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Title: A Broken Promise
Author: Andy-chan (![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
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antimiya88)Special thanks for all her support to my dear chrysiida_tori <3
chrysiida_tori <3Pairings: Sakuraiba (main), Sakumoto, Matsumiya (side), Junba (brothers), Yama (friendship)
Genre: AU, Drama, Angst, Romance
Rating: R - NC-17
Summary: "I promise you to always be by your side… I promise to never hurt you… I promise to never let you down…" This was the promise Sho had made to Masaki. Seven years have passed since then and Sho knows positively that he still loves his partner more than his life. But sometimes life has unexpected surprises. Will he be able to keep his promise or not?
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the boys unfortunately
CHAPTER 2
Masaki was left dumbfounded as he felt his younger brother’s arms wrapping around him. “Jun… What are you doing here? What happened?”
Jun showed no sign of stopping his sobs, neither speaking.
Sho looked at his watch. It was already midnight. “Masaki… wouldn’t be a wiser idea if we went all inside? It’s already late”
The young man looked at him, his eyes still full of tears. He didn’t say a word but Sho felt as if he was under a scanning machine, giving him some cold chills.
Masaki shook a bit Jun’s shoulder. “Sho-chan is right… C’mon… let’s get inside!”
Sho took off his keys and opened the door, having a bad feeling for this. He knew that Masaki had a younger brother who – even though Masaki kept refusing it – a living source of problems. Why was he there?
Masaki entered with his younger brother who only had nothing but a small rucksack.
He threw it at a corner and headed to the living room where he sat on the sofa.
Soon Masaki followed him with Sho. “Jun… you remember Sho right?”
Jun just nodded throwing him just a quick glare.
Sho didn’t like this attitude. He could tell something big had happened but he just didn’t like the whole thing. He could tell that unlike Masaki this young man was rude. He had invaded without any warning, so late and refused even to speak as he should.
Still he tried to suppress the anger because of Masaki. Sho knew that his husband would get upset and that was the last thing he wanted. He took a deep breath and smiled as wide as possible to Jun. “It’s nice to see you again Jun-kun. It’s been some years… you’ve turned into a grown man now!”
Masaki smiled at him and he nodded back.
Jun, on the other hand, raised an eyebrow and muffled a mocking laugh. “Masa-nii you really got yourself a clever husband!” he then turned his gaze on Sho. “Of course I would turn into a grown up man! I’m already 20 years old! But I have to say that you also have changed… as a matter of fact I couldn’t recognize you either… Do all men in their thirties have such a dewlap?!” irony was more than evident in Jun’s tone making Sho clench his hand into a fist.
“What can we do… no one can avoid that! You will get there yourself don’t worry!” was Sho’s reply before going to the kitchen to make some tea. He knew perfectly that if he stayed one minute more in front of this young man he would say something he might regretted later. It was enough that his nerves were already a mess; such an attitude would just add gas to fuel. What he hated the most was rudeness… rudeness and arrogance… and for his luck, Masaki’s younger brother had both.
Jun’s eyes followed the figure as it was moving towards the kitchen before turning them back to Masaki.
“I’m sorry… I guess I’m tired… I was travelling all day and I’m practically a mess…” he could tell that Masaki relaxed a bit at the hearing of that.
“What happened Jun? I thought you were in Chiba. Mum didn’t inform me about you coming to Tokyo…”
“It was not planned… I…” Jun bit his lower lip.
“What?” Masaki placed his hands on top of his brother’s.
Jun tried to say something but that moment Sho was coming back, caring a tray.
“Here’s some tea. Masaki I’ll be in the bedroom. I’ll be waiting for you…” he turned his gaze on Jun. “Jun-kun, you could sleep at the guest room; second door at your left. There’s everything you need. Good night”
Jun simply nodded and waited till he heard the door close.
“I ran away… Masa-nii” he muttered.
Masaki’s eyes bulged. “What?! Why?! Did something happen?”
Jun looked at the floor avoiding his brother’s gaze. “I had… an argument with dad…”
Masaki went a little closer to Jun, taking his hands into his. “Jun… you can tell me what happened. I will do whatever I can to help you but I can’t do that unless you tell me why you fought with dad…” Masaki’s voice was gentle and warm. Jun knew that he had taken the right decision to come to him.
“You remember how I always participated to the acting festivals since I was a middle high school student…” Masaki nodded. “Well… there was this manager who was visiting a relative in Chiba and told me that I had talent and that I should pursuit it… So, I talked about it with dad but he started shouting that the entertainment is no serious job and that you have to become a slut in order to succeed and that this person was only lying to me so that he could earn money and that I should look for a real job rather than dream about ridiculous things…” his voice was trembling.
“But Masa-nii... it’s my dream… and then I told him how you had left to make your dream come true and how he had supported you and all he said to me was that your dream was a serious one while mine is a joke… I tried to talk to him many times until he forbade me to repeat the matter… The next thing was to grab some things and take the first train to Tokyo… Please Masa-nii help me… I don’t know where else I could turn to right now… Please…” Jun’s body jerked as sobs took over him, not calming down until his brother’s arms wrapped around him and rubbed softly his back.
“Jun… don’t worry. You can stay here and I can talk to dad…”
Jun gasped at the hearing of that. “Masa-nii… promise me you won’t say to anyone I’m here… please! You have to promise me! Please!” his breathing rhythm quickened, showing his anxiety; anxiety not to get discovered.
“Fine…” Masaki said with difficulty. He found Jun’s reaction a bit exaggerated but said nothing. Now what muttered was to help him. The details could be learnt afterwards. “We will make it work. Ok?” Masaki made Jun look at him. “But now you should rest… Go and sleep and tomorrow there’s a new day! I promise everything will be fine! Your brother is here!”
Jun embraced his brother tightly. “Thank you Masa-nii! I knew you would help me! Thank you!” Masaki smiled to him.
“Good night Jun”
“Good night Masa-nii!” Jun replied smiling, before standing up to head towards the guest room.
What could have happened Jun?! It’s too weird for dad to have denied it to you like that…
…………………………………..
“Masaki… Are you sure about that?” Sho wasn’t so fond of the idea of having Jun accommodated in their apartment for as long as he liked. He avoided his husband’s stare as they were sitting side by side on the sofa. It was early in the morning and Sho didn’t have any sleep after hearing what was going on with Jun and what Masaki was asking him to do.
“Sho-chan… I know it might be a little troublesome but he’s my younger brother… You keep telling me that it was because you found your dream you can continue on working despite the difficulties… Don’t you think it should be the same for Jun? I know for sure that he will succeed in what he’s doing. He has determination and I don’t believe his behavior is some kind of revolution against dad… It… it seems serious. He can live with us at least until he settles down in Tokyo and find a part-time job. Please… You can’t expect me to believe that Sho-chan is such a cruel man that will leave my brother with no help when he needs it…”
Sho sighed and embraced his husband. “Of course not… Jun-kun can stay here until he finds himself ready to live on his own…”
Masaki looked at his husband and curled up on him. “Thank you so much Sho-chan!”
Sho kissed the top of his head while his right hand was caressing his nape. “There’s nothing I wouldn’t do for you my love” his voice was so affectionate that made Masaki smile and lean even closer to Sho.
“I know Sho-chan… There’s nothing I wouldn’t do for you either…” Sho held his chin and made the other look at him. His thumb brushed Masaki’s lips and the next minute they locked their mouths into a deep, love sharing kiss.
***
Jun fell on his bed looking at the white ceiling above him. He was jealous. He couldn’t help but feel jealous. Masaki would always be the one to receive understanding, fondness, love, admiration. He, on the other hand, would always be the one to receive critic, objections, disapproval.
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“Jun… when will you stop behaving like that?! Don’t you look at your brother? He has never made us a laughing stock!”
“But dad I don’t remember having done something you should feel ashamed of…” Jun’s voice was desperate.
“You know what I’m talking about Jun. I believe you’re clever so stop pretend the dumb one!” his father’s tone was almost scary.
“But father Masa-nii… he’s even married to this Sho and you never objected! You even gave your blessings and now you accuse me of being gay? I thought I was your son!”
A hard slap landed on Jun’s cheek. “Because he’s not a Matsumoto by blood it doesn’t mean that he’s not my son! He’s your half brother and you should never speak of this ever again! And I don’t remember Masaki go around the neighborhood making out as if he was a whore like you with this Toma guy! You won’t see him again!”
“But… dad…”
“Do you know what it is to have to listen to all those comments? And don’t make a mistake here. I would never judge you for your choice. It’s your choice and you can do whatever you like as long as you don’t make Matsumoto family ridiculous in the eyes of the others. This is a small town Jun you know well how things work… not all people are open-minded. I also have to remind you that when Masaki revealed his preferences… he was afraid of what he was feeling but I explained it to him and never did something too outstanding. Even when he got married he was behaving like a gentleman here. He never provoked anyone. He didn’t even hold hands with Sho outside the house. He was very discreet. And don’t forget something else. He was an excellent student who had taken scholarship to study in Tokyo. What do you have? Nothing!
Besides I want to remind you my little son that he was always there to offer his help to everyone that needed it, from the little children to the elderly while you don’t even say good morning! So stop playing the victim. You’re only rude and do things selfishly. You prefer dark clubs where you can sleep with whoever catches your attention. So I suggest you look up to your brother more and change your attitude”
Jun looked at his father with teary eyes. “I guess everything I do is a mistake then…”
“Be more like Masaki! Why can’t you be like him?” his father’s words were piercing his heart like a knife. “You always hurt me Jun… you always do…” he left leaving Jun alone in the living room.
Jun felt as if he was glued on the ground. He couldn’t move… ‘Be more like Masaki…’ his father’s words kept replaying in his mind. “It’s always him… It’s always Masaki… Like he’s the angel and I’m the devil!” he mumbled as he grabbed a book that was left on the small table and threw towards the photo of him and Masaki, taken at his fifth birthday, smashing the frame into tens of small pieces.
He felt his knees weak and left himself fall on the floor, crying. He was always the bad one… he was always at fault… he was always the unwanted one…
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“Even when you’re half you get so much love… Why? Why damn it… why?” Jun felt a tear rolling down his cheek.
He had woken up early this morning and the first thing to have witnessed was the cuddling moment of the pair on the sofa. He couldn’t help but feel his heart clench at the sight. He was never the recipient of love…
He knew well that his brother was damaged from his waist and downwards. It was more than two years since he had turned this way. But yet… this Sho hadn’t left him. Instead he was showing him so much love. He could tell by the way he was looking at Masaki that he was deeply in love with him.
“Life is so unfair…” Jun muttered when he heard a soft knock on the door.
“Come in…” Jun sat up on his bed trying to look as calm as possible.
“You should hurry and come to the…” it was Sho. His gaze froze. It wasn’t for more than a few seconds but Jun caught it immediately. He was staring at his naked torso. “…kitchen. Masaki and I’ve been waiting for you”
The door closed immediately. Jun left his bed and entered the bathroom. He looked at his idol on the mirror. He was wearing nothing but the trousers of his pajamas. A smirk formed on his lips. “My dearest brother in law… I guess you liked what you saw…” he poured some water on his face before going back to his room to get dressed. “My stay here might be even more interesting than I thought… My sweet Masa-nii… I guess you can’t do much for your poor husband…”
***
As he went to the kitchen he found the couple already sat on the table.
“Good morning Jun!” Masaki welcomed him with a wide smile.
“Good morning Masa-nii!” Jun went closer and kissed his brother before turn his gaze to the other one. “And hmmm Sho-san I want to say that I’m sorry about yesterday… I was tired and still kind of lost. I really appreciate what you do to help me!” Jun gave his hand and Sho reluctantly returned the handshake avoiding the other’s intense gaze on him.
“I’m glad to hear that Jun-kun. And please don’t mistake the situation here… I only agreed because it was Masaki the one who asked me to…” Sho took his husband’s hand in his. “There’s nothing I wouldn’t do for him… so you have to thank him and not me! Aren’t I right my love?” Sho leaned and pecked Masaki’s lips.
Masaki blushed at the move. “Sho-chan…”
Jun said nothing and went to his seat. He wanted to puke with so much display of affection but he managed to control his facial expression. “I guess you love Masa-nii that much”
Sho looked at him intensely without leaving his husband’s hand. “More than my own life!”
Masaki was left looking at both of them and sensing the tension he tried to change the subject. “Jun you should eat. I can tell that you haven’t eaten properly recently… you’ve become way too skinny! You should gain some weight!”
Jun just nodded and began eating without muttering another thing. He was pissed. He could tell that Sho really did stare at his exposed torso before, he wasn’t some kind of stupid, but then he had this defensive attitude towards him. He looked at him. Poor thing… he must have become desperate but still insists on being with Masa-nii… And now that I look at him closer he’s not that ugly… I could say he’s quite the opposite… He smirked as he kept eating his breakfast. Since I’m the guest I guess I have to somehow show my appreciation for the hospitality…
“Love I have to be going now…” Sho said as he finished his coffee fast.
“Sho-chan don’t forget that today we will visit Oh-chan and Akiko-san! You should buy a beautiful bouquet of flowers and a really big teddy bear!”
Sho nodded and caressed his husband’s cheek.
“I take my leave…”
Jun jumped up immediately. He had no time. The sooner the better. Besides he loved games and this game, he had just thought of, should already start. Oh… I can’t wait to see your face my beloved brother… “Uhm… Masa-nii I want to go to the agency… I have to talk with that manager… do you know how much does a taxi costs? I’m kind of afraid to go with the transport... you know Tokyo is too big!”
Sho muffled a mocking laugh. “And what are you… ten? There’s internet you can check it out online and find how you can go there…” he was ready to open the door when Masaki’s voice reached him.
“Sho-chan why don’t you take him with your car? I’m sure it won’t be a problem!” Masaki was looking at Sho with his big rounded eyes.
“Masaki…”
“Please Sho-chan just this one time!” he moved his wheelchair closer to his husband. “For me…”
Sho sighed and lowered himself brushing Masaki’s soft hair with his fingers. “For you…” Masaki nodded smiling.
Sho turned to look at Jun. “And you… hurry up and get your coat. I have to go to work afterwards!”
As Jun walked towards his room he could hear his brother’s voice. “Love you Sho-chan”
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“You… fasten your seatbelt!” Sho said as he started the car engine.
“Yes sir!” was Jun’s reply that caused a hiss from Sho’s side.
The drive was irritatingly silent till the point that Jun decided to break it.
“I really admire you!”
Sho looked at him a little confused. “What do you mean by that?!”
Jun had his gaze focused in front of him, avoiding any eye contact with the other next to him. “You know that you are with Masa-nii…”
“And why do you admire me? I am together with the person that I love… There’s nothing admirable in that… it’s nothing but natural…”
“Oh no… there is… when the other is half putrid…” at the hearing of this Sho clenched his hands so hard on the steering wheel that his joints turned white. He accelerated the car and drove it to a side road where he stopped.
He took a deep breath before turning to Jun to give him a harsh slap. “I had realized that you were an asshole from the moment I saw you yesterday but to talk about Masaki like that is just unforgivable! He’s your brother! Aren’t you ashamed of yourself?”
Jun laughed bitterly and looked straight into the other’s eyes. “I have heard that phrase so many times in my life that I have immunity against it! And why did it bother you so much? It’s the truth. He’s half… I suppose he can’t bring himself to do his conjugal duties… right? Otherwise you wouldn’t look at me like a hungry dog earlier this morning when you came to my room. I’m not stupid, nor blind... Sho-san!”
Sho was feeling his anger build inside him like a bomb ready to explode.
“I really can’t bring myself to believe that you’re Masaki’s younger brother…”
Jun burst into laughs. “Don’t worry! You’re not the only one!”
Sho said nothing in return. He just drove to the address Jun wanted to go. He wouldn’t give him the chance to speak ill of Masaki in front of him ever again.
“Here you are. Get out of my car and don’t even think that I will give you a ride back home…” his voice was cold.
Jun smiled. “I’m sorry if my words hurt you before. I’m not used to speak like Masa-nii, you know to use beautiful words and deeper meanings, I’m bold. But just for my defense I never accused you… You know I really admire the fact that you have sacrificed your own life for Masa-nii’s sake. I can tell that you’re restraining yourself. You must have rejected many… I mean… you really are extremely handsome or should I better say sexy?! Even with the dewlap! Masa-nii is lucky!”
Sho didn’t say anything. Jun unfastened his seatbelt. “Thank you for bringing me here. I wish you won’t remain upset with me Sho-san…” Sho didn’t miss the fact that Jun’s hand was resting on his knee for as long as he was saying those things.
He jerked it away and spoke in a cold tone. “Get out of my car now!”
Jun leaned closer and whispered in his ear. “As you wish… Sho-san” and leaved the car immediately.
Sho let his forehead touch the wheeling steer. God why are you doing this? Why does he have to be such a jerk? If you think you can destroy me you’re wrong! I will destroy you first!
…………………………………………..
“Thanks mum! I will inform you if something catches my attention… don’t worry!” Masaki ended the call and sighed. He could tell that something was wrong with Jun but having lied to him was too much. Perhaps he’s afraid… I should let him open voluntarily. He will do it as soon as he’s ready.
“My love?” Masaki smiled and turned around to see his husband with flowers in one hand and a teddy bear in the other. “What’s wrong?” Sho left them on their bed and walked closer to his husband. “You don’t like them?”
Masaki shook his head negatively. “No they’re lovely! Will we be going? Where is Jun?”
Sho stiffened at the hearing of Jun’s name. “He hasn’t come back yet?! Well, to be honest I don’t care! He’s an adult for God’s sake! It’s not like the big city will eat him up! Now let’s go because we will be late!”
Masaki nodded and followed his husband. He was placed carefully in the car.
“Did something happen with Jun?” Masaki’s voice was soft.
“Can you please stop mentioning him all the time?! Is there nothing else you wish to talk about but him?! For God’s sake Masaki!”
It was extremely rare for Sho to speak angrily to Masaki and the latter said nothing in response. He just shriveled at his seat. After a while Sho pulled aside.
“My love I’m sorry…” he took Masaki in his arms. “I didn’t mean to yell at you… Forgive me…”
Masaki clenched his hold on Sho’s arms. “It’s just that I’m worried about him Sho-chan… he was always the rebel one… I know that he might be difficult to approach but he’s not bad!”
Sho sighed. He knew well that Masaki would always see everyone in a good way. “I know that you’re worried about him… Don’t worry nothing happened. It’s just that you know how I don’t like people with attitude… but I promise you I will try my best! Alright?”
Masaki looked him in the eyes and caressed his cheek. “Thank you Sho-chan!”
“We should go now! Satoshi-kun is waiting for us!”
***
“She’s so small!” Sho was smiling at the sight of Masaki holding in his arms Sakura-chan.
“You would be great parents” It was Satoshi who came to sit next to him.
“Well… Masaki had been saying it but after he… became disabled he stopped mentioning it. I don’t want to put pressure on him…”
“Why are you like that?”
“Me? I have nothing” Sho replied avoiding Satoshi’s eyes.
“Don’t play the dumb one. You know exactly what I’m talking about. Did something happen?”
Sho sighed and looked at the floor. “Masaki’s younger brother came to live with us. He ran away from Chiba. Anyway… he’s just… I can’t even find the words to describe it…”
Satoshi was looking carefully at his friend. “A troublemaker?”
Sho raised an eyebrow. “I guess you could name it like that…”
Satoshi grabbed his hand. “Sho…”
Sho tried to smile. “It’s fine! Don’t worry… it’s not permanent. Once he settles down he will leave our apartment and we can all go back to our lives. You know how much I hate changes… I will get over it!” he patted his friend’s shoulder wanting to finish talking about him. His stomach was making him feel ill.
Sho turned and looked at Masaki who still had the small baby girl in his arms. It was such a beautiful picture. It managed to make him forget all the previous unpleasant events. His lips curved into a smile and a tear left a trace down his right cheek. Masaki… my love…
…………………………………….
“I will go and take a quick shower… Do you want to join me?” Sho said as he loosened his tie and took off his jacket.
“I had a shower earlier this afternoon Sho-chan… You should go. I will wait for you…” Sho helped Masaki lie down and pecked his lips.
“I won’t be late!”
He knocked on the door but no reply came to him. He entered the bathroom and as he closed the door behind him he started unbuttoning his shirt just to turn around to see the one that wished the least.
“I just finished… I needed a hot bath before sleeping. It makes my body relax…”
“Couldn’t you reply when I knocked the door? I wouldn’t enter if I knew you were inside…” Sho said narrowing his eyes.
Jun was only covered by a towel at his lower part. His hair was wet; small droplets were falling on his shoulders and collarbones. “I have already finished. There’s no harm” he moved closer to Sho and traced with his fingers his abs. “Wow! You are really fit! I could have never guessed…” his tongue brushed his lower lip as his eyes met Sho’s.
“Anyway I don’t want to be the reason you’re late… And I want you to know that I’m really sorry about this morning...” Before Sho could react, he felt soft lips on his cheek. “Good night Sho-san” Sho froze. He was looking blankly as he heard the door of the bathroom closes. God tell me… what have I done?
***
Masaki felt the bed moving. He turned around and saw Sho already in his pajamas lying next to him. “You finished Sho-chan?”
Sho simply took him in his arms. “Can you hold me Masaki?”
Masaki did as he was told wrapping his hands around his husband’s neck and let him move him closer. “Hold me tightly… please…”
Masaki buried his head in Sho’s hook of the neck and said nothing more
After a while he could hear Sho’s steady breathing; sign he was already asleep. He moved a bit so that he could see his face. His heart was beating fast. He couldn’t ease his fear no matter what. He knew something had happened between Sho and Jun; something that Sho was avoiding to tell him. What is going on Sho? What?
TO BE CONTINUED...
A.N. Hello minna! ^_^ Here's chapter 2! It's slightly more focused on Jun... but I kinda had to so that some things can be explained later ne?! He's hiding something... Also Sho is trying hard to defense his love for Masaki. I really feel sorry for him... :(
I don't know if that was what you expected or not with Jun's arrival to be honest, but things are more complicated than they look... I won't say anything else. Nino will make his appearance in the next one! Promise!!!
I hope you enjoyed it and comments are always <333!
*p.s. I know it's a somehow depressing story... so to all those who were expecting something different... I'm sorry... ><"
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