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Title: Kako no Sakura
Author: Andy-chan (![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
antimiya88)
Special thanks for all of her help and advice:chrysiida_tori Love you!!! <3
Pairings: Sakuraiba (main), Ohmiya, Junba (side), Aimiya (Friendship), Yama (Friendship)
Genre: AU, Angst, Drama, Romance, School
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Aiba Masaki's a high school student who seems to be the bullying obsession for his classmate Sakurai Sho... Is it just an obsession or there's something more behind this treatment? In what way has fate brought them together in the past?
Warning: In certain chapters, there will be violence, bullying and bad language. So if you are not ok with these things you could just pass...
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the boysunfortunately
“Satoshi! Please call an ambulance!!! Hurry up!” Nino was holding Masaki in his arms.
Everything had happened so fast. Jun was holding a gun. Masaki ran to him and managed to make it point in the air so that anyone was hurt but then… he held his chest tightly. The pain he felt in his chest was sharp. He tried desperately to breathe but the air just wouldn’t come into his lungs. It was too much for him to handle. The next minute he had fainted.
“Kazu… I’ve already called one… They told me that it’s on its way…”
Nino turned his gaze to Masaki who still showed no traces of coming back to his senses. “What happened? Masaki… Do you listen to me? Masaki… wake up…” his voices was trembling.
Sho tried to come closer but his body felt too numb because of all the punches and the kicks and didn’t allow him to move. Masaki… no please… please… He couldn’t believe what had just happened. He had sensed that Masaki was not feeling so well but the image of an unconscious Masaki in front of his eyes was just unbearable. What happened Masaki?! Please… I need you…
Jun, on the other hand, was left there unable to move or say something. He was determined to finish his life; he found that he had no need to live. He didn’t wish to relive another torturous phase of it but then Masaki didn’t let him. He had seen the determination and the desperation in his eyes… and not only that, he was now lying there unconscious. Jun somehow felt guilty. He couldn’t expect this kind of reaction. But after that this… he closed his eyes not wanting to watch his former boyfriend in that state.
“Yokoyama take the gun and get out of here… there’s no need to make the situation even more complicated than it already is. We will talk about our next steps later” Satoshi’s voice was surprisingly calm.
“No need to worry about that Ohno-kun. I’m taking my leave now” Yokoyama left quickly.
Satoshi turned his head to Jun. “Matsumoto-kun… please I believe you should leave as well…”
Jun looked at him a bit confused. “Well I don’t think it would be the best to be included in this. As soon as we learn what’s wrong with Masaki we’ll let you know. I believe he has your number on his phone. You should go to Ikuta-san and wait for our call. Ok?” Satoshi’s voice was soft.
“Don’t you hate me for wanting to harm your friend even when he had also suffered in his life and for having lied to you?” Jun asked lowering his head.
“Matsumoto-kun… I’d never hate you. You had every right to have this kind of feelings after having passed all that. I don’t say I agree but I can understand… And you love Masaki… You have the right to learn how he is… but now leave please… you will get into trouble and we don’t want something like that… it will only be to our disadvantage. Call Ikuta-san… you know… he really cares for you…” Jun bit his lip and just nodded.
He knew deep inside that Satoshi was right. He had a different plan on his mind when he left his home that afternoon. He couldn’t believe how things could turn from one moment to the other. He felt like an idiot for being tricked like that by his own father. He also felt out of place. He had no right to stay there. He knew that. He turned his gaze to Masaki. Not anymore…
“Sakurai-san…” Sho looked at Jun who had tears in his eyes. “Please… take care of him…” Sho nodded. Jun had almost made a step forward when he suddenly stopped. “Can I kiss him one last time?” Jun’s voice was slightly trembling. He noticed the others’ surprised gaze. “… I mean… on his forehead… please…”
Sho could understand how Jun must be feeling at the moment. He was feeling the same way when he looked at Masaki with him and couldn’t deny it. Jun moved a bit forward and kissed Masaki’s forehead really softly. “You’re a strong young man Masaki. Get well quickly and live happily… Ok? Thank you for making me feel human again… even if it was for a little…” all the words were spoken as a whisper making everyone tense a bit.
***
Slowly he made his way out. He reached for his phone to call Toma. What he couldn’t expect was to hear live the calling sound of his friend’s phone. He looked up to meet Toma standing there, smiling.
“How…?”
“Ohno-kun sent me a message… C’mon… let’s go…” Jun just nodded and slowly made a few steps ahead, entering his friend’s car.
He smiled bitterly. “I’m all alone… once again…”
Toma caught his hand. “What do you mean you’re all alone?! And who am I over here?! Mr. No one?!” Jun looked at him in the eyes.
Toma just smile reassuringly. “Now stop speaking nonsense… Let’s go… I’m hungry!” the car accelerated leaving the old port behind.
Jun was looking outside the car’s window, at the scenery that was continuously changing. It seems like another chapter of my life has come to its end… It always has to come to an end… He looked at Toma next to him who was focused on the road. But then maybe it can be also a start...? he turned his gaze on his lap. Who knows…?!
……………………………..
“Are you in pain?” Sho shook his head negatively as the doctors examined him. He couldn’t care less about himself. All his attention was at the lying figure at the next bed.
He had only bruises and luckily no broken bones. He would be fine but Masaki’s case was totally different. He had seen different doctors come and go. They even had to procedure to CT. He was scared. Masaki remained still unresponsive and he needed oxygen to ease his breathing. After 20 minutes he heard loud voices, as a bunch of doctors stormed in the room.
“Get him prepared quickly. The operation room is ready. It’s PSP” Sho saw nurses rush inside. After what it seemed to him only a few seconds, Masaki was already being transferred to the operation room. He was left there, unable to do anything. What was that supposed to mean? What was wrong with Masaki? Why did he need to go under surgery? His brain felt ready to explode when he heard the gentle voice of a nurse who had come to add a pain killer to his serum.
“Don’t look so sad Sakurai-kun. Your friend will be fine. He experienced a crisis of PSP. It’s not that uncommon to young boys. He will be fine…” Sho turned his head to the nurse who was smiling gently at him.
“What is PSP? I can’t understand a thing…” Sho said in a manner that showed the nervousness that was clearly building up inside him.
“PSP stands for Primary Spontaneous Pneumothorax” it was the doctor’s voice who had just entered Sho’s room. “It happens when there’s air gathered in the cavity between the lung and the chest wall, causing collapse of the lung…” Sho looked at him terrified. The doctor came closer. “It’s quite common for teenage boys who are slim and tall like Masaki. It may have been triggered because of a sudden high level of stress but after surgery the patient will be fine. It’s not as severe as it may sounds if everything’s done the time and the way it should. But now tell me… why were you there if you care so much about him…? Your friends outside told me that you had just some kind of bet… about who is the strongest… Am I supposed to believe something like that?”
Sho didn’t know what to say… Satoshi had saved him once again. “Well… it’s stupid but yes… we… had this bet about who will be able to lift the heaviest crates that remained abandoned… there… after a… quarrel at school… he accused me of having no real strength… stupid really…”
The doctor looked at him closely. “And how do you explain your bruises all over your stomach and face Sakurai-kun?”
Sho said the only thing that could pop in his head at that moment. “There was some kind of gang which had followed us… they wanted to steal our money and because I… I defended Masaki they hit me… that’s why he got stressed I guess…” he bit his tongue. He just wished the doctor would stop the questions. “But sensei… Tell me when will the operation be over?”
The doctor sighed. He knew there was no way the young boy would tell him the truth, so there was no point to pressure him while he was in that condition. “It requires usually two hours but don’t worry Okada-sensei is one of the best surgeons, specialized in cases like your friend’s. Ninomiya-kun also volunteered to give blood in case of need. So everything will be fine” his voice was gentle. “Now tell me… do you have a headache or at least some kind of nausea?”
Sho shook his head negatively. “No sensei… I’m fine. I feel better now…”
The doctor examined his reflexives and his heart rate. After having written down his notes, he headed to the door. “You were lucky you didn’t get hurt on the head. Other times don’t put… stupid bets… and go to places like that. You may be young and don’t exactly realize it but you live only once… Your lives are too precious to put it at any kind of risk…”
***
The door closed and Sho turned his gaze at the window. It was already dark. He didn’t know how much time had passed simply by counting the red lights of the cars that were passing by the avenue in front of the hospital. He had counted tens? Hundreds? And still no news from the doctors about Masaki… He didn’t even know where Satoshi was. His heart was pounding like crazy.
He felt so stupid. He had sacrificed so many years to hate… to take revenge. That day hadn’t been according to his plans. He wanted to be alone with Masaki... to tell him everything… at least everything that he knew… to make him suffer… and then get rid of Matsumoto… His eyes bulged. Where had it been? How come the doctors didn’t ask him about the drug he had hidden in his trousers? Or maybe there wasn’t any?
He sighed…
“Finally you realize that you were just stupid?”
Sho turned around to see Satoshi standing next to the door. He looked down as Satoshi advanced closer to him and took a seat next to his bed. “You know I thought that were more mature than four years ago… but I guess I was wrong… What was your plan? Huh?! Tell Masaki everything and then take that drug and kill yourself?!” Sho didn’t dare to look at him.
“What were you thinking?! You couldn’t accept the fact that you had ended up loving the one you were supposed to hate because of stubbornness?! I didn’t want to agree with Matsumoto but he was right in one point. You always think about yourself. By taking that drug you would be free, though Masaki, me, your father would be forever be trapped in that choice of yours... Did you ever consider that?!” Satoshi’s voice almost cracked. “Did you ever consider what it would feel to be left in this world like that?! I guess not… I thought that you wanted to save your father… how were you able to do that if you were no longer here?! Tell me!” Sho looked at him with teary eyes. “What?! Am I saying something wrong here?!”
“I was not planning on ki- killing myself Satoshi… I…”
“Then why did you have that drug with you?! As an accessorizing item?!”
“No… I… thought that Masaki would come along with Ma- Matsumoto… I didn’t believe he would let him come on his own… So I intended to put it secretly on him and then… call… the police…”
Satoshi couldn’t believe his ears. “What the hell were you thinking Sho?! You wanted to target him so that he would end up in jail?!”
“I… I just couldn’t bear the thought of him being with Masaki… If I wouldn’t have him then no one would… I know… that’s stupid… ok?! I have regretted it…” Sho wiped the tears that were coming down his cheeks. “I feel so… dirty Satoshi…”
Satoshi sighed. He knew how messed up his friend was. “But why don’t you ever speak?! You have to speak… not remain silent…” He grabbed Sho’s hand and squeezed it softly. “Sho… You can’t blame yourself… you have passed through so much…”
Sho smiled bitterly “So has Masaki but I didn’t see him turn like this… maybe I was also jealous of that… you know… how he could be like that when I had turned into a crazy monster…”
Satoshi grabbed Sho’s chin, making him look at him. “Sho… don’t call yourself like that… please… Masaki might have passed through a lot… but… he… despite the difficulties… he was surrounded by love… he got raised in a different environment while you… had to live with that bastard… who always played games with your mind… You just need help…”
Sho bit his lower lip. He knew he needed professional help. There were way too many things buried up in his soul that didn’t even know how to handle.
“But all that will be over Sho… I already spoke with our family’s lawyer… Your father will get out… All this evidence that has been gathered is more than enough. Besides Matsumoto’s being found. He was on holiday in Miami. He’s already arrested and brought back to Japan. There will be a trial and your father will be released from prison. I promise!”
Sho gasped at the hearing of that. “You mean…”
Satoshi smiled reassuringly. “Yes Sho. You will be free from Sakurai Shun. You will be able to live your life the way you want it. You will have your friends… the one you love by your side… you will never be alone again!”
Sho was at the verge of crying… but this time because of happiness. He was afraid though. Am I allowed to be happy? It sounded too good to be true.
Satoshi sensed his friend’s hesitation. “Have I ever lied to you?!” his voice was warm.
Sho looked back at him. Satoshi had never lied to him. It was true. He fell in his friend’s arms letting all his emotions free. He cried; he cried out of happiness; out of relief. For the first time in his life, Sho felt secure. “I’m so- sorry for having doubted you… for- forgive me for being so stub- stubborn… forgive me Satoshi…” Satoshi said nothing and just rubbed Sho’s back in attempt to calm him down.
“It’s over Sho… it’s over…” he whispered.
Suddenly Sho clenched his grips on Satoshi’s hands. “How is he?! Have you learned anything?”
Satoshi smiled. “The surgery finished. That’s what I came to tell you… It was successful. He must have already been transferred to ICU.” Sho looked at him a bit scared. “Don’t worry… It’s for the first 12 hours just in case… just a routine thing…”
“But he’s alright now… isn’t he Satoshi?” Satoshi nodded and Sho buried his head at the other’s crook of the neck when they heard the door open.
“Firstly, I thought you’d never ask that…” Sho turned his head to the door to see Nino standing next to the open door watching them with his arms crossed in front of his chest and his eyes narrowed. “And secondly, take your hands off of my boyfriend!”
Sho didn’t really know what to say to this so he just leaned back to his bed.
Satoshi lowered his head. “Kazu you really have to behave like that right now?!”
Nino pouted. “Well… I didn’t know that there was a moment that it’s ok for my boyfriend to hold tight someone else but me… Thanks for your information!”
Satoshi just shook his head. “Obviously there’s such a moment… and stop whining like a baby… please…”
Nino looked at his boyfriend with open mouth. “Now I’m a baby?! Sorry for not liking the idea of seeing you two this close…” his brows puckered in a frown. He was standing at his spot, showing no intention of coming closer.
Before Satoshi could say anything in reply they heard Sho’s muffled laugh. “Now I can understand what you found in him Satoshi…” he then turned to Nino “I’m sorry for holding your boyfriend like that… Ninomiya-kun”
Nino’s face was covered by a faint blush as Satoshi took him by the hand and made him sit next to him. “You’re amazing how you turn a serious atmosphere into a silly one!” Satoshi’s voice was a little harsh and made Nino look down.
“I’m… I’m so-”
“Don’t be!” It was Sho the one who spoke. “I’m actually glad that it turned like that… I mean… I was always in a heavy atmosphere… and I’m… kind of tired of it…”
Nino looked at him and smiled. “Then I’m not sorry!” Satoshi turned his head to Nino just to see his boyfriend wink. He sighed.
“And you should laugh more often Sakurai!” Nino immediately bit his lower lip. “I- I mean Sakurai-kun…”
Sho looked down at his lap. “I guess you have all the rights to call me however you want… I’ve done more than enough to deserve it…” his voice was low. “I’m sorry…”
“As long as it belongs to the past there’s nothing more to say… but…I have to warn you… IF… you ever, in any way make my friend sad I swear to God you will pay… and then not even your pretty little gang will be able to save you! Got it?!” his tone was serious, leaving no space for jokes.
“I only intend to make him happy… I will try my best to make him happy… I might do mistakes… I can’t deny that… but… you can be sure… that I love him… more… more than anything…” Sho said looking straight at Nino’s eyes.
“Happy to hear that!”
“Nino will you stop pretend the protector here?! You behave as if Masaki was a defenseless little girl and you were her older brother… I believe he is way stronger than you present him to be!”
“I know that stupid but there was no harm to threaten a bit…” Nino said in a low voice with clenched teeth.
Sho looked at the couple amused. His eyes fell in their intertwined fingers. You’re so lucky to have each other…
………………………………………….
It had passed four days. Sho could still feel his body numb and the pain was there too, but he was finally allowed to get up. He would only accept Satoshi and Nino. His mother had come once but he had refused to see her.
He put on a robe and slowly walked outside the room. He wanted to see him. He wanted to speak to him. It was true that they had never had the chance to speak properly. It would always be me being bossy around him… no being a total asshole around him. Sho sighed. There were so many things he wanted to share… so many things he wanted to ask… so many things he wanted to be forgiven for… so many things to forget…
His pace was slow, somewhat reluctant. He had thought about everything again and again… but he couldn’t bring himself to face him. He couldn’t know how the other would react and he was scared… As his hand touched the doorknob, he felt his heart ready to explode. He opened it slowly just to meet a peacefully sleeping Masaki. Immediately a soft smile appeared on Sho’s face. He looks like an angel. His guilt was threatening to come up to surface once again, but he tried to calm himself, as he had promised to Satoshi.
He moved closer to the bed and sat on the chair next to it. There were a few tufts of hair, fallen over his face, going up and down as he was breathing. Sho moved them aside and softly kissed his forehead. He loved him so much. Now he could scream it to the whole world. He loved him. But all he did was to try to suppress those feelings, be in a restless denial that was just eating him up. He couldn’t even dare to think that he might have lost him. Those thoughts made him reconsider once again how wrong he was with all that hatred and all that stupid revenge.
He sat back on the chair and took Masaki’s hand into his. “Please get well Masaki… you have to get well fast… I want to see you smile again… I love your smile… If only you knew how much… But all I ever did was to hurt you… I wonder if you will ever forgive me…” Sho felt some tears threatening to come to his eyes’ surface.
“I have nothing to forgive…Sho…” Sho’s eyes widened at the hearing of the slightly changed now voice as he lifted his head up surprised.
“What?! My voice has become this different?!” Sho shook hurriedly his head. Tears of joy were coming down his face as he fell on top of Masaki embracing him tightly.
“Sho… you have to get off me… you’re too heavy and I still have stitches…” Masaki whispered with difficulty and Sho immediately pulled himself off the lying figure, recognizing his mistake.
“Oh my God! Are you alright? Do you hurt anywhere? Do you want me to call for the doctors?” his face betrayed his anxiousness.
Masaki just put his hand on top of Sho’s and squeezed it softly. “I’m fine… Calm down…” he was smiling. Sho’s gaze remained locked in this smile. It looked like sunshine… so gentle, so warm. He was left speechless as Masaki’s thumb came to wipe his tears. “What now?” his voice was huskier than before. It was because of the surgery but to Sho was the most beautiful he had ever heard.
Sho smiled warmly and caressed Masaki’s cheek softly. “It’s just that you are so beautiful…”Masaki couldn’t hide his blush as he lowered his eyes from Sho to his lap.
“What happened to you? I didn’t know you were able to talk like th- that…” he said clearly embarrassed.
“I guess I never let myself… be my- myself…” Sho bit his lower lip.
Masaki laughed bitterly. “Well… I guess no one had the chance… Do you know where is…” Masaki stopped before he finished but he knew he already made a mistake.
“… Matsumoto Jun?” Sho’s voice was low. “I… I haven’t seen him since th- that evening… He left. A friend of his was waiting for him I guess. But he… he was informed about your condition… Satoshi did… but… I guess he didn’t want to… come here… perhaps he’s afraid… or he simply… wants to forget…”
Masaki just nodded. He was aware that he might never see Jun again and maybe that was for the best, although a part of him wished he would.
“You want to… see him…?” Sho asked rather reluctantly.
“Yes…” replied Masaki in a respectively low voice, his gaze remained focused on his lap.
Sho turned his own gaze to the floor. So he misses him?! Perhaps he rethought about it? He was lost in his thoughts when he heard Masaki.
“I think I owe him an explanation… he deserves it… after all he treated me so well and all I did… was to… play with him…” his voice was trembling as he spoke the last words. “I just wanted to forget… you…” he whispered and closed his eyes when he felt arms wrapping around him, loosely this time.
“Stop troubling yourself… Matsumoto… he never had anything against you… I must be the one at fault here… I couldn’t be clear with my own feelings…” he kissed softly the top of Masaki’s head. “Maybe in a way we all are and in the same time aren’t at fault for everything… I don’t know what to think anymore… but you especially never did something having secondary aims. Stop troubling yourself… Please…”
“But… I…”Sho hushed Masaki putting his palm over his lips.
“Will you stop it? Initially, I wanted to tell you everything… make you suffer… make you feel guilty. I wasn’t planning on hurting you physically… I just couldn’t bear it… only mentally. I wanted to let you know what it meant to live like that. Funny how I intended to use the same methods my beloved new father used on me…” Sho paused for a few seconds trying to calm himself down and don’t break at that very moment.
“Of course I wasn’t aware of Matsumoto. When he came I thought you were somewhere as well but it turned out he was alone. I felt so stupid… Matsumoto’s words were right. I was concentrated on myself. I never thought how you must have felt… forced to live with your mother in that condition because of the same accident. I never thought that you might already feel guilty about it… having all those nightmares…
I just wanted to make you suffer. And the fact that you were able to smile at school was only making me feel even worse. Though, what I didn’t know was that it was this smile that made me feel warm inside. Even if I didn’t want to admit it I secretly wished to see it every day. I would watch you from afar. You were always so kind and I couldn’t help but feel jealous; jealous that you were such a person when I… I had turned into a monstrous one.
I couldn’t bear seeing you with Matsumoto either. I just wanted you to be there for me even if I could never have you… Tell me if that isn’t the definition of egoism then what is it?! And then you said that you… me… I thought that I would feel better after having made you pay. But I couldn’t be more wrong. I just couldn’t bear to see your face expressionless, empty… I missed your smile. I thought that making you suffer would give me the satisfaction of justice… so that I could finally move on… but when I saw you losing your senses in that cursed warehouse I just wished to die. There’s no way I would feel relieved or vindicated. I realized that making you suffer it would make me feel worse… that the guilt would never make me let it go… that I would be trapped forever… it seemed like an endless maze… I couldn’t have failed more in my life… I was just stupid…
I want to ask for your forgiveness… But I don’t even know if I have the right to ask for it… I will understand it if you don’t want to forgive me… I mean I don’t think I will ever forgive myse-”
Sho didn’t have the chance to finish his phrase. Masaki’s lips locked on his, leaving him no chance to speak.
“There’s nothing to forgive Sho… I can’t deny that at first I was scared and I wished that I had never crossed you in my life… I just couldn’t understand why you were behaving the way you did towards me… After a while I just thought that it was just a way to kill your boredom…” Masaki bit his lower lip guiltily, lowering his head.
“Because you had everything in your life… that’s what I thought… little did I know…” Masaki’s voice started trembling as he remembered Satoshi’s words. “So… I thought why don’t you have some fun at school?! I couldn’t have guessed how much you had suffered in your life… But then you… k- kissed me… and it- it felt right… gradually I started looking at you… I mean really looking at you and I could see your sorrow… the emptiness of your gaze… I just knew that there was more behind… I couldn’t come to hate you not even when you did that to Jun… I just couldn’t… I had… I had already fallen for you… and I don’t think that you need a reason to love someone… Both of us were somehow lost in the maze of the suffocating past… But I… I’ve said it before… I love you and I want to be free… I want us to be free Sho… Let’s try to get free together… I need you by my side… I need to know that you stand next to me… that you will catch me any time I fall… because I believe I will fall many times before being able to forget…” Masaki’s voice was becoming lower and lower as he finished his lines…
Sho took him in his arms, rubbing his back and having his lips on Masaki’s forehead. It was the first time they had spoken; really spoken. Their mouths might have not said much but their eyes had said everything. He knew well that both had their marks and that there would be difficulties but together they could help each other. Together they could move on. Together they could perhaps find a true meaning in their lives… because they shared the most precious thing… their love for each other, and that was the strongest.
“Masaki… I… I love you. You can’t even imagine how much I love you” he took Masaki’s hand and placed it over his heart. “This little fellow here beats only for you”
Masaki just looked at him straightly at his eyes, nodding softly his head. Sho could only distinguish love in the other’s stare and a warm feeling covered his body. He took a deep breath. He was debating whether it was the right time or not… but deep inside he couldn’t wait any longer. He was not willing to let even a second let go… not after what had happened… not after seeing Masaki fall on the ground unconscious. “I know that this is perhaps not the right thing to do… but…”
Masaki looked at him a little confused. “What is it Sho?”
Sho cleared his throat. “Aiba Masaki, will you become my boyfriend?”
***
“Ouch! Heeeeyyyyy! What are you doing stupid?! Now I missed the most important part… Masaki’s replyyyyy” Nino couldn’t hide his annoyance as he was grabbed by his arm, forced to leave his spot behind Masaki’s door.
“Well I don’t think you were supposed to listen to any part of their private conversation Kazu. That’s called eavesdropping and it is punishable!”
Nino smirked. “And how do you intend to punish me?!” his tone was clearly playful.
Satoshi was in no mood for jokes. “Is everything ready? Did you get the confirmation?”
Nino lost his voice. No… he hadn’t done it… “As I thought…” Satoshi didn’t leave space for jokes. “When do you plan on doing it?!”
“Oh! Alright! Got it! I’ll have it done immediately!” Nino said a little annoyed as he was walking away. “You always have to ruin the mood… even when… but noooo it’s my fault….” Satoshi could hear his boyfriend murmuring things and sighed.
“You were the one who came up with the idea… not me…” Satoshi turned his head to the closed door of Masaki’s room. “I just hope there won’t be any objections… though I believe they will like to spend some time just the two of them away from everything and everyone…” he finished his line smiling. You both deserve it anyway…
TO BE CONTINUED
A.N. Everyone I updated! The heavy angst ended! Again sooooorryyyyy for that... >< It was Masaki the one who had a problem but now as you can see everyone is fine (with all the difficulties they have to face)... Jun is really sad but he has Toma, he's not alone! And I promise you everyone that should pay, he'll pay! Don't worry! ;) Sho finally realized what he was doing and how he would suffer afterwards... but Masaki is already there for him ne?! In this chapter there was also some playful (and I hope) cute Ohmiya!!! XD
I do hope it's lighter!!! *crosses fingers*
Another thing... did you see the difference?! There are 16 chapters... I reread the story and I didn't like it... it somehow felt too rushed in my eyes so I put some things here and there just to end up writing another chapter! XD
I would also like to ask you.... Are you interested in the side story of Jun? (I mean about his life after the time Kako no Sakura takes place, like an OS, because of course he will be mentionned in the epilogue)
AND HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE! I WISH YOU THE BEST FOR 2015, TO BE A YEAR FULL OF HEALTH, JOY, LOVE, SUCCESS, FUN AND CREATIVITY!
Hope you enjoyed my first post of 2015 and comments are always <333!
See you next week! ^_^
Author: Andy-chan (
antimiya88)Special thanks for all of her help and advice:
chrysiida_tori Love you!!! <3Pairings: Sakuraiba (main), Ohmiya, Junba (side), Aimiya (Friendship), Yama (Friendship)
Genre: AU, Angst, Drama, Romance, School
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Aiba Masaki's a high school student who seems to be the bullying obsession for his classmate Sakurai Sho... Is it just an obsession or there's something more behind this treatment? In what way has fate brought them together in the past?
Warning: In certain chapters, there will be violence, bullying and bad language. So if you are not ok with these things you could just pass...
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the boys
Chapter 1 / Chapter 2 / Chapter 3 / Chapter 4 / Chapter 5 / Chapter 6 / Chapter 7 / Chapter 8
Chapter 9 / Chapter 10 / Chapter 11 / Chapter 12 / Chapter 13
Chapter 9 / Chapter 10 / Chapter 11 / Chapter 12 / Chapter 13
CHAPTER 14
“Satoshi! Please call an ambulance!!! Hurry up!” Nino was holding Masaki in his arms.
Everything had happened so fast. Jun was holding a gun. Masaki ran to him and managed to make it point in the air so that anyone was hurt but then… he held his chest tightly. The pain he felt in his chest was sharp. He tried desperately to breathe but the air just wouldn’t come into his lungs. It was too much for him to handle. The next minute he had fainted.
“Kazu… I’ve already called one… They told me that it’s on its way…”
Nino turned his gaze to Masaki who still showed no traces of coming back to his senses. “What happened? Masaki… Do you listen to me? Masaki… wake up…” his voices was trembling.
Sho tried to come closer but his body felt too numb because of all the punches and the kicks and didn’t allow him to move. Masaki… no please… please… He couldn’t believe what had just happened. He had sensed that Masaki was not feeling so well but the image of an unconscious Masaki in front of his eyes was just unbearable. What happened Masaki?! Please… I need you…
Jun, on the other hand, was left there unable to move or say something. He was determined to finish his life; he found that he had no need to live. He didn’t wish to relive another torturous phase of it but then Masaki didn’t let him. He had seen the determination and the desperation in his eyes… and not only that, he was now lying there unconscious. Jun somehow felt guilty. He couldn’t expect this kind of reaction. But after that this… he closed his eyes not wanting to watch his former boyfriend in that state.
“Yokoyama take the gun and get out of here… there’s no need to make the situation even more complicated than it already is. We will talk about our next steps later” Satoshi’s voice was surprisingly calm.
“No need to worry about that Ohno-kun. I’m taking my leave now” Yokoyama left quickly.
Satoshi turned his head to Jun. “Matsumoto-kun… please I believe you should leave as well…”
Jun looked at him a bit confused. “Well I don’t think it would be the best to be included in this. As soon as we learn what’s wrong with Masaki we’ll let you know. I believe he has your number on his phone. You should go to Ikuta-san and wait for our call. Ok?” Satoshi’s voice was soft.
“Don’t you hate me for wanting to harm your friend even when he had also suffered in his life and for having lied to you?” Jun asked lowering his head.
“Matsumoto-kun… I’d never hate you. You had every right to have this kind of feelings after having passed all that. I don’t say I agree but I can understand… And you love Masaki… You have the right to learn how he is… but now leave please… you will get into trouble and we don’t want something like that… it will only be to our disadvantage. Call Ikuta-san… you know… he really cares for you…” Jun bit his lip and just nodded.
He knew deep inside that Satoshi was right. He had a different plan on his mind when he left his home that afternoon. He couldn’t believe how things could turn from one moment to the other. He felt like an idiot for being tricked like that by his own father. He also felt out of place. He had no right to stay there. He knew that. He turned his gaze to Masaki. Not anymore…
“Sakurai-san…” Sho looked at Jun who had tears in his eyes. “Please… take care of him…” Sho nodded. Jun had almost made a step forward when he suddenly stopped. “Can I kiss him one last time?” Jun’s voice was slightly trembling. He noticed the others’ surprised gaze. “… I mean… on his forehead… please…”
Sho could understand how Jun must be feeling at the moment. He was feeling the same way when he looked at Masaki with him and couldn’t deny it. Jun moved a bit forward and kissed Masaki’s forehead really softly. “You’re a strong young man Masaki. Get well quickly and live happily… Ok? Thank you for making me feel human again… even if it was for a little…” all the words were spoken as a whisper making everyone tense a bit.
***
Slowly he made his way out. He reached for his phone to call Toma. What he couldn’t expect was to hear live the calling sound of his friend’s phone. He looked up to meet Toma standing there, smiling.
“How…?”
“Ohno-kun sent me a message… C’mon… let’s go…” Jun just nodded and slowly made a few steps ahead, entering his friend’s car.
He smiled bitterly. “I’m all alone… once again…”
Toma caught his hand. “What do you mean you’re all alone?! And who am I over here?! Mr. No one?!” Jun looked at him in the eyes.
Toma just smile reassuringly. “Now stop speaking nonsense… Let’s go… I’m hungry!” the car accelerated leaving the old port behind.
Jun was looking outside the car’s window, at the scenery that was continuously changing. It seems like another chapter of my life has come to its end… It always has to come to an end… He looked at Toma next to him who was focused on the road. But then maybe it can be also a start...? he turned his gaze on his lap. Who knows…?!
……………………………..
“Are you in pain?” Sho shook his head negatively as the doctors examined him. He couldn’t care less about himself. All his attention was at the lying figure at the next bed.
He had only bruises and luckily no broken bones. He would be fine but Masaki’s case was totally different. He had seen different doctors come and go. They even had to procedure to CT. He was scared. Masaki remained still unresponsive and he needed oxygen to ease his breathing. After 20 minutes he heard loud voices, as a bunch of doctors stormed in the room.
“Get him prepared quickly. The operation room is ready. It’s PSP” Sho saw nurses rush inside. After what it seemed to him only a few seconds, Masaki was already being transferred to the operation room. He was left there, unable to do anything. What was that supposed to mean? What was wrong with Masaki? Why did he need to go under surgery? His brain felt ready to explode when he heard the gentle voice of a nurse who had come to add a pain killer to his serum.
“Don’t look so sad Sakurai-kun. Your friend will be fine. He experienced a crisis of PSP. It’s not that uncommon to young boys. He will be fine…” Sho turned his head to the nurse who was smiling gently at him.
“What is PSP? I can’t understand a thing…” Sho said in a manner that showed the nervousness that was clearly building up inside him.
“PSP stands for Primary Spontaneous Pneumothorax” it was the doctor’s voice who had just entered Sho’s room. “It happens when there’s air gathered in the cavity between the lung and the chest wall, causing collapse of the lung…” Sho looked at him terrified. The doctor came closer. “It’s quite common for teenage boys who are slim and tall like Masaki. It may have been triggered because of a sudden high level of stress but after surgery the patient will be fine. It’s not as severe as it may sounds if everything’s done the time and the way it should. But now tell me… why were you there if you care so much about him…? Your friends outside told me that you had just some kind of bet… about who is the strongest… Am I supposed to believe something like that?”
Sho didn’t know what to say… Satoshi had saved him once again. “Well… it’s stupid but yes… we… had this bet about who will be able to lift the heaviest crates that remained abandoned… there… after a… quarrel at school… he accused me of having no real strength… stupid really…”
The doctor looked at him closely. “And how do you explain your bruises all over your stomach and face Sakurai-kun?”
Sho said the only thing that could pop in his head at that moment. “There was some kind of gang which had followed us… they wanted to steal our money and because I… I defended Masaki they hit me… that’s why he got stressed I guess…” he bit his tongue. He just wished the doctor would stop the questions. “But sensei… Tell me when will the operation be over?”
The doctor sighed. He knew there was no way the young boy would tell him the truth, so there was no point to pressure him while he was in that condition. “It requires usually two hours but don’t worry Okada-sensei is one of the best surgeons, specialized in cases like your friend’s. Ninomiya-kun also volunteered to give blood in case of need. So everything will be fine” his voice was gentle. “Now tell me… do you have a headache or at least some kind of nausea?”
Sho shook his head negatively. “No sensei… I’m fine. I feel better now…”
The doctor examined his reflexives and his heart rate. After having written down his notes, he headed to the door. “You were lucky you didn’t get hurt on the head. Other times don’t put… stupid bets… and go to places like that. You may be young and don’t exactly realize it but you live only once… Your lives are too precious to put it at any kind of risk…”
***
The door closed and Sho turned his gaze at the window. It was already dark. He didn’t know how much time had passed simply by counting the red lights of the cars that were passing by the avenue in front of the hospital. He had counted tens? Hundreds? And still no news from the doctors about Masaki… He didn’t even know where Satoshi was. His heart was pounding like crazy.
He felt so stupid. He had sacrificed so many years to hate… to take revenge. That day hadn’t been according to his plans. He wanted to be alone with Masaki... to tell him everything… at least everything that he knew… to make him suffer… and then get rid of Matsumoto… His eyes bulged. Where had it been? How come the doctors didn’t ask him about the drug he had hidden in his trousers? Or maybe there wasn’t any?
He sighed…
“Finally you realize that you were just stupid?”
Sho turned around to see Satoshi standing next to the door. He looked down as Satoshi advanced closer to him and took a seat next to his bed. “You know I thought that were more mature than four years ago… but I guess I was wrong… What was your plan? Huh?! Tell Masaki everything and then take that drug and kill yourself?!” Sho didn’t dare to look at him.
“What were you thinking?! You couldn’t accept the fact that you had ended up loving the one you were supposed to hate because of stubbornness?! I didn’t want to agree with Matsumoto but he was right in one point. You always think about yourself. By taking that drug you would be free, though Masaki, me, your father would be forever be trapped in that choice of yours... Did you ever consider that?!” Satoshi’s voice almost cracked. “Did you ever consider what it would feel to be left in this world like that?! I guess not… I thought that you wanted to save your father… how were you able to do that if you were no longer here?! Tell me!” Sho looked at him with teary eyes. “What?! Am I saying something wrong here?!”
“I was not planning on ki- killing myself Satoshi… I…”
“Then why did you have that drug with you?! As an accessorizing item?!”
“No… I… thought that Masaki would come along with Ma- Matsumoto… I didn’t believe he would let him come on his own… So I intended to put it secretly on him and then… call… the police…”
Satoshi couldn’t believe his ears. “What the hell were you thinking Sho?! You wanted to target him so that he would end up in jail?!”
“I… I just couldn’t bear the thought of him being with Masaki… If I wouldn’t have him then no one would… I know… that’s stupid… ok?! I have regretted it…” Sho wiped the tears that were coming down his cheeks. “I feel so… dirty Satoshi…”
Satoshi sighed. He knew how messed up his friend was. “But why don’t you ever speak?! You have to speak… not remain silent…” He grabbed Sho’s hand and squeezed it softly. “Sho… You can’t blame yourself… you have passed through so much…”
Sho smiled bitterly “So has Masaki but I didn’t see him turn like this… maybe I was also jealous of that… you know… how he could be like that when I had turned into a crazy monster…”
Satoshi grabbed Sho’s chin, making him look at him. “Sho… don’t call yourself like that… please… Masaki might have passed through a lot… but… he… despite the difficulties… he was surrounded by love… he got raised in a different environment while you… had to live with that bastard… who always played games with your mind… You just need help…”
Sho bit his lower lip. He knew he needed professional help. There were way too many things buried up in his soul that didn’t even know how to handle.
“But all that will be over Sho… I already spoke with our family’s lawyer… Your father will get out… All this evidence that has been gathered is more than enough. Besides Matsumoto’s being found. He was on holiday in Miami. He’s already arrested and brought back to Japan. There will be a trial and your father will be released from prison. I promise!”
Sho gasped at the hearing of that. “You mean…”
Satoshi smiled reassuringly. “Yes Sho. You will be free from Sakurai Shun. You will be able to live your life the way you want it. You will have your friends… the one you love by your side… you will never be alone again!”
Sho was at the verge of crying… but this time because of happiness. He was afraid though. Am I allowed to be happy? It sounded too good to be true.
Satoshi sensed his friend’s hesitation. “Have I ever lied to you?!” his voice was warm.
Sho looked back at him. Satoshi had never lied to him. It was true. He fell in his friend’s arms letting all his emotions free. He cried; he cried out of happiness; out of relief. For the first time in his life, Sho felt secure. “I’m so- sorry for having doubted you… for- forgive me for being so stub- stubborn… forgive me Satoshi…” Satoshi said nothing and just rubbed Sho’s back in attempt to calm him down.
“It’s over Sho… it’s over…” he whispered.
Suddenly Sho clenched his grips on Satoshi’s hands. “How is he?! Have you learned anything?”
Satoshi smiled. “The surgery finished. That’s what I came to tell you… It was successful. He must have already been transferred to ICU.” Sho looked at him a bit scared. “Don’t worry… It’s for the first 12 hours just in case… just a routine thing…”
“But he’s alright now… isn’t he Satoshi?” Satoshi nodded and Sho buried his head at the other’s crook of the neck when they heard the door open.
“Firstly, I thought you’d never ask that…” Sho turned his head to the door to see Nino standing next to the open door watching them with his arms crossed in front of his chest and his eyes narrowed. “And secondly, take your hands off of my boyfriend!”
Sho didn’t really know what to say to this so he just leaned back to his bed.
Satoshi lowered his head. “Kazu you really have to behave like that right now?!”
Nino pouted. “Well… I didn’t know that there was a moment that it’s ok for my boyfriend to hold tight someone else but me… Thanks for your information!”
Satoshi just shook his head. “Obviously there’s such a moment… and stop whining like a baby… please…”
Nino looked at his boyfriend with open mouth. “Now I’m a baby?! Sorry for not liking the idea of seeing you two this close…” his brows puckered in a frown. He was standing at his spot, showing no intention of coming closer.
Before Satoshi could say anything in reply they heard Sho’s muffled laugh. “Now I can understand what you found in him Satoshi…” he then turned to Nino “I’m sorry for holding your boyfriend like that… Ninomiya-kun”
Nino’s face was covered by a faint blush as Satoshi took him by the hand and made him sit next to him. “You’re amazing how you turn a serious atmosphere into a silly one!” Satoshi’s voice was a little harsh and made Nino look down.
“I’m… I’m so-”
“Don’t be!” It was Sho the one who spoke. “I’m actually glad that it turned like that… I mean… I was always in a heavy atmosphere… and I’m… kind of tired of it…”
Nino looked at him and smiled. “Then I’m not sorry!” Satoshi turned his head to Nino just to see his boyfriend wink. He sighed.
“And you should laugh more often Sakurai!” Nino immediately bit his lower lip. “I- I mean Sakurai-kun…”
Sho looked down at his lap. “I guess you have all the rights to call me however you want… I’ve done more than enough to deserve it…” his voice was low. “I’m sorry…”
“As long as it belongs to the past there’s nothing more to say… but…I have to warn you… IF… you ever, in any way make my friend sad I swear to God you will pay… and then not even your pretty little gang will be able to save you! Got it?!” his tone was serious, leaving no space for jokes.
“I only intend to make him happy… I will try my best to make him happy… I might do mistakes… I can’t deny that… but… you can be sure… that I love him… more… more than anything…” Sho said looking straight at Nino’s eyes.
“Happy to hear that!”
“Nino will you stop pretend the protector here?! You behave as if Masaki was a defenseless little girl and you were her older brother… I believe he is way stronger than you present him to be!”
“I know that stupid but there was no harm to threaten a bit…” Nino said in a low voice with clenched teeth.
Sho looked at the couple amused. His eyes fell in their intertwined fingers. You’re so lucky to have each other…
………………………………………….
It had passed four days. Sho could still feel his body numb and the pain was there too, but he was finally allowed to get up. He would only accept Satoshi and Nino. His mother had come once but he had refused to see her.
He put on a robe and slowly walked outside the room. He wanted to see him. He wanted to speak to him. It was true that they had never had the chance to speak properly. It would always be me being bossy around him… no being a total asshole around him. Sho sighed. There were so many things he wanted to share… so many things he wanted to ask… so many things he wanted to be forgiven for… so many things to forget…
His pace was slow, somewhat reluctant. He had thought about everything again and again… but he couldn’t bring himself to face him. He couldn’t know how the other would react and he was scared… As his hand touched the doorknob, he felt his heart ready to explode. He opened it slowly just to meet a peacefully sleeping Masaki. Immediately a soft smile appeared on Sho’s face. He looks like an angel. His guilt was threatening to come up to surface once again, but he tried to calm himself, as he had promised to Satoshi.
He moved closer to the bed and sat on the chair next to it. There were a few tufts of hair, fallen over his face, going up and down as he was breathing. Sho moved them aside and softly kissed his forehead. He loved him so much. Now he could scream it to the whole world. He loved him. But all he did was to try to suppress those feelings, be in a restless denial that was just eating him up. He couldn’t even dare to think that he might have lost him. Those thoughts made him reconsider once again how wrong he was with all that hatred and all that stupid revenge.
He sat back on the chair and took Masaki’s hand into his. “Please get well Masaki… you have to get well fast… I want to see you smile again… I love your smile… If only you knew how much… But all I ever did was to hurt you… I wonder if you will ever forgive me…” Sho felt some tears threatening to come to his eyes’ surface.
“I have nothing to forgive…Sho…” Sho’s eyes widened at the hearing of the slightly changed now voice as he lifted his head up surprised.
“What?! My voice has become this different?!” Sho shook hurriedly his head. Tears of joy were coming down his face as he fell on top of Masaki embracing him tightly.
“Sho… you have to get off me… you’re too heavy and I still have stitches…” Masaki whispered with difficulty and Sho immediately pulled himself off the lying figure, recognizing his mistake.
“Oh my God! Are you alright? Do you hurt anywhere? Do you want me to call for the doctors?” his face betrayed his anxiousness.
Masaki just put his hand on top of Sho’s and squeezed it softly. “I’m fine… Calm down…” he was smiling. Sho’s gaze remained locked in this smile. It looked like sunshine… so gentle, so warm. He was left speechless as Masaki’s thumb came to wipe his tears. “What now?” his voice was huskier than before. It was because of the surgery but to Sho was the most beautiful he had ever heard.
Sho smiled warmly and caressed Masaki’s cheek softly. “It’s just that you are so beautiful…”Masaki couldn’t hide his blush as he lowered his eyes from Sho to his lap.
“What happened to you? I didn’t know you were able to talk like th- that…” he said clearly embarrassed.
“I guess I never let myself… be my- myself…” Sho bit his lower lip.
Masaki laughed bitterly. “Well… I guess no one had the chance… Do you know where is…” Masaki stopped before he finished but he knew he already made a mistake.
“… Matsumoto Jun?” Sho’s voice was low. “I… I haven’t seen him since th- that evening… He left. A friend of his was waiting for him I guess. But he… he was informed about your condition… Satoshi did… but… I guess he didn’t want to… come here… perhaps he’s afraid… or he simply… wants to forget…”
Masaki just nodded. He was aware that he might never see Jun again and maybe that was for the best, although a part of him wished he would.
“You want to… see him…?” Sho asked rather reluctantly.
“Yes…” replied Masaki in a respectively low voice, his gaze remained focused on his lap.
Sho turned his own gaze to the floor. So he misses him?! Perhaps he rethought about it? He was lost in his thoughts when he heard Masaki.
“I think I owe him an explanation… he deserves it… after all he treated me so well and all I did… was to… play with him…” his voice was trembling as he spoke the last words. “I just wanted to forget… you…” he whispered and closed his eyes when he felt arms wrapping around him, loosely this time.
“Stop troubling yourself… Matsumoto… he never had anything against you… I must be the one at fault here… I couldn’t be clear with my own feelings…” he kissed softly the top of Masaki’s head. “Maybe in a way we all are and in the same time aren’t at fault for everything… I don’t know what to think anymore… but you especially never did something having secondary aims. Stop troubling yourself… Please…”
“But… I…”Sho hushed Masaki putting his palm over his lips.
“Will you stop it? Initially, I wanted to tell you everything… make you suffer… make you feel guilty. I wasn’t planning on hurting you physically… I just couldn’t bear it… only mentally. I wanted to let you know what it meant to live like that. Funny how I intended to use the same methods my beloved new father used on me…” Sho paused for a few seconds trying to calm himself down and don’t break at that very moment.
“Of course I wasn’t aware of Matsumoto. When he came I thought you were somewhere as well but it turned out he was alone. I felt so stupid… Matsumoto’s words were right. I was concentrated on myself. I never thought how you must have felt… forced to live with your mother in that condition because of the same accident. I never thought that you might already feel guilty about it… having all those nightmares…
I just wanted to make you suffer. And the fact that you were able to smile at school was only making me feel even worse. Though, what I didn’t know was that it was this smile that made me feel warm inside. Even if I didn’t want to admit it I secretly wished to see it every day. I would watch you from afar. You were always so kind and I couldn’t help but feel jealous; jealous that you were such a person when I… I had turned into a monstrous one.
I couldn’t bear seeing you with Matsumoto either. I just wanted you to be there for me even if I could never have you… Tell me if that isn’t the definition of egoism then what is it?! And then you said that you… me… I thought that I would feel better after having made you pay. But I couldn’t be more wrong. I just couldn’t bear to see your face expressionless, empty… I missed your smile. I thought that making you suffer would give me the satisfaction of justice… so that I could finally move on… but when I saw you losing your senses in that cursed warehouse I just wished to die. There’s no way I would feel relieved or vindicated. I realized that making you suffer it would make me feel worse… that the guilt would never make me let it go… that I would be trapped forever… it seemed like an endless maze… I couldn’t have failed more in my life… I was just stupid…
I want to ask for your forgiveness… But I don’t even know if I have the right to ask for it… I will understand it if you don’t want to forgive me… I mean I don’t think I will ever forgive myse-”
Sho didn’t have the chance to finish his phrase. Masaki’s lips locked on his, leaving him no chance to speak.
“There’s nothing to forgive Sho… I can’t deny that at first I was scared and I wished that I had never crossed you in my life… I just couldn’t understand why you were behaving the way you did towards me… After a while I just thought that it was just a way to kill your boredom…” Masaki bit his lower lip guiltily, lowering his head.
“Because you had everything in your life… that’s what I thought… little did I know…” Masaki’s voice started trembling as he remembered Satoshi’s words. “So… I thought why don’t you have some fun at school?! I couldn’t have guessed how much you had suffered in your life… But then you… k- kissed me… and it- it felt right… gradually I started looking at you… I mean really looking at you and I could see your sorrow… the emptiness of your gaze… I just knew that there was more behind… I couldn’t come to hate you not even when you did that to Jun… I just couldn’t… I had… I had already fallen for you… and I don’t think that you need a reason to love someone… Both of us were somehow lost in the maze of the suffocating past… But I… I’ve said it before… I love you and I want to be free… I want us to be free Sho… Let’s try to get free together… I need you by my side… I need to know that you stand next to me… that you will catch me any time I fall… because I believe I will fall many times before being able to forget…” Masaki’s voice was becoming lower and lower as he finished his lines…
Sho took him in his arms, rubbing his back and having his lips on Masaki’s forehead. It was the first time they had spoken; really spoken. Their mouths might have not said much but their eyes had said everything. He knew well that both had their marks and that there would be difficulties but together they could help each other. Together they could move on. Together they could perhaps find a true meaning in their lives… because they shared the most precious thing… their love for each other, and that was the strongest.
“Masaki… I… I love you. You can’t even imagine how much I love you” he took Masaki’s hand and placed it over his heart. “This little fellow here beats only for you”
Masaki just looked at him straightly at his eyes, nodding softly his head. Sho could only distinguish love in the other’s stare and a warm feeling covered his body. He took a deep breath. He was debating whether it was the right time or not… but deep inside he couldn’t wait any longer. He was not willing to let even a second let go… not after what had happened… not after seeing Masaki fall on the ground unconscious. “I know that this is perhaps not the right thing to do… but…”
Masaki looked at him a little confused. “What is it Sho?”
Sho cleared his throat. “Aiba Masaki, will you become my boyfriend?”
***
“Ouch! Heeeeyyyyy! What are you doing stupid?! Now I missed the most important part… Masaki’s replyyyyy” Nino couldn’t hide his annoyance as he was grabbed by his arm, forced to leave his spot behind Masaki’s door.
“Well I don’t think you were supposed to listen to any part of their private conversation Kazu. That’s called eavesdropping and it is punishable!”
Nino smirked. “And how do you intend to punish me?!” his tone was clearly playful.
Satoshi was in no mood for jokes. “Is everything ready? Did you get the confirmation?”
Nino lost his voice. No… he hadn’t done it… “As I thought…” Satoshi didn’t leave space for jokes. “When do you plan on doing it?!”
“Oh! Alright! Got it! I’ll have it done immediately!” Nino said a little annoyed as he was walking away. “You always have to ruin the mood… even when… but noooo it’s my fault….” Satoshi could hear his boyfriend murmuring things and sighed.
“You were the one who came up with the idea… not me…” Satoshi turned his head to the closed door of Masaki’s room. “I just hope there won’t be any objections… though I believe they will like to spend some time just the two of them away from everything and everyone…” he finished his line smiling. You both deserve it anyway…
TO BE CONTINUED
A.N. Everyone I updated! The heavy angst ended! Again sooooorryyyyy for that... >< It was Masaki the one who had a problem but now as you can see everyone is fine (with all the difficulties they have to face)... Jun is really sad but he has Toma, he's not alone! And I promise you everyone that should pay, he'll pay! Don't worry! ;) Sho finally realized what he was doing and how he would suffer afterwards... but Masaki is already there for him ne?! In this chapter there was also some playful (and I hope) cute Ohmiya!!! XD
I do hope it's lighter!!! *crosses fingers*
Another thing... did you see the difference?! There are 16 chapters... I reread the story and I didn't like it... it somehow felt too rushed in my eyes so I put some things here and there just to end up writing another chapter! XD
I would also like to ask you.... Are you interested in the side story of Jun? (I mean about his life after the time Kako no Sakura takes place, like an OS, because of course he will be mentionned in the epilogue)
AND HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE! I WISH YOU THE BEST FOR 2015, TO BE A YEAR FULL OF HEALTH, JOY, LOVE, SUCCESS, FUN AND CREATIVITY!
Hope you enjoyed my first post of 2015 and comments are always <333!
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