning him around, so that his back was now on Sho’s car.

“Oh… I see you haven’t lost your touch, Ni-san” the tone was provocative, sarcastic.

Sho’s eyes narrowed dangerously but he still denied to open his mouth. He was now pressing the other firmly along with his body weight making it impossible for him to move.

“Is that your greeting after so many years?! And I thought you had manners, Ni-san…”

“Call me Ni-san one more time and I’ll-” Sho didn’t know what to say to continue. He shouldn’t say anything. This chapter was over since a long time ago.

“You what, Ni-san?! You’ll make me shut up?! Perhaps, you’ll stick it up to me?! If I remember correctly you weren’t that against it in the past… Ok, I don’t claim you’d do it if not obliged to but I still remember the way you were moaning right into my face while you had him doing you the same time… Legendary moments, don’t you agree?”

Sho gulped trying to ignore the images that threatened to come to his mind. “Shut up…”

“What?! You are afraid of the truth, Ni-san?! Or you want to tell me you’ve quit such shit?! C’mon… I know you haven’t… That bitch of yours… I admit that he’s looking pretty innocent but he’s nothing like that…” the other said licking his lips. “I know that he has talents; talents that even if I usually prefer tits to cocks, I’d definitely wouldn’t turn him down... Moaning, whimpering… He seems to be the loud type! My personal favorite!”

That was it. Sho threw a punch right onto the other’s face gaining a moan of pain from the other. “Touch a single hair of his and I’ll make sure the next thing you’ll face is the soil, Takizawa!”

Takkey found the power and pushed the other away before spitting blood on the ground. “You’re still so stupid…” he muttered smirking.

“You shut u-” Sho started saying when he realized what the other had said. “Stupid?! You dare to call-”

Takkey shook his head. “Stupid, blind, whatever… The thing is that you still don’t get it…”

“I said shut the fuck up!”

“You thought you escaped…”

“I did escape, you bastard!” Sho hissed. “I paid everything that I owed you… We had things cleared. I have nothing to do with you anymore!”

Takkey laughed mockingly. “And you want to tell me that you’re not stupid! The things that got cleared was only the fact that you are allowed to stand in front of me at the moment, feeling your heart beating even if its rhythm betrays your anger, frustration, whatever it is you feel! I’ll tell you two things and I’d suggest you pay attention to them, if you really want your beauty stay out of this…”

“And why would you do that?! You might call me stupid but I’m not! You wait for Yokoyama… I saw him…”

Takkey smirked. “I do wait for him. But I was supposed to wait for him and see no one while I’m here talking to you. That’s a bit different isn’t?!”

“No, if you want to piss me off… I warn you…” Sho made a move to grab the other but with no luck. Takkey was faster than him.

“You are in no position to warn me, Sakurai! It was Yokoyama the one your bitch is helping over there… don’t forget the basics, please!”

“So, tell me please what you want to tell me, Takizawa. Just seeing your face makes my stomach sick…”

“Let’s say that the new direction the gang has taken is boring for me… We do get many chicks, I can’t deny that but only sex – no matter how kinky it can be – becomes monotonous at some points… I need variation to spend my adrenaline… I need to be able to decide on the variation of the games…”

“You want to be the leader…” Sho said narrowing his eyes.

“Bingo!” Takkey said smirking. “Finally, your brain starts working in the right track! Yes… I’m sick of Yuu. He’s the type to be obsessed and to our luck he’s obsessed with you…”

“He never liked me…”

“I never liked you either…” Takkey spoke without leaving Sho the chance to say anything else as he continued. “Frankly, no one liked you… you were this cute-looking boy who wanted to join only because he was bored with his perfect life, with perfect ignorance and from zero became the leader’s bitch… That’s some real shit but jealousy to jealousy is different… especially when there are feelings included!”

“Stop with the bullshit, Takizawa! Only a blind wouldn’t see that Yokoyama was dying to get into his pants… but feelings?! Please…”

“That’s where you make a mistake! Even then… Yuu was the most loyal but would never be called to warm his bed… you see, our precious leader would be all for the pretty boys… and then you came and he got crazy about you from the moment he laid his eyes on you… he forbid us to touch you… he would have you exclusively – unless if he was the one to give orders behind his chamber’s doors – and you hated, weren’t you?! You didn’t like it but then it was offering so much that you decided to simply don’t care about the sex part… You might have thought of it as a way to get relieved daily. But once again you were stupid; stupid enough to show it… Try to imagine how that would be perceived by Yuu… You were the favorite of the one he wanted the most and you didn’t like it, never went for it! Stupid…”

“But I left! He became the leader! What the hell does he want from me, now?”

“Hearing the moans of the one he wanted through the closed door while pounding in you will never leave his ears… That’s why he has established another system… Screw and Change!”

“The fuck, Takizawa! I have left!” Sho said louder this time, his right hand clenching into fist again. “Leave Masaki alone! I won’t repeat it!”

Takizawa shook his head. “Masaki was the one who found us in the first place… He got the money… and we are expecting it back…”

“And as far as I know he pays you every single penny, not to mention the occasional punches… but that’s a bonus, isn’t it?”

Takizawa burst into laughs. “We care to take the money, the measures taken lie to the collector’s judgement!”

“Leave him alone! He has nothing to do with my past…”

“You’re screwing him, so he has to do with you… your past is a part of you… and you happen to have this artistic tattoo closed to your wrist, so you have to do with us… at least, for Yuu…”

“I have nothing to do with you…” Sho whispered, the fist having disappeared. His voice sounded weaker. He was tired to keep having to fight. He was tired to be followed by his mistakes… but then such mistakes proved to be not easily paid off… he knew that well.

Takizawa said nothing as he lit up a cigarette. He turned his gaze up to Sho’s and smirked when he saw the defeat written all over the other’s face.

“What do you want from me?”

Takkey smiled satisfied. “To not do anything stupid at the moment… I’ll make sure, Yuu won’t touch this bitch of yours… as long as you do as I say…”

“And how will I know that you won’t stop from destroying my life?”

Takkey laughed loud. “Because A. I never gave a shit for him and B. I’ll make sure we finally cut all the ties with you… So practically, you’ll be of no use…”

“What the hell do you mean by cutting all the ties with me? They are cut!” Sho growled.

Takkey smirked and blew smoke directly on Sho’s face. “So you think…” he came closer leading to Sho’s ear. “And please don’t seem this sad, it breaks my heart!” he said ironically. “Look, your bitch has just finished! You can always fuck him to calm down!” he threw the cigarette on the pavement. “I’ll contact you soon… Goodnight, Ni-san…” and with that he winked and walked away leaving a full of frustration, anger, sadness and confusion Sho behind.

***

Takkey continued to smirk even when he entered the backseat of the black limousine that was parked two corners away just next to the small dead end. “So?” he asked impatiently.

The other took out his phone and showed it to Takkey. A moving dot was visible.

“You know you should never doubt me!” the other sounded quite calm but Takkey could see the annoyance hidden in every single word.

“I’m sorry…” he mumbled bowing a little. “But you know me… Just impatient…”

The other clicked his tongue against his teeth. “You?”

“Done! What’d you take me for?! I’m a pro…”

“Good…” Takkey cleared his throat making the other muffle a laugh. “Impatient indeed. Don’t worry… Svetlana and Yuriko are waiting for you in your room… They’re pros and willing to please… especially if the tip is big!”

Takkey laughed. “Don’t worry, Yuu… No girl leave my room unsatisfied… And the tip isn’t be the only thing that is big in my case!”

“Always a pervert…”

And you always a stupid… Takkey thought amused. “Have you contacted the ‘Big Boss’?”

Yuu smirked. “Of course, I did! Party is about to start!”

***

“Sho?” Masaki frowned as his boyfriend seemed not to realize he was already standing next to him. He tried again, louder this time. “Sho?”

Sho shook his head and tried to smile when he saw his boyfriend standing next to him with a worried look on his face.

“Sho, are you alri-”

Masaki never had the chance to finish his question as he was brought onto Sho’s torso, hugged tightly. He frowned. It was obvious that his boyfriend was upset, worried. Could it be that he worries this much about me working here? But then, I explained and he seemed to underst- he then realized that Sho was outside of the car. Shit… he probably came here earlier… he might saw that wasted client and he was clingy… Damn it!

Masaki’s hands closed around Sho’s neck bringing the other closer if that was possible. “Sho, I’m sorry…” he whispered, not knowing what else he could say.

Sho relaxed his hug a bit and moved backwards so that he could meet the other’s eyes. “Masaki…?”

“I’m sorry for worrying you…” Masaki’s right hand came to caress Sho’s cheek. “I hate it to look at you being like this…”

Sho smiled and pecked Masaki’s nose. “As long as I can hold you in my arms, I have nothing to worry about, my love. Shall we go? It’s already late and tomorrow we have school!”

Masaki nodded. “We’re going to my home, right?”

Sho nodded smiling. “Of course we are, baby…”

Sho saw Masaki going around the car and opened his door when he felt his phone buzzing.

From: Unknown Number
What a sweet couple you two are!
Did he ask you to make love to him
because he saw you sad?
You better take care of him, Ryu-Ni-san!
……………………………………………..


“I’m warning you… it’s a mere hole…” Masaki whispered as he slid the key in the lock.

Sho smiled, keeping his hand on his boyfriend’s back. “And I’ll say it once again; Even if it’s a mere hole, as you say, it’s your apartment!”

Masaki sighed as he let the door open. Sho followed him inside. The apartment was small and quite dark, if he judged from the one small window he saw across the main room. There weren’t but a few basic pieces of furniture but that didn’t bother Sho. What bothered him the most was the fact that it seemed empty… similarly to his kind of empty. There were no photos of his family and even if he knew that Masaki wouldn’t want to be reminded of his parents, he still hated the fact that he had to face such a life.

“What are you thinking?” Masaki whispered, wrapping his arms around Sho’s waist from behind.

Sho smiled as he felt Masaki’s lips attach to his nape. “How I want us to have our own apartment… filled with our memories… our happy memories…”

Masaki giggled. “You’re surely moving fast…”

“I… Well, I only thought that-”

Masaki stood in front of him with a wide smile. “I’ve thought about it too… I would like to be there when you come home… to eat together… sit next to each other for hours without saying anything… In the past, I couldn’t bear silence… it drove me crazy but you have made it calming… soothing… Hmm… Sho?”

“Yes?”

“Tomorrow… I don’t know your schedule but I wish you’d come with me after school!”

“To go where?”

“The hospital…” Masaki lowered his gaze. “I want you to meet my little angel… he’s the reason I’ve managed to pass through all the shit till now… I hope that he’ll be happy to get to know you…”

Sho brought Masaki closer. “I’m sure he wants to see his brother happy… never doubt that… I know he has a big heart just like you have… If he didn’t worth it, you wouldn’t do anything…”

Masaki nodded without saying anything.

“Baby… are you alright?”

“It’s just that tomorrow he will have some more examinations… I don’t know what exactly but I’m afraid that he’ll be in pain again and I can’t see him like that anymore, Sho… I can’t… That’s why I thought to surprise him with you and…” he bit his lower lip “And the other member of our family…”

Sho frowned. “The other member of… your family…?”

“Yes!” Masaki looked at his boyfriend with a wide smile. “Someone who could be called our dad though I prefer to think of him as an older brother… he took care of us when he didn’t have to…”

“I’m lost here…”

Masaki muffled a laugh and pecked Sho’s lips. “Let’s say that I finally opened my eyes and saw that I already had a family…” Sho continued looking at his boyfriend confused. “We were adopted, Sho! Adopted!”

“By whom?”

“It’s a secret for now… I want to reveal it to you tomorrow in front of my little angel but I believe you’ve already met him!”

“Met him?” Could it be Nino?

“Don’t be curious now! Wait for the surprise! I’m just thinking how stupid I’ve been… My stubbornness threw away my chance to be happy sooner… but then perhaps who knows if I had you like I do now…”

“Masaki…” Sho started to say but caught the wetness in Masaki’s eyes and wanted to lift it away. “I guess we should eat! I brought bento with the rest of the curry you cooked! Doesn’t that make me a good boyfriend?”

Masaki kept staring at him lost for a couple of seconds before shaking his head. “For feeding your boyfriend with the leftovers he has cooked?! The best! Come…” he pecked the other’s lips and squeezed his hand as he moved to the small kitchen.

Inside there was a small gas cooker and an old refrigerator that had space for only one person. It was obvious that Masaki was giving everything he earned for his brother’s treatment and the debt… Sho’s heart clenched with pain.

“Don’t pity me…”

Sho was snapped out of his thoughts turning his attention to his boyfriend who was staring back at him with a serious gaze.

“I don’t-”

“You did… But I’m fine… I have everything I need… And I’ve done it by myself, Sho! You’ve promised…”

“I know you have, Masaki… I wasn’t pitying you… but it hurts seeing the most precious person in my life having been forced to live such a life… You also have to accept that!”

Masaki frowned but soon enough sighed. “I guess I wasn’t as alone as I thought…”

“Masaki… don’t do”

“Let’s eat!”

They had lied on the single futon Masaki had and despite the little space, they had managed to fit in. Sho was holding his boyfriend in his arms, his hand caressing the latter’s arm till he sounded completely asleep. He didn’t pity Masaki but he felt angry that he was living in such conditions. And then… he was facing trouble because of him. Could it be that he was that selfish? Wanting to be at the other’s side even if he caused more pain? He had never felt like that before. Just holding Masaki in his arms felt right but then again did he have the right…?

Not being able to cope with his thoughts, he stood up making sure he didn’t wake Masaki up and went to the kitchen to drink a glass of water. He opened the left cupboard on top of the sink feeling a bunch of papers landing on his face. Cursing, he started grabbing them from the floor, scattered as they were, and tried to put them in order, leaving them on the small table next to him when his eyes caught something particular on the top of the page he was holding in his hands at the moment.

“What the…”

He brought it closer to his face so that he could discriminate the pattern better. It seems familiar… he tried to think but no matter how much he tried he couldn’t. But still… I feel as if I’ve seen it again… I… his eyes bulged in realization. IT CAN’T BE! That’s why Takizawa told me all that… Yokoyama went that way… But then Masaki… Oh God…

“What the hell, Sho?!” Sho froze. He was still holding the papers when the light in the kitchen lit up. “What the fuck are you doing with those? Why do you want to sneak secretly into every detail of my life? I hate it when you do it that way!”

“I wanted to drink some water and as I opened the cupboard they fell on my face…”

“That’s why you were staring at them with such zeal? Because they simply fell? I’ve been standing here for five minutes already!”

“This is the debt contract, isn’t it?”

Masaki walked furiously over Sho and grabbed the papers in his hand. “And what if it is? I’m dealing with it!”

“No! I won’t let you!”

“Why the hell can’t we come to an understanding to this? You agreed it’s my debt…” Masaki’s tone turned more into a desperate one.

“I did but then I didn’t know who the bastard that you had to face was!”

Masaki frowned. “What do you mean? What the hell are you talking about, Sho?”

“It’s not the gang to whom you owe the debt, Masaki…”

“Eh?! But-”

“It’s Ryu’s supposed company for money laundering!”

Masaki was staring at the other in a state of confusion. “Who? What?”

Sho fell on the chair next to him, holding his face with his hands. “Ryu is like the big boss… no one knows him and in the same time everyone does. He owns half Japan… at least some of the richest areas, including Tokyo… When I was in the gang we all had to ‘rent’ our territories… he was the big boss… we didn’t do the job for him… but he still had the last word over us… we still belonged to him… even the leader…”

Masaki’s eyes bulged. “Your tattoo…”

Sho nodded. “Exactly… He played with the kanji of dragon that sounded exactly like his name. No one knows what he looks like… or who he is… but the fact is that he’s the last person you want to get involved with… and you…”

“I’m paying it off though… Whoever he might be, he can’t do anything!”

“You don’t, Masaki… You’re giving him the chance to gain a thousand yen for every single one you pay him while you’re being exposed as the culprit if things come to light! It’s stated in the damn contract! I can’t let you!”

“Sho… I…”

“You promise me that you won’t pay a single penny to them ever again!”

“And what am I supposed to do?”

“I’ll deal with it!”

“No! It’s my shit to-”

“And you never again accept to serve Yokoyama Yuu or however the supposedly drunkard you helped out tonight presented himself in the club! Got it?”

“Eh?” Masaki frowned but then gasped. “You… you know him?”

“You can say we’re old… buddies…” Sho grabbed Masaki by his shoulders. “Please, tell me you understood! Please!”

Masaki could only nod and a sigh of relief passed through Sho’s body. He locked his lips on the other’s forehead. “Thank you!” Reluctantly he took the papers from Masaki’s hand and placed them back in the cupboard. “Let’s go to sleep… we will talk more tomorrow… Come…”

It took some time but Masaki had finally drifted to the dreamland. Sho, on the other hand, couldn’t feel a moment of piece. He took his phone in hand and quickly typed a text.

To: Unknown Number
I will do whatever you want me.
Ryu-Ni

He looked at his phone screen for a moment and after having taken a deep breath, he pressed the send button. I’m sorry for breaking my promise to you, Jun but I can’t let Masaki get involved like that… I must protect him… no matter what…
………………………………………………..


Jun looked with a frown at the shorter couple as they sipped some of the coffee.

“I guess you want me to explain the reason I never mentioned the fact that I had adopted Masaki and his younger brother…”

“It’s weird, isn’t it?”

Nino sighed. “When I did it I just had enrolled in the hospital his younger brother was. I had grown to know them since I was an intern and I can say that I saw in Masaki the younger brother I never had… the younger brother I wanted to have… They were left alone… and I felt guilty. I had overheard his father pleading on the phone that he didn’t have money… that he needed more time… I had seen him try not to cry but I never thought it was that serious… Stupid me… Months later, Masaki and Yusuke were left all alone… They would separate them and I hated it… I saw Masaki coming to the hospital to visit his younger brother – I guess it was an obligation for the foster parents  by the state – but every time he’d come with a new one… and his eyes would turn dark… and then slowly they became empty… and I hated!

It was three years later that I managed overhear him talking to his sleeping brother. He was being violated… He said that he didn’t care about the previous ones that had taken him just to gain access into social care privileges or decreased taxes and ignored him in the best case. At that time, he was living with a family of no children. I thought it was better because that way he wouldn’t have to face discrimination but how wrong was I… His foster father hit him… He was violated physically and he was only fifteen years old. I knew what it meant to be alone in this world but I was lucky… The orphanage I was in had kind personnel and was able to find my path in life and move on despite the loneliness and the difficulties… He wasn’t that lucky… I knew I had to do something. I wanted to talk to him but then… I heard his words… and I decided to respect his opinion. He wanted no one to help him. He swore to his life that he would be the one to protect his little angel, as he called and calls his younger brother. I could hear the hate for any kind of help but I couldn’t judge him. He never had experienced true help. Help must be given according to the one’s needing it needs and not yours… and so did I. I didn’t wish him to hate me… I wanted to see him smile…

Only one year later was I able to adopt him with condition to pass the custody of his younger brother to him once he turned twenty and never know that he was adopted. He wouldn’t be forced to move from foster family to foster family. He would be safe along with his brother. I talked to the general director of the hospital and the owner and ‘rented’ a room close to his brother’s one. I wanted them to be together as a family is supposed to be…”

“He liked you… from what I understand…” Jun whispered pensively. “I’m sure he wouldn’t-”

“A teenager with so much hate and frustration in his soul wasn’t the easiest person to change his mind…” Nino cut the other off.

“Had he ever tried to commit suicide?”

Nino shook his head. “No… but he had started smoking and sometimes his breath betrayed alcohol consummation…”

“Oh…”

“Was that the only reason for wanting to meet with us?” Satoshi asked, his hand having covered Nino’s in an attempt to help him relax a bit.

Jun cleared his throat. “No… We know who is hiding behind the gang that threatens Aiba Masaki”

“It’s a big fish… isn’t?”

“Yes… and the most disgusting one. Sho’s… father”

Both Satoshi’s and Nino’s eyes bulged in surprise.

Jun laughed bitterly. “He’s the type of asshole that would sell his soul to the devil if that could guarantee him power and money… He was the reason Sho was like that in the past… he’s the reason for his suffering now…”

“Can’t we do anything?” Nino asked concerned. “Both Sho and Masaki deserve happiness”

“I have already made the first step but there’s something that concerns me. In order to put him behind the bars we need to prove that he’s dealing with the illegal drug market and there’s no proof leading there. I’m sure he does… and I’m afraid all his victims might be tangled to it in their ignorance. If that’s the case, he’ll be able to get away with it and leave them as the culprits…”

“I will help you” Satoshi said calmly while looking into Jun’s eyes making Nino stop breathing.

“The hell you’re not, Satoshi!” he almost yelled causing tens pairs of eyes turn to their table. They were in a small café not wanting to attract unnecessary attraction.

“What do you mean?” Jun asked the other ignoring Nino.

“Let’s say that drugs and I have a history in the past… I know people… I’m sure I will be able to find something…”

“The hell you’re not! It’s dangerous! I won’t let you!” Nino said again but Satoshi ignored him.

“The sources remain more or less the same… I know the tricks while being psychologist… Take that as bonus…”

“The sooner we move, the better… Perhaps, I could send you the relevant papers. There are some underground bars mentioned. It could only be the beginning of the thread… but it could lead us out of the maze…”

“I believe it will… I would gladly do my best!”

Jun smiled. “Thank you”

Nino had it enough. He jumped up from his seat and stormed out of the café before someone could stop him.

Satoshi sighed. “I’m sorry for him but I’ll do it!” he ran fast to the exit. Once outside the café, he looked around and found his lover waiting for the light to turn green. Sighing, he ran to him and hugged him from behind.

Nino tried to free himself but the other’s grip was tight. “Leave me alone, Satoshi!”

“I’ll be fine… I’m doing it for Sho’s and Masaki’s sake… Nothing will happen to me…” Nino started trembling. Satoshi knew his lover was crying. Not caring about the comments from passersby, he turned him around and locked their lips together. Only when he felt the other relaxing in his arms, he broke the kiss. “I love you too much not to take care of myself, Kazu…”

Nino looked at his boyfriend’s eyes. “I won’t stand the idea of losing you…”

“You won’t… If it wasn’t for you, I would be lost… not now… Ok, baby?”

Nino clung to Satoshi, his hands gripping tightly his lover’s shirt. “Promise me you’ll be safe…” he whispered, his voice full of fear and uncertainty.

Satoshi kissed the top of Nino’s head. “I promise you, Kazu… Let’s go home, now…”

Nino nodded and let the other hug him with one hand as they started walking back home. He was afraid but he knew that Satoshi would do it to help them… not only for them but also for him… because he knew that Nino did care about Masaki.
………………………………………………..


Jun sighed looking at the couple. You are really lucky to have each other… He turned around to leave when he felt his phone buzzing.

From: Toma
If you want anything, you can
contact me via e-mail. I never
want to see you again.       

Shit! Jun immediately made a nod to a cab and climbed into it. “34, Shinsuke Str. Minato. Hurry up, please!” his eyes were moving from building to building as the taxi headed to the address he had just given to the driver. Perhaps, it was about time to be completely honest.

***

“Why did you do that, Matsumoto-kun?”

Jun bit his lower lip as he let Toma enter his apartment. “I would cook for myself anyway… I just made a larger portion…” He heard the other sighing but tried not to be affected by it. “Would you like something to drink? A glass of wine, perhaps?”

Toma turned around and met Jun’s eyes. “Matsumoto-kun, I’m here because we have to discuss some things over the next steps and you ask me, if I want a glass of wine?! We’re not on a date! Don’t make me leave five minutes after I arrived! Please!”

Jun lowered his head defeated. “You’re right. I’m sorry. Some tea, then?”

“Water is fine” Toma replied as he went to sit on the sofa.

Jun went to the kitchen and filled two glasses of water. Tears threatened to fill his eyes but fought them away.

“Here you are…”

They kept talking for about an hour and Jun could see the wonderful man Toma had become. He was mature… intelligent… with a good sense of justice… If he wasn’t already in love with him, he was sure he would fall all over again.

Soon, they sat for dinner.

“Is a glass of wine allowed, now? It suits the lasagna perfectly…” Jun dared to ask one more time and to his surprise he heard Toma accepting it.

They ate in silence. Jun had never been more nervous in his life. He was sure that the sound of his heartbeat was competing that of the clock on the wall behind him. He wanted to say so many things but for some reason, he felt scared… the other had raised a wall and wouldn’t let it fall. He was lost in his thoughts when he heard the other’s phone vibrating.

“Yamapi?”

Jun frowned looking up at the other. From his voice, Jun was sure that this Yamapi was someone close to Toma.

“I missed you, too” Jun thought his heart would break. ‘You missed him but you didn’t miss me…’ “Of course, I’ll be there!” Toma continued with a trace of smile appearing on his lips. “See you in an hour from now! Bye!”

“A friend?” Jun asked with difficulty to sound normal.

“You… can say so…”

“So, more than a friend…” Jun whispered and drank the rest of the wine in one go.

Toma sighed. “I won’t deny that he has been more than a friend but not anymore…”

‘So, he has been…’ Jun cleared his throat trying to press the sob that threatened to come to the surface down. He filled another glass of wine. Was it his second?! Third?! He didn’t remember and little did he care.

“I must be going now, Matsumoto-kun” Toma said and stood up from the table. “The lasagna were perfect. Thank you”

Jun didn’t stand up. His mind was a mess. Toma would leave him and go to this Yamapi. ‘Damn it!’

He ran to the door where he found Toma ready to open it. Without thinking about it twice, he grabbed the other by his arm and shoved him on the wall, his hands on his wrist. “You are not going to him, Toma…” his voice was low but husky.

“Matsumot-” Toma didn’t have the chance to finish his words. Jun’s lips claimed his in a passionate, desperate way.

Jun wanted to cry once he felt them on his. They tasted the same sweet as he remembered. His body started feeling hotter and a moan escaped from the back of his throat once he felt the other responding to his kiss. He broke it and glazed at the other who was looking back at him with questioning but filled with lust eyes. That was all that Jun wanted. He crushed their lips again, more intensely this time as his hands started to move lower in an attempt to get rid of the clothes the other was wearing.

They managed to find their way to his bedroom. Only the sight of Toma on his bed, underneath him was enough to make him groan. His lips attached on the hot skin, savoring every single inch of it. The moans that started echoing in the room were enough to drive him completely crazy. He wanted them to be one. He needed to feel him.

He felt no resistance as he pushed the first finger in the small hole. The way the muscles clenched around him made his erection become painful but he needed to show the other how much he cared for him. He was preparing him slowly until the other was writhing in ecstasy on the sheets. When he entered him, his eyes never left Toma’s. He wanted to see him flushed, lustful, satisfied. He yearned for it.

It felt as if time had gone back to when they were together… as if they had never fallen apart. Their bodies were the perfect match… they belonged to each other. “I love you…” he kept whispering close to Toma’s ear as he moved his hips more and more forceful into him. The thrusts started becoming faster and soon, their covered in sweat bodies started trembling.

All that it took was a few strokes around the licking tip and Toma came between their stomachs. The way his back arched beautifully and his fingers buried in Jun’s back was enough to send the latter over the edge as well. Jun could feel his cock soften but denied to move. He rested on one elbow and brought his other hand to Toma’s face caressing it softly. “I love you, Toma…” The other didn’t answer and that made Jun’s heart clench but he didn’t move away either. “I love you…” Jun whispered again and finally slipped off.

He lied next to him, not caring to wipe the cum away. He brought him into his arms and kissed Toma’s right shoulder. “I have missed you so much, Toma…”

He wanted to keep his eyes open but he felt his eyelids heavy. Before he knew it, he had fallen asleep but he was happy… happier than he’d been in many years.

He opened his eyes frowning just to realize that he was alone in the bed. He grabbed his cotton robe and went to the bathroom. No one. He checked the whole apartment. No one. It was only 5:30 am but Toma was nowhere to be seen. ‘He left…’ he fell on the sofa, his face buried in his palms. ‘I love you, Toma… I never stopped loving you…’

***

“Open the door, Toma! Please! We need to talk!” Jun yelled once again banging on the door even louder. “I won’t leave unless you open the damn door! You hear me?!”

Suddenly, the door opened revealing Toma. His eyes were red and it was obvious that he hadn’t slept enough.

“What the hell do you want, Matsumoto? Get the fuck out of my life!”

Jun pushed the other inside and closed the door behind him.

“I can charge you! You have no right to come into my apartment like that! You’re not welcomed!” This time, it was Toma’s turn to yell.

“Not before you listen to me! I never wanted to leave you, Toma… I-”

“Yet, you did!”

“I did but I had a reason…”

“You had to make sure I was protected…?” Toma said with sarcasm.

“Yes, Toma! I would hate myself if something happened to you…”

“Was that the only reason for abandoning me? If I remember correctly, you didn’t care about the consequences while taking care of your cousin! Don’t misunderstand me… I don’t say you did wrong but-”

“He’s not my cousin, Toma” Jun muttered with his gaze lowered.

Toma frowned. “What are you talking about?”

“Sho isn’t my cousin, Toma” Jun repeated and looked straight into the other’s eyes. “He’s my half brother!”




TO BE CONTINUED…







A.N. Sooo minna here's chapter 9! ^_^ Some things got revealed, right? I don't know if some of them were expected or not but I promise you, you'll understand more as the story progress! ;) First of all, we get to know some things about Sho's time in the gang. You'll learn more when the time comes promise! Also, Sho finds out something that Jun and the others know but still miss some details... It looks complicated but remember I love happy endings! ^^ And I had told you that Ohmiya would play an decisif role in the series!! Nino did explain why he had kept a secret and was afraid of Masaki's reaction while Satoshi wants to do his best for his lover and friends! And then we have Junma! As promised, there was development and they got their share of sexy moments - I hope it wasn't disappointing! ><" And at the end, we also found something about Jun even if it came as a cliffhanger... xP
I promise you many answers will be given in the next chapter!


I really hope you enjoyed it and as always your comments are <333!!!




See you soon,
Andy ^_^